25 years young

I have been so busy with the new job and because of that I have to plan my exercise carefully. Even more important than exercising to me is planning my eating. I know that if i eat too much i will never get to goal. So the last couple of days, i guess you could say i have been eating very very little. And it paid off, this morning i weighed in at 70.8. I weighed in last week i think at around 71.6 or something.

I am also starting to feel sick because the cold is really setting in now. When i am sick i dont eat that much anyway. But, i know that all i have to do now is just minimize portions and drink water.

Going to be another tough week but i know that i can do this!

I am having trouble. AGAIN! This is frustrating. I get to 71kg and so close to being under 70 that i am finding EVERY possible way i can to not make it happen. Yes, i know the whole story with self-destruction. The fact is that I dont think i am worth it.

Hate feeling low. I ate allot of candy this weekend, and i am not happy about it. I have an aweful day and then a good one and back and forth. WHY??? Why am i chosing failure ? I know i said i wanted to be 60kg. Yes, that is ideal but right now i just want to get to 65kg and maintain. I need to stop doing the following :

- over thinking food.

- eating more than 1 portion.

- going above the calorie limit.

My fiance is starting to eat healthy cos he realized that he put on some weight. Why is it so easy for men ? Ok, well at least it is easy for him. He just eats small amounts at breakfast and dinner and a small piece of choc for desert. I need to get back on track. Because even when i do lose those 5kg, i still have to maintain. And that is going to be hard. But, i need to learn to just love myself and know that i am worth it.

Note to self : I love me and I can do this.

Hi guys!

So I am 25 years young

Birthday went really well. Was hoping for a more dramatic party but since all my friends dont actually live here, it was a smallish group. But, we had drinks and had a good time at TGIF or Fridays.

Things are happening so quickly in our lives that this morning I just had to take a minute to breath and get it all out in my blog. So we move in to our dream house on the 12th of Dec. Everybody is making a big deal about how we are not going to manage because it will be Christmas time. However, we have moved allot so i guess we know how to make this last one a quick one.

We also bought a beautiful new car. Yes, i know global economic crisis and here we are buying things. But, we are both now working and can afford the payments comfortably. The car is gorgeous and my fiance loves its features. Its a stationwagon, thinking long term about when we have babies

I started work and it is going well. Was so stressful in the begining cos i have to learn the language and also the skills. But, i love a challenge. So, i also had an interview last week with a huge cosmetics chain and it is also part time so i will manage to keep both jobs. More opportunities for me at this new job and I know i will get the job!

So, how am i doing body wise ? Well i weighed myself. Which is one of the reasons i am blogging aswell. I weigh 71.1kg down from 73. something kg. Which is good. I know i should have been under 70kg by now. But, goodness its been hectic and i am surprised that i lost weight.

New goal : New Years eve party.

Celebrating with cousins who have a jacuzzi and plan to use it. It will be snowing but we will be sipping on champagne and sitting in a warm tub. So, why am i stressed ? The cousin is perfect. She has a body that would get Barbie jealous and she is married to Ken. Now, my fiance doesnt worry about his body and i dont care how he looks, i love him. But, my body isnt Barbies body. So of course, i am in full panic. Well not full but i would like to look semi decent. I know that i am not fat anymore, but i just want to be around 65. She weighs between 58 and 61. Can i do this ? Of course i can.

What are your new years goals ? Have you started thinking about it ?

xoxo

You know I realized that when I am not stressing about how many calories are in everything i put in my mouth, I actually eat less! I dont know if any of you share the same thing but last week I noticed how fixated I was on losing weight and I worked out at the gym allot and it made no difference to the scale because as my lovely fiance said, it is simple math : I ate more than I was burning off.

So, this week has been ok. Portion control has been good and I am realizing again that I was silly to think that I could outsmart the Gods of Portion Control. Silly silly silly me …

Great news though … We finally got approval from the bank to buy the house that we have been wanting. It is just gorgeous! Links to the pics : http://www.finn.no/finn/viewimage?finnkode=14888323&reference=3/148/883/23_2000413533.jpg&adheading=Attraktiv+enebolig+over+2+plan%21+Flott+utsikt+over+%D8yern&sid=xz6cba_B8mR881459&adTypeId=1&WT.svl=Hovedbilde

It is a cute home and it has apple trees and a HUGE christmas type tree in the back. We both love the place because there is a bit of renovating to do and that is one of the things that the two of us just love! Otherwise, the home is totally lovely. Cannot believe it - this is the start of our lives! We move in Jan 25 as we have a 3 month termination period on the rental we have now. Which is fine by me, have all this time to decide what fridge and stove and all these lovely things for our new home! WOW! I am insanely happy right now!

