Happy, Healthy Me :)

J wants to get the barbecue working this Friday! Yay! We just got a new variety of peaches in at work - I want to try a couple on the grill. Fruit is definately one of the things that I am looking forward to grilling the most

Food Plan:

Breakfast - 1 protein bar (150) and strawberries

Definately running out of food

Snacks: nothing until lunch, since I’ll probably wake up later then usual. I need to go get a wax and some slacks tailored, and then I have to work. My post lunch snack will be yogurt (100) and carrots.

I really woke up late! I didn’t have time to get anything done, so I just moved my lunch into a brunch of sorts - breakfast and lunch combined.

Lunch Brunch: Salad with iceberg lettuce, tomato, cucumber, 1 tbsp ranch dressing (80), 1/4 cup shredded cheese (90), and 1/4 cup veggie ‘meat’ crumbles (90).

Snacks (before and after lunch): Yogurt (2 = 200) and carrots

Dinner: Egg sandwich with two slices whole wheat bread (150), slice of tomato, a couple lettuce leaves, 1 pkg mayo (100), 1 pkg mustard (40?) and two eggs (140).

Exercise: 1/2 hour walk to work and 7 hours checking groceries.

I’m very tired! It’s really hot here, and I had a rough day at work.

Total calories = 890. Geez. I know I’m not counting my fruits or veggies, but that’s still seriously low. Is that why I’m so tired all the time?

I’m still feeling bloated and ill from Friday, and it sucks Oh, well!

Breakfast: granola bar and strawberries (150)

Snacks: yogurt (2 = 200) and carrots

Lunch: Salad with iceberg lettuce, tomatoes, cucumbers, two eggs (140) and dill.

Dinner: Risotto (1 cup = 280) with 1/4 cup shredded cheese (90)

Dessert: 1 dessert tofu (90) and strawberries

Drinks: Two diet coke and vodkas (128)

Exercise: 7 hours of checking groceries

One Lifesavers candy (100?)

1 licorice (50)

Hmm, that only puts me at 1,014 for the day…that’s lower then I’d like to go. Especially taking into account that after the calories burned, I’m only at at about 514! Not sure what I’ll do about that.

Revised total for the day = 1,228

The second drink made my stomach feel yucky. I think I need to stick to one drink unless I’m going to be up and moving about - this sitting around and drinking does NOT do it for me!

 One month to my birthday!!

My final timeline, at a 2 pound loss (give or take) per week, presuming that I am currently 140 lbs:

Out of town beginning July 9 - I will be on my way to my first 4 gone.

My birthday on July 28 - I will give myself the birthday present of the first 10 pounds almost, if not completely, gone!

My goal for the 20 lbs gone (+ some?) will be the end of September.

I will:

- Jog for45 minutes to an hour at least 2 days a week.

- Walk at least another 2 days a week. At the end of these walks or jogs, the treat will be a small CL slushy, diet pop, sugar free juice, or fruit.

- Avoid bingeing NO MATTER WHAT. This is so important.

- Utilize naps, hot baths and girly treatments to avoid the above.

- Eat as much fresh produce and protein as possible.

- Drink atleast 6 bottles of water a day.

- Take GOOD care of myself.

- Stop snacking after dinner.

- Get lots of sleep.

- Buy myself fresh flowers for every weekend and week spent binge free.

Food…

Breakfast:

Apricot, grapes, carrots with 1 tbsp ranch dressing, and black coffee

Snack:

1 yogurt and watermelon

Lunch:

1 protein bar and watermelon

Snack: 1 yogurt and watermelon

I will also bring a protein bar just in case I get hungry. At work, I’m going to pick up strawberries and green leaf lettuce.

I ate so much watermelon today! They had a barbecue today, and there was a lot left over. Yummy!!

P.S. All the changes I make to any planning or recording over the day will obviously be in italics

 Second day binge free. I can see the line on my tummy again

I’m really looking forward to going camping. I know that I’ll have to deal with drinking a lot and avoiding the munchies, as well as wearing a bathing suit, but WHATEVER!

Lunch -
1/3 cup veggie meat crumbles - 90
1 cup couscous - 640 … I had NO idea couscous was so high in calories until I read the box! I’ll be sticking with 1/2 cup in the future.
1 black coffee - 10?
1 banana
Cucumber and carrot

Snack -
1 Kashi peanut butter bar - 150
1 yogurt - 100?

