Archive for June 17th, 2008

I don’t know what to do

This is starting to worry me - it’s like, every morning, I intend to do better, then I go right back to my old ways of eating and overeating.

 This morning, for instance, I had a grapefruit, but nothing else really sounded good, so I didn’t eat anything else right then. Then later, I baked bisquits for the kids and they looked soooooo good, I caved and had a couple with butter and jelly. So here I am again, I have no idea how many calories I consumed - yes, I could try to figure it out, dig the bisquit can out of the trash and guesstimate how many T’s of butter and jelly I slathered on…..I don’t really want to just “give up” but that feels like what I’m doing anyway. I did get some inspiration this morning reading someone else’s blog and I did some exercise - precious little but better than I had been doing….

The kids are stressing me out so much it is not even funny! I never really thought I’d long for the day N moves out…but I’m there. I admit it. And he’s only 14. God help me.

Let’s see….the bright side of things….

1) Only 65 days until school starts!! (if I get the job at the school, it will help my financial stress immensely!)

2) “Thank You God……for YOU!!!” W/O You, I don’t know what I’d do! Honestly!!!

3) Thank You God….for friends…and one very special friend in particular. Thank You so much!!!