leftover birthday cake is of the devil.

 2 or 3 pieces of chocolate b-day cake of various sizes. (felt like crap physically after, btw)

salad of Romaine lettuce and 2 T. bacon ranch dressing

(for what it’s worth I’m PMS-ing and with me the P can stand for “Pre” or “Post
 and if I could think of a P word meaning during I’d add that too….)

anyway, breasts are sore, I’m having crazy food cravings, and mood swings - one person that i email frequently thinks I have a split personality, per these crazy mood swings!!

Breakfast: 4 whites, 1 yolk, 2 Rykrisp crackers, 1 tall glass lemonade (sweet and low)

I ate kinda bad yesterday - haven’t been exercising either - where do some people get their discipline to stick with exercise??? I thought by making a decision to just do a very small bit of exercise I’d really be able to stick with it, but no…..it hasn’t worked out that way.

….hmmm…I just had something very like an idea! I set the timer to do my dishes, ‘cos I hate this job so….so maybe if I set the timer to do my exercise……maybe I’ll try this today, (allowing an extra minute to get from setting the timer on the microwave onto the mini trampoline in the office, of course) gosh, I almost feel motivated enough to try doing this right now! *smile*

Well, I did it again! Fell off the wagon that is….

The church dinner just proved to be too much for this poor gal!

 I’ll go ahead and write everything I’ve had today, for whatever good that’s gonna do:

breakfast at home: special K/strawberry cereal with milk

breakfast at church: chocolate swirl bundt cake, banana cake with maple icing, coffee

lunch: 2 slices ham, 3 slices swiss cheese, 2 wedges Jarelsburg cheese, about 6 ritz crackers, pea salad, 3 bean salad, cottage cheese/orange jell-o salad, (there were 2 of these -mine and someone else’s, so of course I had to have 2 helpings to compare - theirs was better but mine was pretty good too! a bunch of sour cream and onion potato chips, sweet tea, and another piece of that scrumptious banana cake!! OMGosh!! How could I have done it??? I wonder how many calories all that crap was!? ….but it was soooo deliscious! I wouldn’t be too worried, except hubby just brought home the leftover jell-o salad. What’s that music I hear?? …Did anyone else just hear the “Jaws” theme song start to play???? ………Just when you thought it was safe to go back in the kitchen……!

 Hope everyone else is doing better than me today!!

oven fried chicken

mashed potatoes

green beans

cucumbers in sour cream

pickled beets

2 pieces white/wheat bread/ 2 T. butter

salad /2T. bacon ranch dressing

Do I hope to lose any weight this week????? Eating like this????? yikes!!

Hey all!

What do you guys do for “sweets cravings” ?

How about “salty cravings”?

And I still don’t know how to upload pictures that are bigger than thumbnails. Can anyone help me?

Thanks!!

weight on thursday, july 3 - 193

breakfast today:

2 whole wheat toast - 100 (Nature’s Own brand) natural peanut butter (2 T.) 200, butter 1 T. 100, prunes, dates, a fig. (150) Breakfast total: 550

 lunch today:

 chicken tenders cooked with Pam spray, lemon herb seasoning, salt and rosemary -chopped the chicken into a salad of Romaine lettuce, 1 T. bacon ranch dressing. (YUM!!) around 300 calories total.

Some of my inspirations:

1.T saying in a letter: “I love sugar snap peas for a “t.v.” snack - much better for you than sweets!” (he has no idea I’m even trying to diet! He said he has to “watch his weight”.

2.T saying that he has to “watch his weight” (I know, strange that that would inspire me, but it helps!!)

3.Reading “OPB’s” (other people’s blogs) especially their good ideas and recipes, and when I read that they’re exercising even if they don’t feel like it it inspires me to push through and do mine. (sometimes) *smile*

4. sadly, once in awhile I’m “scared” into being good - i.e. this morning and something I read was so similar to my situation, I hit the “refresh” button on the mental page that says “this weight has got to come off now!!”

and then I’m tempted to don running shoes and burst through the door and run till it kills me…..but I know that won’t work, let alone, who has the time?? I’ve got to remind myself: “slow and steady wins the race!” I’ve come from 226 to 193 - granted, it’s taken awhile but I’m at least continually moving down instead of staying the same or moving up. I just can’t believe I’ve let myself stay fat for most of my adult life! I was huge as a kid - mom knew from nothing about “healthy” cooking. I was slim for my wedding (130, which on me, looked like twiggy!) Right now, I’d be outrageously happy to be at 150, or even 160!

But I do have some goals for the future:

I am turning 40 this year, and by my birthday (Oct. 4) I’d like to be down to -well, I hate setting “number” goals, but I’d like to be moving downward still, and just for the heck of it, let’s say around 185. I know that don’t seem like much, but I know myself, and it’s taken me a long time to get “here” so I know the pounds aren’t going to magically melt off overnight….shoot! It could take me 2 years yet to really reach goal! But that’s ok as long as I’m moving….even at a snail’s pace. (just call me Gary!) “Ahoy, fellow Spongebob fans!!”

Now, I don’t know if I’d call this one a “goal” or a reward:

But, on or before my 45th birthday (five years hence) I am going to get a breast lift! Yes!! Me! The one who said (to herself) “I could never justify spending money on something like that!!” Well, now I plan to do that - It seems it’s only around $4000, and 5 years should give me time to raise the cashola + give me time to lose the weight first, and as we all know, losing weight does nothing for sagging boobs. My husband is all for it (surprise surprise!) the dog. But he’s a good dog. (lol!!) He likes ‘em now, but I know he’ll like ‘em more after the surgery! And no…I’m not doing it just for him, I really want this…and in case anyone cares enough to wonder, yes, I think it’s called for….when you sit braless and your nipples almost touch your thighs…honey, it’s ok to think about surgery! LOL!!!