roxxstar takes it off

SO last week was my birthday, and I knew that there were places that I was going with friends and family in which I would not be able to track my points, or figure them for that matter, but I thought I could stay on task and just make good choices. Nope. Apparently, I lost focus, and underestimated and I GAINED 0.4 lbs instead. Grr!

So today was my 13th day on WW, and I am feeling a little blah.  I used some of my flex points on Sunday, when the three of us went out to Red Robin to celebrate my daughter’s birthday. I did okay, having a ground turkey burger and some steamed vegetables, but I can’t seem to forgive myself. I’ve been doubting my weight loss this week. I feel like I’m going to step on the scale and be disappointed. I’ve been watching my points very carefully, and making sure that I drink all of my water. But still, I am doubtful of any loss. One of my biggest fears is that I’m going to plateau so early on. Until I step on the scale on Wednesday, my enthusiasm is subsided. Blech, bleck, and blah…

On October 1, 2008, I walked into a Weight Watchers center for the first time in a couple of years.  When I first went to weight watchers in 2005, I weighed 212 lbs walking in, and 189 lbs less than 3 months later, when I decided that I was now a pro at figuring out my points and what I needed to do to lose. Not to mention, that I saw that WW was working for me, and I could eat whatever I wanted for a little while, and then just go back to the program. I don’t think I have to tell you that it never happened. When I walked into the center last week, I weighed 234.6 lbs. This is slightly higher than the first time I joined WW, but having three years of eating whatever the hell I wanted to, and having quit smoking this summer, I knew that I would be starting at a higher weight. I am going into this with realistic expectations. I know now that I need to keep going to meetings in order for this to work. I know that I can’t do WW Online.  I need more accountability.

I am giving myself a year at honest-to-goodness trying to lose the weight and following the plan to get as close as I can to my goal weight of 150. I lost 4.0 pounds last week, and I am totally on my way. I’m sure that you’ll be reading plenty from me. I cannot give up this time & you can’t let me!