It has been seven days since I resumed bingeing again and got on the scale for a wake up call. Gain of one pound, which isn’t terrible. So, it is Friday and I am recommitting myself to a binge free existence. One month with very few binges felt wonderful. I don’t want to go back [...]
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On Friday, I bought food for a party I was having and started nibbling on it. One slip up has turned into four days straight of eating. My relapse into binge eating disorder was so rapid and it threatens to erase all the progress I have made. Here are my commitments to get back on [...]
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I am coping with some major fear stuff today, not directly related to my eating. Fear wears me out and tells me I won’t be able to do it so I should not try. Fear creeps into my eating in that I have been successful for the past month in curbing my binge eating and [...]
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On my way to New Jersey where I will spend three days sunning and moving my body as summer comes to a close. A time to think about the past five months when I began my journey to end my binge eating disorder which had left me suicidal. I quit my job, entered treatment, floundered, [...]
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Changed the titled of my blog from, “No Easy Answers to Ending Binge Eating” to blah, blah blog-o-rama because I wanted the title to be lighter. I felt a sense of heaviness every time I blogged. “Oh great,” I’d think every time I’d key in an entry, “no fun solutions here.” Thought I might be [...]
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As promised, here is an update on my running to get in shape for a half marathon in November. Today I run close to 4 miles in about 47 minutes. I was running maybe 13-14 minute miles at best. I was feeling sluggish and am glad I ran at all. I am a total slug [...]
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Day One on the binge count has come again. I binged yesterday. Twice. Not the worst binges I had yesterday, but time to come clean. First one came at 5 am when I was coming home from a club after dancing and listening to music. I felt the need to eat. I was only a [...]
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A few days ago I wrote a draft on my spoken word piece for my eating disorder event. Tropical Storm Hannah did not wash it out and it was wonderful. Two of my friends went and were fine being the only men there. It was great having a reunion with my sister’s from Renfrew Center [...]
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To deal with the need to eat extra food I took a long nap, then I took a walk, then a phone call. Then I dug into my pickled hot peppers. At about 5 cal per pepper, they aren’t a big deal…or are they? They are loaded with sodium. And eating one after another isn’t [...]
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It’s not lunch time I am am not in the mood to do anything and I have plenty of chores to do. I am going out of town next week and I need to clean my apartment. But…waah, I’m tired and cleaning is boring. I am tempted to nibble on lunch, which is a big [...]
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