Mind…Body…Spirit

OMG!!!

Posted ravengirl on September 9th, 2008 | Filed under Somewhere in between...

Okay! So my life is totally crazy right now!  That is why I haven’t been on here for awhile…  I started the new job at the dog grooming place and while it is wonderful and I love it…  It has been very taxing physically and mentally…  I was working 7 hours on my feet (30 mins for lunch) on hard concrete and lifting and wrestling with 140 pd mastiffs…  And I was totally loving it but as much as I didn’t want to admit it I couldn’t handle it…  Yesterday I ended up in the ER with shooting pains down my neck and arm…lovely day off let me tell you… It has just brought it into clear relief that I can’t handle that many hours…maybe after I work up to it and get more used to everything but right now…can’t do it…  And I was caught feeling like I had failed…but I think that had more to do with my chemicals being out of balance from not eating (while in the ER)  My DH has been nothing but supportive…he has observed and advised and been my rock…  I went in to work this morning and talked to my boss.  I was so nervous, I thought for sure that she would tell me to take a hike…she didn’t…and not only that…she was so concerned that she just wanted me to do what was best for me.  You just can’t beat that in a boss.  So I am reducing my hours to 4 hrs/day, 3 days a week.  I will have time to go to the gym 3 days a week and work out at home on the other days.  I will also have the time that I need to get stuff that I need done around here and run errands…  Since I have the luxury to not be truly desperate for the income it will be the best of all worlds…  I can’t believe how dark everything looked just yesterday…  And I know that has so much to do with when my food gets off…  I have also had the bloodwork done to see if my thyroid has been affected by my meds…  My weight has been frustratingly stubborn…nothing new to report even with the extra activity and better eating than I have ever done in my life.  But I have hope that the tide is turning and that I will have better news to report next week.  I have discovered more words of wisdom in Kathleen’s writings for sugar sensitive people…  I was using peanut butter as my protein way too much…  I need to reduce the bad fats, increase the good, and get more of my standard workouts in not just my work at work!  I think if I can get a handle on all of that then I will be on my way.  I have also found a way to get more salmon that doesn’t make me gag… (I am not fond of salmon or tuna)  Those foil packs of salmon pack quite a protein punch…and I have found that if I heat it in a frying pan with a tiny bit of olive oil and dry it out some I can handle it in a wrap with some mustard…  Still not my favorite thing but I can definitely get my 3 days a week that way…I am going to try that with the tuna as well. Wish me luck!  I am also taking flax tablets as well…  So, I think things are finally going to smooth out and I can get back on track…  I just need to ease back on the throttle a little and conserve a little energy to keep me going…