Yes, I’m cooking today. It’s obviously not enough to have 63 meals in the freezer, I need to make more. That’s not really a fair comment since we’re out of hamburgers and meat sauce. Costco is a good, and bad place, to shop. The ground beef is usually somewhere between 5 and 6 pounds of meat. So, that’s 3 lbs to make hamburgers and I have to do something with the rest. So, I’m making spicy meatloaf. It’s not really a meatloaf though. It’s a meatloaf mix that I bag up in 6oz packages, uncooked. You take a large amount of onions, peppers, and spices and mix together with ground beef and italian sausage. Later I press each one into a large custard cup and bake with cut up onions and potatoes. The problem here is, after making the meatloaf, that I’ll still be out of meat sauce. I decided last night that I really like the baked pasta dish that I made last night. My mother isn’t fond of it, so we decided I’d make a smaller amount for myself and she would make fish on those days. So, making 3 lbs of it into sauce seemed excessive. Tomorrow I’ll use the frozen beef in the freezer to make the sauce. Then I promise I’ll stop for a little bit. Well, at least until I’m out of something else… or soup. Oh, I also made a tomato/veg/wine sauce that I use on the chicken breasts. (Yikes)
My mother and I bought this house together about 10 years ago. It was a great choice and a good investment. We generally get along fairly well and are pretty good at staying out of each other’s way. However, it’s coming up on her 80th birthday and I’m now plotting a party with one of the neighbours. We have relatives who recently turned 80 this summer and fall, with the requisite birthday parties. I offered to have one for her (can’t be a surprise if I’m having it here) and was told that I would be disowned if I even considered it. Her reason was that she didn’t want people to know she was turning 80. The thing is, you really wouldn’t ever guess. It probably doesn’t hurt that I don’t look like I’m 42, so people figure she couldn’t be 80. She was 38 when she had me, which people really don’t think of. I’ve decided that my mother will truly outlive us all. She’s basically carrying a few extra pounds, which is okay for her. I think I worked out her BMI once and she’s just pushing the high side of normal/healthy. I sometimes hate her ability to eat what she wants and not gain weight. She eats about 1200 calories between breakfast and lunch, the same dinner as I do, and oh yes - candy. She goes out on Friday to do shopping and comes home with two or three bags of toffees and such.
The only comfort I take is that I can eventually live on what I’m eating now. I may eventually have to lower what I’m taking to lose the weight, but sometime (many years from now) I can pretty much eat what I’m doing at the moment and maintain my weight. Strangely enough, I’m going to check in a couple of weeks, but I might actually increase what I’m eating slightly. I know from the past that losing weight too fast is not a good thing and I could possibly be there at the moment. Periods and water retention really screw up knowing where you are. This morning, with the weight I got on the scale (342.4) I’m averaging 2.77 pounds per week. I know it should be closer to 2, but as long as it stays between 2 and 2.5 I’ll be happy. It’s just I know if I lose too fast now I’ll have to cut calories later to continue, so we’ll see. I’d almost rather slow the loss at the moment (just a touch) by bringing the calories up a bit, or at least closer to the 2000 mark. That means later I can come back to where I am now, or just under, and keep losing.
God, I sound just a tiny bit obsessive there, don’t I? Better that I suppose at the moment than where I was a couple of months ago - slowly gaining all the lost pounds back.
Well, that’s enough sad rambling for the moment. It’s almost time for lunch, then treadmill, then finish up the meatloaf, then dinner. Today I seem busy enough that I don’t know how I could fit work into it as well. I actually saw I job I wouldn’t mind today (although I suspect they would think I don’t have the supervisory experience to do it). I also saw a posting for a company I worked at about 5 years ago. I’m curious as to who left because the woman who was there was fantastic, and not appreciated. It also tells me that my thoughts about going back to school are probably correct, as they are asking for either a graduate engineer or engineering technologist. The silly thing is that none of the two quality engineers, or three quality managers that work/have worked there had those qualifications. It seems to be a standard requirement now. This is something I’ve run into since I came back and have been looking for work. Oh well, as a friend of mine said, you’ll be three years older, but with the education.
mizu - yes, I’m getting the breakdown from FitDay. I don’t have any specific goals, just some fuzzy ones like less than 30% fat, and at least 20% protein. The treadmill, well, it’s the thing I dread the most. I know if I keep it up I will get to a point where I actually enjoy it. I’ve been there before, so I know that it happens. I’m just lucky enough that I bought it years ago, back when I actually had a great income and could afford those toys. I know later I’ll probably want to join a gym to do strength training, but financially that’s just not possible at the moment.
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