Mind…Body…Spirit

Hung over…

Posted ravengirl on September 18th, 2008 | Filed under Whining

From food of all things…  I have learned through doing the Radiant Recovery program several things about myself…apparently that isn’t enough to stop me from doing it though.  So, I quit my job as a dog bather on Monday after a truly wretched day…that day was kind of a blur…and I felt miserable and self medicated…Wednesday started out well…I still don’t know how it went wrong…  I had a great meditation session, I went to yoga class (granted my regular teacher has left for India but the class was still good)  I was late getting my lunch because of traffic and stupid road construction.  I think that that is where things got screwy… when I got home I ate to compensate…and I guess I just didn’t quit…all day…now there isn’t nearly the amount of junk in the house that I used to eat…well…that doesn’t really help me any more because it takes a lot less crap to make me feel horrible these days.  And so I have…  I woke up feeling just like I used to before I started recovery…foggy…nauseous…exhausted…bitchy… It was horrible, I have really gotten used to the ease of my mornings…feeling bright and clear and happy, I had forgotten how bad it used to be.  I did manage to get myself back on the path today…it wasn’t ideal as I didn’t get to work out or anything but at least my food was stable and on time and nothing in between.  I also managed to grab a quick nap on the couch before I had to make dinner which made me feel better for awhile.  I am still fighting with a headache that may or may not turn into a migraine…dang I hope it doesn’t…  I have completed my application for a dogwalking position and have to run out tomorrow for a legal size envelope…wish me luck!!   I am scared of demoralizing myself by getting on the scale so I don’t think that I will right now…we’ll see…