(Not good): Afraid to weigh

I’m not posting my weight today because I DIDN’T LOOK!
Yesterday wasn’t an especially HARD day. Wasn’t an especially LONG day. But I CHEATED, CHEATED, CHEATED.
First, there were the 2 tiny pieces of cake at my best friend’s at-work wedding shower. THEN, when I came home, I just wanted to go out to dinner with my [...]

192.2: Ah, much better thank you.

While I weigh less than I did yesterday, I really stepped into a pile of chocolate this morning.
I ate cake at the employee get-together for my friend and her fiance (oh, and drank sparkling grape juice, which is also completely against my diet). Ironically, I’ve been trying to avoid such fat food so I may squeeze into [...]

192.2-194: Home=Marriage

Eureka. A breakthrough. After 8 years of marriage, in the midst of cleaning all the nooks and crannies that H always ignores on his “get-it-done” cleaning sprees, I realized the way we both view, maintain, and clean the house resembles the way we view, maintain, and “clean” (i.e., solve problems, avoid negative communication, etc.) our [...]

193.8: “Short & Fat,” a new clothing store

Yesterday afternoon, I checked out some of the plus-size clothing links available on this site. Yikes.
Amid a few very good links, I noticed some definite similarities in the bridesmaid, cocktail, and after-5 dress departments among many of the sites:
1) Big girls like black, black and black. Or shrill colors like electric blue, canary yellow, lime green or [...]

193.8: Back on Mort

H and I are back on the Mort Fertel bandwagon. We’d tried doing his marriage fitness boot camp last summer, but fell away from it entirely. We also fell away from working out, dieting, etc. We have to get back into the healthy behaviors.
My matron-of-honor dress arrived from Coldwater Creek and it’s too freakin’ small. I’m [...]

Here I am at 199. Egad.

Currently, I’m 199.
Incredible.
I never thought that would happen.
But it did happen. I made it happen. With a variety of transgressions, most of which involve that necessary activity, eating.
Overeating. Mindless eating. Comfort eating. Boredom eating. Family eating. Celebration eating. Event-oriented eating. Driving eating. Experimental-recipe eating. Travel eating. Work eating. Vacation eating. TV eating. Highly-suggestible (oh, that looks [...]