But, well… really….What did I expect?
Oh, I think I know how I gained a magic SEVEN POUNDS over Memorial Day. How do my fat cells love me? Let me count the ways…..
Thursday, May 22, Rehearsal Dinner: OK, so I got the cream sauce for my salmon “on the side.” I still dipped my tines in [...]
Posted on May 27th, 2008 by nike
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This morning, it occured to me, I’ve been doing a lot of kvetching about my H.
His family is nuts, he’s too close to them, he has different (=bad!) ideas about money, our physical relationship is nothing like it was when we were dating, there’s little or no romance, he treats me like a roommate or a [...]
Posted on May 22nd, 2008 by nike
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Well, I’ll tell you what’s going on. FAT part of my brain is overriding SKINNY part of my brain, but I think I have it under control, because I’ve given myself permission to cheat BUT VERY LITTLE and on this diet, it monkeys with delicate balance over my metabolism and water retention.
Exhibit A (Saturday): One [...]
Posted on May 22nd, 2008 by nike
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I broke 188! Let the clouds part and the angels sing, Hallelujah and Turkey Meatloaf forever (with homemade ketchup)!
What a relief.
Now, on to the feelings I’d like to eat.
H and I discussed his parents this morning. They still have an effect on me.
For instance, we spent May 10 with them, cleaning their gutters, planting landscape (I [...]
Posted on May 21st, 2008 by nike
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“Binge Eating,” to me, conjures up images of feasting on a bunch of fat food, and then either digesting it or throwing it up (which, alas, I did a few times when I was really skinny, but I could never get the hang of it, mentally or physically. Thank god).
And that’s it. I’ve only connected [...]
Posted on May 20th, 2008 by nike
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It’s H’s and my 8th Anniversary. Could almost call it Anniversary Ate, because I’ve gained 60 lbs. since marrying him (and his fat-inducing family).
Ah, and speaking of the Fat Family, we get to pig out on crab legs with them this weekend. I’m thinking of saving my cheating (which I don’t really want to do [...]
Posted on May 20th, 2008 by nike
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The Big Winery Day is tomorrow, otherwise known as Bachelorette Party. Three friends and I are taking the bride to all the local wineries, from 12:30-6 p.m. Oy gifelte fish.
Shopping for the snacks was EXTREMELY difficult, trying to figure out what would taste good, without really thinking about its taste at all, and I decided [...]
Posted on May 16th, 2008 by nike
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‘FAT’ is mostly in my head.
What’s in my head, I mean to say, often has a bearing on my weight (or weight loss).
How fat I am, often depends on what I’ve been thinking. “I’m stressed, let’s eat. I’m happy, let’s eat. I don’t want to hurt the cook’s feelings, I’ll have just a little. I [...]
Posted on May 15th, 2008 by nike
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Halfway through massages, I tend to think, “Why don’t I do this at least once a month?”
And although yesterday’s got off to a rocky start (”When are you expecting?” I’m not. “You’ll have to forgive the lack of aesthetics.” Oh, you mean how you’re keeping the Dollar General torchiere on the whole time you’re doing [...]
Posted on May 15th, 2008 by nike
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I’ll take the first for 189.2, Alex. (I wish.)
Mom and Sister came over last night to preview my tent dress, aka bridesmaid dress. My 120 lb., 5′8″ sister was freaked, I think, as to how big I am and what it takes to dress me (girdle & corset combo, several sizes she never dreamed existed, [...]
Posted on May 14th, 2008 by nike
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