weight on thursday, july 3 - 193

breakfast today:

2 whole wheat toast - 100 (Nature’s Own brand) natural peanut butter (2 T.) 200, butter 1 T. 100, prunes, dates, a fig. (150) Breakfast total: 550

 lunch today:

 chicken tenders cooked with Pam spray, lemon herb seasoning, salt and rosemary -chopped the chicken into a salad of Romaine lettuce, 1 T. bacon ranch dressing. (YUM!!) around 300 calories total.

Some of my inspirations:

1.T saying in a letter: “I love sugar snap peas for a “t.v.” snack - much better for you than sweets!” (he has no idea I’m even trying to diet! He said he has to “watch his weight”.

2.T saying that he has to “watch his weight” (I know, strange that that would inspire me, but it helps!!)

3.Reading “OPB’s” (other people’s blogs) especially their good ideas and recipes, and when I read that they’re exercising even if they don’t feel like it it inspires me to push through and do mine. (sometimes) *smile*

4. sadly, once in awhile I’m “scared” into being good - i.e. this morning and something I read was so similar to my situation, I hit the “refresh” button on the mental page that says “this weight has got to come off now!!”

and then I’m tempted to don running shoes and burst through the door and run till it kills me…..but I know that won’t work, let alone, who has the time?? I’ve got to remind myself: “slow and steady wins the race!” I’ve come from 226 to 193 - granted, it’s taken awhile but I’m at least continually moving down instead of staying the same or moving up. I just can’t believe I’ve let myself stay fat for most of my adult life! I was huge as a kid - mom knew from nothing about “healthy” cooking. I was slim for my wedding (130, which on me, looked like twiggy!) Right now, I’d be outrageously happy to be at 150, or even 160!

But I do have some goals for the future:

I am turning 40 this year, and by my birthday (Oct. 4) I’d like to be down to -well, I hate setting “number” goals, but I’d like to be moving downward still, and just for the heck of it, let’s say around 185. I know that don’t seem like much, but I know myself, and it’s taken me a long time to get “here” so I know the pounds aren’t going to magically melt off overnight….shoot! It could take me 2 years yet to really reach goal! But that’s ok as long as I’m moving….even at a snail’s pace. (just call me Gary!) “Ahoy, fellow Spongebob fans!!”

Now, I don’t know if I’d call this one a “goal” or a reward:

But, on or before my 45th birthday (five years hence) I am going to get a breast lift! Yes!! Me! The one who said (to herself) “I could never justify spending money on something like that!!” Well, now I plan to do that - It seems it’s only around $4000, and 5 years should give me time to raise the cashola + give me time to lose the weight first, and as we all know, losing weight does nothing for sagging boobs. My husband is all for it (surprise surprise!) the dog. But he’s a good dog. (lol!!) He likes ‘em now, but I know he’ll like ‘em more after the surgery! And no…I’m not doing it just for him, I really want this…and in case anyone cares enough to wonder, yes, I think it’s called for….when you sit braless and your nipples almost touch your thighs…honey, it’s ok to think about surgery! LOL!!!