It’s 9pm,  and I’m done with my food for the night and still 300 calories short. I am full, couldn’t eat anything right now,  not even fried clams ( my favorite). I’m full. So I end the day, still a bit puzzled that I am struggling with the numbers.  Puzzled, not upset.  I say, so be it. I am not going to force food into my mouth.  I will keep trying to find balance in my diet, and continue to keep an eye on things. As long as I stay aware, I can make changes as needed. I will weigh in again on Tues, and re-vamp my diet if warranted.  Although, Do I put that much trust in the scale. I commit to watching and listening to my body. If Tues comes and the scale reads the same, that doesn’t necessarily mean anything. I am willing to accept this may take some time. I must put my impatience aside and keep on task. How can I change something, when I have given it so little time to work……..There, I have worked thru my concerns. Seems to really help by putting it down in journal form. I am diligent, if nothing else. Again, Thank you all for your comments.See you tomorrow. 

I had a good day yesterday. I had errands, and appointments, and was able to “consciously” work my food around it, and was successful. Dinner came and went, dessert, and I was still almost 400 calories short for the day. This was becoming a trend. But how? I eat when I’m hungry, never ravenous during the day. Drinking lots of water. Well, I ate more, just to meet my calorie intake for the day. I had 2 slices of peanut butter toast, while watching TV.  I have to say, it didnt feel right, then and it still doesnt. I am not down on myself, just reflecting.  :–)I think I need to trust my body.  I must trust myself.  I am putting an awful lot of trust in a number, which I got from a computer. A number that changes from site to site.  Who  knows what works best for me? There are certainly guidelines, but my make up, my activity level  are both different than others.  So, TODAY, which is all I can control, I am using my guidelines as a tool. I am listening to my inner voice, and listening to my body. My gut feeling, I will follow.