Who is the fat lady in the mirror!?

My new blog has moved to Sparkpeople.com

I love 3FC but sparkpeople.com offers so much more than just blogging.  I have my own page, a food and nutrition tracker and gain sparkpoints just for surfing the site, reading articles and for logging in!!  My page is…

http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp

I will still continue to post my weight here as it is my main weigh-in site and my meal plan is still current… I just don’t hae enough time to blog in two different places.

Not mine!!!  My boss is on vacation… Never in my life have I enjoyed someone elses vacation so much as I have enjoyed this one!!  And the other boss is out next week… so you know what that means?  The current one on vacation will be spending his days at the gym… (when the cats away, man does that mouse play!!)  We all work better when moron isn’t around and there is absolutely no stress whatsoever.  I think he’s supposed to come back tomorrow… bleah.

I’m feeling so great!!  I’m doing my walking every night and I’m feeling stronger each night.  I think it’s almost time to make the circuit twice instead of once.  I am looking forward to weigh-in day on Saturday… each week brings new beginnings and it’s exciting!!

I’ve made up my mind that when the weather turns colder, I’m going to join an inexpensive local gym.  Right now I can walk outside for free but the cold weather really does me in with my RA and fibro.

Well… time to hit the bricks for my walk!!

2 pounds down as of this morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That’s a total of 7!!!  I feel so much better about myself.  I went yesterday and got a mani/pedi with DD and then today I went and got a fresh new haircut and major highlights!!  I want to look as good as I feel!! 

 I can’t believe how easy it’s been to stay on track with food AND exercise, especially since it’s become a family thing and everyone is walking with me after dinner.  I’m loving it!! 

 My leg is feeling really good and I haven’t had any more numbness since Thursday!!

Well… I felt better when I woke up this morning but a around 10:30 this morning at work, my left leg started going numb so I told my boss I was leaving and headed straight to the ER.  I got Xrayed, EKG’d, blood work and an ultrasound and they found nothing… like a clot or any other thing that may have been dangerous.  The doctor thought that maybe I have a pinched nerve either in my leg or in my back and that’s what’s causing the numbness.  It’s still tingly even now but I’ve noticed that it gets a little better when I lay down… so maybe it is a nerve or something and when I lay down it relieves the pressure.  However, it’s not totally gone.

I was starved when I got home from the hospital but I managed to stay OP!!  YAY ME!!

I’m going to bed… it’s after midnight!! 

PS - I also managed to get my walking in tonight.

I have the most excruciating pain in my outer calf.  It comes and goes in spurts.  It is burning and so painful I get nauseated when I get what feels like a spasm.  I’m praying that it’s not a blood clot or something serious.  It started this morning around 11 while I was at work.  I called the doctor and they said that if it doesn’t start to get better, I should go to the ER so they can do some tests.   I went on the pill about 4 months ago and they say that it can cause blood clots so I’m really hoping that isn’t the problem. 

On a brighter note, my eating and exercise are right on track.  I did manage to get my walking in tonight even with the pain.  It’s not affected by activity and I know it’s not an injury because I was just sitting at my desk when it started so I thought, just in case I have to go to the ER in the morning, that I would get my walking in.  I am quite pissed off about this because I am so determined to lose this weight, I’m mad that there might be something that will throw me off track.   I know that probably sounds dumb but it’s just how I feel.

I am looking forward to weigh day on Saturday. 

I’m sitting here thinking how lucky I am.  I am healthy.  I have food in my stomach and I am comfortable.  I have a family that I love and that loves me.  I have my pets that give unconditional love no matter what mood I’m in.  I have clothes on my back and I am alive.  Sometimes I think I get so involved in the small day to day things that I forget to look at the good things in life. 

 Although I’m feeling great from getting healthier daily, I have a sore throat today.  I enjoyed sleeping in and lounging around most of the day.  I did manage to make it to the grocery store but since then, I’m just hanging out.  My husband made me my favorite dinner (it’s a Polish name) and I’m just sitting here watching Good Morning Vietnam! which is one of my faves.