Lunch -
Sandwich of two slices bread (140), two eggs (140), 1 pkg mayo (100?) and 1 pkg mustard (18?)
Brocolli with 1 tbsp ranch dressing (70)

Snack -
1 yogurt - 100?
1 banana

Snack -
1/3 cup veggie meat crumbles - 90
1/4 cup shredded cheese - 110
Corn
1 peach

Drinks -
One vodka and diet coke - 65

Exercise -
Standing at work - 7 hours = 529 calories
Walking home from work - 15 minutes = 44 calories
Total burned: 573

Net calories: 1250

Six and a half good days, capped by one and a half bad ones. Funny how the bad ones can make me feel like a failure who is never going to get past this.

I’m back on track today. I had fruit and black coffee for breakfast. I think I’m just going to drink water at work, and then have a salad and more fruit for supper.

I got my free pedometer from Crystal Light! I’m excited to get a count of the steps that I take at work. According to a slip of paper that came with the pedometer, 10,000 steps equals 500 calories burned. That’s a lot! If I’m actually managing to take 10,000 steps in an average day, I may have to up my healthy calorie intake a bit. I don’t want to be keeping my body in perpetual starvation mode by eating too little.

I’m officially hired at my new job. Yay! I also have another interview.

I can’t wait to leave the grocery store behind and get my $7+ raise. Only a few more weeks…

I’m done after this!

Food and stuff for today…

two eggs - 150
two slices cheese - 200
one yogurt cup - 100

one Tim Horton’s ice cap, small with white milk instead of cream - 150

portobello and swiss burger - 280
ceaser salad with 1 tb ceaser dressing and a sprinkling of grated parmesan - 100

fruit
4 vodka drinks…
According to calorieking.com, vodka (40% alcohol) is 65 calories per 1 fluid ounce. 4 shots = 260

Total = 1240

Last night, I worked until close, and then had to walk home. I was in pain and very tired, and I am so sick of this shitty job that I need to keep for 2 more weeks. So suffice to say, everything was pointing toward, ‘I deserve to eat whatever the hell I want to get home because…’ Insert excuses for a binge here…

I argued with myself. ‘I should just go to bed.’ ‘I don’t want to.’ ‘I’m really tired. I just need sleep.’ ‘But I want…*binge food*…’ The more that I argued, the more angry and upset I got.

Then as I was almost home, a thought popped into my head. ‘What I am really looking forward to right now is comfort. I need comfort.’ Just like that, the thoughts of crawling into my bed made so much sense. The ‘I need food’ calmed right down. I got home, and went to bed.

It felt so good. I realized that atleast 99.9, if not 100, percent of the time, I need comfort. In the past, instead of seeking out the comfort that I need, I’ve eaten. NOT anymore!

Day 5 on track - check!!

It was a learning experience. Isn’t it always? I definately had to relearn some simple things that I already knew, but had forgotten in the scramble of life.

 I put on my new hoody and realized…I’m getting my flat tummy back!!!

 I have bought a TON of cute clothes in the last few days - I love them! They are so cute!

When I was a size smaller, I didn’t really focus on feminine - it was more tight and as revealing as possible. So I see this weight gained as a blessing in disguise because now, I have clothes that look good on me even with the extra weight, but that are also very cute and feminine. I’m gaining a new wardrobe, and a new acceptance of myself.

No snacking while preparing food.

Eat slowly and savor my food.

Walk snacks need to be 200 calories or less.

No snacking after dinner.

I popped in gum instead of reaching for J’s chips. Good choice!

The day after a binge, why is the urge to eat so strong?

I had to wake up at 5:30 this morning to go to work, and it was like there was this compulsion to eat, eat, eat. Like, you already blew it, just hide your feelings behind a zombie like feeling. Maybe that’s why. Because I’m upset that I binged, and my habit is to bury emotions under food.

I feel so tired and nauseous

Today’s food: Nothing until dinner with J. 1 banana and 1 apple

Exercise: 8 hours on my feet at work, then to the mall to find an outfit for tomorrow and maybe tennis with J