Exercise - 90 mins on the treadmill (2 x 45 at 2mph), 15 mins with the weights

Water - 12 cups

Food - 1943 calories (20% fat, 50% carbs, 28% protein)

Breakfast - protein shake, 3 clementines (159)

Lunch - beef/mushroom/barley soup, apple, fruit salad (432)

Dinner - chicken breast with tomato/wine sauce and cheese, broccoli, butter, salad, red wine vinegar dressing (594)

Snacks - protein shake (x2), apple, fruit salad, sour wine gums, salt and vinegar crispy minis (758)

Well, all in all it ended up a decent day. I managed to assuage my craving for under 200 calories, so that was a win. I even managed to pick up the weights for 15 minutes. Tomorrow I think I’m going to look at the toning DVD in the morning. I know I won’t do it in the afternoon, so I’m going to give it a try earlier in the day. Even if it means only doing 60 minutes on the treadmill.

So I decided in the end to plan for my temptation. It’s that time of the month and I just knew I had to feed the beast, or I would likely just give in and eat something anyway. So I looked at my FitDay for the day and decided I could easily work something in as long as it was 200 calories or less. It could probably have been more but then I’d have to adjust for it. The chicken dish for tonight is fairly low in calories as well as the soup I had for lunch, so it worked out well.

I did my shopping and picked a package of Maynard Sour Wine Gums at 190 calories. And you know, I’ve eaten all but two of them, and I’ve enjoyed them. So the beast is fed (for this month at least). I’ll have to keep this in mind for next month. I came home and finished up with the treadmill for the day. I might even use the weights or the resistance bands in a little bit as well. For Saturday I’ve bought some hair colour to cover the creeping white on my scalp. That should keep me busy as well.

julieesg -  that’s often been my downfall in the past, even when eating well.  I’ll convince myself that I can eat badly for ‘just one day’.  Of course, I know better.  Talking about it helps, I hope.

mizu - I think it keeps me in line a little as well.  We’ll see. 

round - I think the accountability is key.  I almost joined weight watchers a while back for the same reason.  I figured if I had to go weigh in once a week it might help.  Of course, we’re back to the not being a joiner thing.  So the blog, and the occasional forum post will do instead.

I’ve been trying to decide why we (as a group) like to blog.  It might be for support, but I think it’s the idea of being introspective, in public.  It’s about making your feelings known, about your weight, your struggle, whatever.  And it is for the support, or at least knowing that you’re speaking to a room that understands.  They may not understand you specifically, but they generally get it.  I find this when reading other blogs.  I get what they’re saying, although I don’t always know what to say back.  I don’t think I’ve ever truly been the nurturing, supportive type.  That’s where the name of the blog comes from.  Maybe joiner wasn’t the best term, but it’s kind of the same thing.  I don’t know if it’s the weight, or just my nature, but I’ve always kind of stood to the side in a group.  After 40 some-odd years I’m not sure it that will ever change.

Anyway, I got up earlier today and did 45 minutes on the treadmill before having breakfast or a shower.  I have to go buy the cats some food this afternoon.  Once again I wrestled with the demons as I’m on my own for most of Saturday.  This would have been an excuse to go buy something to make while alone.  I don’t think I ever ate badly in front of others.  Oh, during my last job I might buy fast food for my dinner, but it was usually better than what they had.  They would purchase burgers and fries, I would get a chicken burger, or a chili and plain potato.  Then on the way home I would get a half dozen cookies to eat on my own.  I think today I’ll make it though.  Just to the pet store and straight back.  I’ll try and set myself a task to do Saturday so I don’t go off and eat something horrible.  The real problem is that there are things just bad enough in the house that I could eat badly without making an advance purchase.

I’ll confirm later if I made my trip out without any side trips.