I had a dream about tidal waves last night.  When I dream about tidal waves, it usually means that I’m worried about something.  The only thing I’m worried about is my job.  It’s hard to get up and spend the day at a place you don’t like to be.  I am looking forward to finding a new job in September but I’m not looking forward to the interviewing and all that.   So I’m assuming that that is what is bothering me.  I hate those dreams.  They are very frightening… and weird… because I never get hurt or drown.

Anyway, as soon as I can find another job… I am outta there!! 

Nitey nite!

Well, the scale was my friend this morning… 1 pound down this week!  I was definitely hoping for more because TOM ended last week but I’m very happy.  I’ve been working very hard and it’s paying off.  The funny thing is that the first week, I ate an average of 1700 calories a day and this week it was closer to 1500 and I lost less.  Maybe it’s because the first week I lost 4 pounds which is a nice loss.  You always lose less in the following weeks.  I’m just going to keep doing what I’m doing and it’ll eventually happen.  After all, my goal is losing 1 to 2 pounds per week.

I cannot believe how much better I’m feeling these days.  Even tonight my nightly walk seemed a little easier even than it was last night.  I’ve been gradually increasing my distance and find that it is getting easier every day.  I’m even finding that my eating is feeling more normal.  You know that feeling… the first few days on a diet you have to think about everything you put in your mouth.  All you think about is food!  As the days pass, the thoughts of stopping at Mickey D’s start becoming fewer and farther between and staying healthy seems to take over.   Also, the thoughts of stopping for fast food were usually because I wasn’t eating right and was starving from lack of eating.  I have found that if I break up my meals and eat something every 2-3 hours, my stomach stays full and my metabolism stays up.

For example, for breakfast I eat a 1/2 a cup of granola cereal with a 1/2 a cup of skim milk, a yogurt and a piece of fruit.  BUT… I eat my cereal around 8AM before I go to work and I eat my fruit and yogurt at 10:30AM at work.  I eat my lunch at 1:00PM, a snack of a piece of fruit and a yogurt around 4PM and dinner around 6:30PM.  Then I have a low calorie snack after my nightly walk.  I can remember being starving when I wasn’t eating healthy and since I’ve started my new meal plan, I haven’t been hungry even once between meals.

I’m very excited to get weighed Saturday and see what the scale says.  I haven’t used the Slim Shots all week because I haven’t been feeling hungry between meals so why pay the money if I don’t need them?

I’m looking forward to my day off tomorrow.  I’ve not stopped for two weeks straight between work and holiday parties.  I’m sleeping in a little!!

Nitey nite!

I’m like the energizer bunny… I keep going and going and going!!!  LOL  I just wish my ankle didn’t hurt so darn bad!!!  It’s really been painful on my nightly walks, especially up hills.  I had such a greasy diner tonight that I literally felt sick when I got done eating.  My husband made eggs and bacon and hash browns… (yes, it all logged on my fitday… LOL) and it was like grease-ball city!  After eating tuna and salads and nothing but healthy foods, that just sat in my stomach all wrong.  I’ll have to run over to the grocery store tomorrow after work to pick up something for dinner.  I want to make sure I stay away from the grease!!!

I noticed today that my belly seems a bit smaller.  I have a pair of pants that I wear that have a lower waistband and for some reason they make my stomach look huge so I always have to wear a longer shirt to cover my belly.  Today, I wore a shorter shirt and noticed in the mirror at work that my stomach wasn’t bulging out like it used to.  You know, once you get started eating healthy, it’s not that difficult to keep it up AND as you see little, sometimes even minute changes, it really can get your motivation level back up and running.  I lost 4 pounds last week and have been very happy with how I’m feeling.

 Nitey nite!! :):):):):)

Well, another monday of misery at this job.  I won’t go into details because thinking and writing about it just makes me mad all over again.  It just makes me sad to work so hard and be treated the way I’m treated.  I’ve cried so much since I got home.

I’m back on program today and feeling strong and in control.  I think my scale made it thru the cleaning… LOL.  It seems to be working OK.  I weighed the same this morning as I did friday morning at weigh-in so I guess I didn’t do any real damage over the weekend.

I am exhausted and I need to hit the hay early so this is going to be a very short post. 

Nite!