Happy, Healthy Me :)

The challenge: No bingeing for 28 days.

The reward: Something nice that I will have to pinch pennies to afford.

Today, it begins with: Saying no to Timmy’s breakfast (that’s just the bad food side of it - too many carbs!), popcorn at the movie theatre (overeating fest right there!), and refusing to put junk that I will eat too much of in my cart at the grocery store.

I’m off on a great start

 I’m thankful for…

- Friday! I have two days off before I start school on Monday.
- Margaritas with Karen after work.
- How warm it is outside!
- The pretty blue of the sky on my walk to work. It was so clear, I could still see a star hanging over one of the downtown skyscrapers.
- Jeff being so open to suggestions, and willing to work with me on every bit of our relationship.
- Discovering money that I thought was gone O_O

- The job that I have lined up to start on Tuesday (Quizno’s hired me on the spot…I don’t know if I’ll end up taking the offer)
- My interview at Boston Pizza tonight.

- I didn’t binge last night (night #2!)
- All the yummy, healthy food in my house…including foods that for the past week, I’ve been able to have because I can limit myself to one serving at a time. Yay, peanut butter!

 When my head hit the pillow, it felt so good to be getting into bed with a normal stomach, tired, and drifting off to sleep at a somewhat reasonable time. I was so content that I actually smiled and stretched out, and within a few minutes, I was asleep.

 When I woke up this morning, I was happy that I didn’t have a stomach ache, and that there was no reason for me to be beating myself up. That feeling was followed by an immediate thought, “So you did it last night. That was a fluke. What’s going to happen the next night that you’re alone?” That was a pretty negative thought. I made it go away. Last night was a good night. Tonight will be another one. Friday will be yet another. I may not be completely free from the thought that I could binge or I could get drunk alone, but there are things that I can – and will – do instead. I can plan ahead. I can focus on all of my techniques to avoid both of those situations.

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In other news – I’ve decided to start keeping my food journal in a paper journal instead of posting it on here. I don’t have a problem with people posting it on their journals in order to achieve accountability – I just know that I can do as well recording food in a private journal, so I don’t need to bore any readers – or myself, should I look back one day – with the details of my meals).

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 Oh, what a day! I’ve been so bored, and no one seems to have anything for me to do. So…I’ve been keeping myself busy surfing the internet, and driving myself nuts wondering if people can tell what I’m doing, and what they must think of me for doing it. I didn’t bring a lunch, and lied to myself that I could just wait until dinner to eat. Instead, I got hungry, so I started eating whole grain crackers, which led to eating the rest that was left in the box - around 500-600 calories. Not so good. But as Ron suggested, I’m not going to focus on the negative. I’ll look at the positive:

- I’m stopping the overeating trend with this meal, instead of letting it continue for the rest of my day.

– It was wholegrain crackers, as opposed to completely empty calories.

– I’m moving onto tea, and I won’t be eating anything else until I get home.

– Even if the crackers had come to 700 calories, that would mean that I’ve had 1,100 today. I still have 400 left for supper in order to stay at my goal of 1,500.

– I am getting exercise after work by walking around and handing out resumes.

 Ahh! I feel better

2 egg whites (70)

1 slice gouda (110)

2 slices bread (140)

1 T peanut butter (100)

1 orange

2 cups coffee with 1 T creamer ea (80)

1 C brown rice (300)

½ C stir fry with bean sprouts, mushrooms, pepper, celery and some kind of fish filet

1 apple

100 calorie whole grain crackers

½ can salmon (160)

1 slice gouda (110)

1/4 C raisins (130)

Lettuce and cucumber

1 pear

3 cups tea, plain.

One food related point that I’m going to focus on is: Once I have a meal and my usual piece of fruit, I’m going to refrain from putting anything in my mouth that I need to chew. Instead, I’ll drink – water, plain or flavoured with lemon juice or sugar free juice crystals, or plain tea and occasionally, sugar free juice or diet pop. I really don’t need to snack, unless I’m actually hungry, and then I’ll just wait for my meal (1-1 ½ hrs before mealtime) or have 200 calories of carbohydrates and protein (or just protein).

Or if I absolutely need the oral fixation - gum will do. But not all the time. It’s money that I don’t really need to be spending on an oral fixation.

When drinking: No drinking alone, or on weekdays unless for a special occasion. Focus on socializing when drinking. Make my drinks last, and limit them. Sip a glass of water between each drink. Choose the lowest calorie drink possible.

2 eggs (140)

2 pieces toast (140)

2 apples

2 pears

1 orange 

½ C brown rice (150)

approx 1 C stir fry with bean sprouts, mushrooms, pepper, celery and some kind of fish filet 

2 cups coffee with 1 T creamer each (80)