What I’ve had so far today:

Breakfast: Carrot/Orange Juice

Lunch: Healthy Choice chicken and rice soup, added cooked navy beans

Snacks: turkey, more juice (I have a cold)

drinks today: 1/2 cup coffee (not very good when I’ve got a cold) tea with a little sugar, lots of carrot juice/orange juice, lots of water with lemon and Stevia.

Dad came over the other day and put up my new mirror. It’s an eye-opener. While sitting there on the bed today, talking on the phone, I could look over and count the rolls of fat…no, I wasn’t naked, my T-shirt was snug though. ugh. I realized that I’m not as slim as I feel, it’s just that my boobs usually block the view from above. Well, I’ve got to look on the bright side, at least the boobs still stick out further than the tummy.

I am so hooked on this song I heard recently! It’s “What I Really Meant to Say” by Cindy Thompson (I don’t know if I spelled her name right) but I was looking for “romantic” videos on youtube - and I’d searched under “First Knight”, one of my favorite romantic movies, and someone had made a music vid using her song - it’s awesome! And I’ve listened to that song like a hundred times since. I’m currently writing “About James” and this song is James and Jillian’s theme song….

 I finally got an email off to Tom. I started it around 1 here so it would have been around 7 there, but with all my interruptions, I didn’t get it sent until 4 here. I just checked and there’s no reply…I’m sure he’s sleeping by now. He said he thought of me yesterday because of a certain hymn they sang… I thought that was sweet.

I feel really sh***y…..I totally hate having a cold!!! Last night I gave in to stupid cravings - I had a drink, with the idea that the alcohol would help me sleep and I think it would’ve except I was just so restless…couldn’t turn my mind off again. So then I got up and totally noshed out on salty snacks! Grrrr…..