I’ve had better. October 9, 2008
Today was really not all that great. I weighed in at 205 again, which is good, that I really have lost the pounds, and not just water. But I am bummed that it hasn’t gone down so far this week. Then again, I’ve not been making great choices either, so, y’know, no one to blame but myself, or something like that.
Today was just stressful. You know it’s bad when your first thought in the morning is “only 16 more hours of work and then the weekend.” As a side note, counting 16 hours is not better than counting 2 days. But, I got through it. I’m making progress, and the end is in sight, somewhere.
I’m finally learning that my quality is just as important as my quantity. Technically, I’ve been in calorie range all week, but the quality of my food has been abysmal. Just because I “can” eat McDonalds does not mean that I SHOULD shove my mouth and body full of trans fats, creepy preservatives, and other things that really shouldn’t be considered edible. Today’s choices were piss-poor and scattered. Popcorn, mashed potatoes, and chili do not a dinner make. There is such a huge difference between last week and this week that it’s crazy. I need to put more efforts into my weekly meal plan, and really stick with it. I find that it’s difficult to start my week off right because I start my week off alone. DH is at work overnight or until 10 Sunday through Tuesday nights. Motivating myself to cook and put effort into just me is tough. But, I need to do it. I love cooking, why am I fighting this so much? I’m also finding that I need eggs in the morning. The protein and veggie combo of scrambled egg whites and broccoli were a perfect start to the morning. Must make a big batch next week.
And the muffins? They’re good, really. But I’m scared of them. No, really. I know that I like them, but I need to get over my mental block of “ahh! Lots of veggies in a baked good!” I think next time I need to add a little more sugar and ease my way in.
But I did have a victory today. Lunchtime? Bad mood. What I really wanted was to just go through the drive-thru, cheap and easy. Salty and comforty. Technically, I knew that I could fit it into my calories. But it wasn’t about that. It was about reprogramming my thinking. And, I managed. Not once, but twice, because I felt the urge again tonight at dinner.
At the end of the day, I haven’t accomplished much. But, I consider my aversion to fast food a victory, and for today that’s all I needed.
any time you avoid the drive-thru is definitely a victory. great job. unfortunately, i failed that test yesterday. harumph.