Going to a spin class at 5pm. Going to be so fun! xoxo

Yup. My weight is the same as last week however, I am not mad or upset because I know what my problem is. I still continue to be greedy when it comes to food. I know that i have to change my brain to understand that if i eat less, i will see changes. I mean, ok I know i can see a change in body but if I want to get results on the scale then I will have to drastically stop eating everything I can get my hands on!

So short and sweet … goal for next week : EAT LESS!

xoxo

Yesterday, I looked pretty damn smart! I wore a tight pencil skirt, was a size 10 so up at the waist it was loose. But anyway it looked great! And a pair of killer high heels! I walked around the city from store to store and asked if they had any available jobs.

I have to admit that it wasnt good hearing no from some of the stores. So when i got home, I was sad. I think i went to around 10 of my fav stores that i knew i would like to work in. I handed in 4 out of the 10 copies of my cv’s i had made. So i was feeling down cos i wanted to get a more positive response.

Then, out of no where at 7pm last night one of the stores i went to actually called me back! I was on top of the moon! It is a jewellery and acessory store called Bella Donna and it is a sweet little store. The store manager called me and said she read my cv and would like to meet me. So i have an official interview on Friday at 3pm! I really hope i get it! I want to get a paying job!

Also need to call Zara cos they need part time help. Would LOVE to work there too. Love all the clothes from Zara!

Will keep you guys posted. Went spinning this morning and going to another 5pm class. I am packing in all the classes i can before my birthday! Its soon .. 2 november is very soon! I plan to look HOT! haha well we’ll see!

xoxo

I am over the moon to know that my pants are loose. But seriously, they look silly on me. I mean, i pull them out to see how much space is in between my actual stomache and my jeans and i look like those people advertising weight loss products.

Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the feeling! But, i had to research what size I am actually supposed to be wearing. The jeans i have on today are a EU size 38 (US 8). And the label on the pants says 105cm. Having measured my hips I am around 88cm. And according to: http://www.usatourist.com/english/tips/Womens-Sizes.html … i should be wearing somewhere between a size 32 and 34 (US 2 and 4). I think something must be wrong with the site so i googled more and i found to be somewhat correct. But, i am pretty sure i would fit ok in a size 36. I just cannot picture me in those sizes. It would mean that I am almost on par with my small/skinny friends. Hard for my brain to digest.

The best way I guess, is just to go and have a day of jeans shopping. I dont want to go to stores and try on small sizes and be all happy. Because then, I am going to feel as if I have reached goal and that isn’t true. And we all know that jeans are the LEAST forgiving clothes. So i will make a plan to try on a couple of pairs and let you guys know.

I will be having a day out in the city tomorrow. I am going to be leaving my CV in a couple of clothing stores because i need a job and I like the idea of working in a clothes store. I love fashion. And, goodness knows I will be needing new smaller clothes! So i might aswell get them on some kind of employee discount system

Having weighed myself yesterday, I reopened the battle with the scale. Well ok, it isn’t that dramatic. But, i thought, that since I weigh 73.3kg - there is 3.3kg standing between me and what I believe will make me happy i.e to actually weigh under 70. Imagine that.To actually see the number 60 again on the scale!! I am closer now than i have ever been!

So, what does it mean to me to lose 3.3kg ?

1. I will feel like these last couple of months of hard sweat in the spinning classes actually worked.

2. I will know that when I set my mind to something, i can actually do it. Ok, I know that my goal when I started this journey was to weigh 60kg by my birthday. So i am off target by 10kg. Well 13.3kg to be exact. But, having lost the weight i have, I have begun to see myself in a whole new light. That is more important to me than 13.3 kg. Because, as with many 3FC members, after you get to goal you have to maintain, and i believe that I am learning all the lessons i need to maintain a good body and be healthy.

3. I can buy small clothes! How cool! Well right now, i fit into US Medium sizes and they arent tight. So thats great. The feeling of looking great in clothes is like no other! I LOVE IT!

4. I will be learning how to see food in a positive way.

5. I will be able to one day teach my  kids to have a balance with food.

YAY! YAY! YAY!

Short story: Weighed myself and i weigh 73.3 kg! Under 70 seems so close!
Long story: My fiance and I decided we would weigh ourselves each Sunday and see whether eating well and exercising actually makes a difference. He feels that my portion sizes are big and i eat more than him. So i am on fire to prove him wrong! Wow i wonder how quick i can get under 70 !?

I ended up waking up early this morning and went to the morning spin class. My body responded well to the spinning and I had no real pains from my back, so that was great.

I also planned to do a second class an hour after that. And, I am very proud to say that I did it! I enjoyed both classes and I feel so great after working out. My face looks great and so does my waistline

Going to IKEA tonight to get a few things for the apartment. We’re going to eat there aswell, and I have to say that I really like the food there. Good healthy veggie section!

Take care xoxo