Goddess in Progress

let’s hope i can keep things this way.

had my cousin’s baby shower today and i did well food wise. i did have one serving of rice pudding but that’s excellent for me considering that i love rice pudding (especially when my aunt makes it). lunch started with a potato leek soup, a garden salad with oil/vinegar dressing. that was followed by a steak with steamed veggies and a serving of mashed potatoes. i wrapped the beef up and brought it home for DH. so for two days, i’ve done well avoiding meat and poultry. the hard part comes now when i return to work tomorrow and try to figure out what’s for dinner. i’ll have to make something for the whole family so what can i make that we’ll all enjoy? don’t know. i really have to go on the chapters website and peruse the vegetarian cookbook.

wish me luck!

I can’t even begin to explain why.  Well, I know why.  I’ve just been so depressed lately but why do I let it affect my progress.  I’m so disappointed in myself.  I’m really, really hoping I can get my ass back in gear.  I mean really…who am I disappointing here?  Myself!  Am I not that important to even care about.

Reading this post confirms that I have issues!  ;)  I’m okay.  I know I’ll pull myself out of this funk soon.  I just don’t want to be here anymore.  Now if only I can make work better…

Today was a better day.  I went to the gym and food was OP.  Although…I did have a huge gap in between breakfast and lunch but that couldn’t be helped b/c I was running around from the gym to my eyebrow appointment.    So by the time dinner rolled around, I was starving.  I ended up eating a sandwich, which involves carbs (at night) but it was better than a total pig out.   I’m settling in to watch a movie now.

Tomorrow will be positive eating and exercise.  Still looking forward to working out on the elliptical cross-ramp tomorrow.  I’ve been trying out the different programs to see how easy each one is.  I find I’m not burning as many cals as I would like on the pre-programs so I may try a manual workout tomorrow with my own resistance and ramps.

Um…not so good today. Thought I’d take a day off of the gym b/c I’ve gone 4 days in a row. So I don’t feel bad about that. Food however, wasn’t so wonderful. I had leftover Chinese for lunch (not much, just a bowl’s worth) but then I had McDonald’s for dinner. I know, I know.   *gulp*

I will not let this throw me off the path (as I have let it in the past). Tomorrow I will continue and surprisingly enough, I am still looking forward to going to the gym tomorrow and getting in a good workout. Kids will be at their cousin’s b-day party so I should have most of the afternoon to get that accomplished. I finished the laundry today too. Tomorrow will be light cleaning with the gym session between.

Purchased a new gym outfit today. Can’t wait to wear it (isn’t that sad?).

Today was just a lazy day really.  Well, not really.  I had a miserable night’s sleep but got up a bit earlier anyway and got ready for the gym.  Is it odd that I’m looking forward to working on the elliptical cross-ramp?  Hmm…I don’t know.  Anyway…did the elliptical for 35 min and then did upper body weights (biceps and chest).  After the gym, I headed home and fixed myself a protein shake, got ready for the pool and spent the afternoon basking in the sun while the kids played in the pool.

Everything about today was positive until we headed into dinner time.  We spent more time at the pool than we usually do and I just didn’t feel like making dinner once we got home.  We opted for Chinese food.  I had 4 sweet ‘n sour chicken balls, some veggie fried rice (probably too much) and some chicken lo mein.  Things could be worse I suppose because I didn’t have lunch or my afternoon snack.  I think that calories balanced out anyway.

Well, I’m off to read a few blogs and hopefully…a restful night of sleep.

Tried the elliptical cross-ramp machine today.  It’s a bit different from the typical elliptical (hey that rhymes).  I quite enjoyed working out on it.  I actually feel like I’m working other parts of my body while working on cardio.  I think this will be my new machine of choice.   After my cardio, I did lower body weights.  I actually feel very good right now.  I’m looking forward to tomorrow’s workout.

I did get up late so breakfast was late, in turn, there was no time for an a.m. snack and I went straight to a late lunch when we returned from the pool.  Tonight’s dinner will be lemon garlic tilapia w/ wild rice & mushrooms & celery, and frozed corn (cooked of course).

It’s pretty gloomy right now and storms are headed this way.  Well, off to finish watching Y&R then I will start dinner.

Got my hair cut and freshly highlighted today.  I’m swinging it around.  I can only do this when my hair has been blow dried straight. 

Food and exercise were OP today.  Didn’t go to the gym but worked in a quick 30 day shred video.  Looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow.  Was up early today.  That’s about it for today.  Nothing too wonderful!

I’m so giddy to be off work, it’s insane.  I just really love waking up knowing that I don’t have to sit in an office bored all day.

I slept in a little bit today.  Got up at ten, had breakfast, and got ready for the gym.  Started with 35 min of cardio on the treadmill.  Wasn’t happy with only 148 cal burned but I didn’t really run or anything.  I did really fast walking.  I must admit, I was a bit pooped.  The mind was definitely pushing harder than the body was willing to put in.  Nevertheless, I finished the cardio and worked on lower body weights.

Stopped at the grocery store for some fresh veggies and a few things for the next couple of meals. Spent the afternoon at the pool with the family soaking up some rays.  I love summertime.  Came home and started preparing dinner.  Dinner was broiled salmon w/ rosemary, baked sweet potato, and some steamed green beans.  I got my full 8 c of water in today.  While dinner was preparing, I managed to do the Jillian 30-day shred video.  I’m starting back on day 1 as I haven’t done it in a really long time.  I want to feel like level 1 is easy before I move on to level 2.  DH and DD did the DVD with me.  LOL.

Well, I better get to cleaning up the dinner dishes, come back here and read some entries.

Today was a total bomb for food. A total bomb. We did go downtown and had a lovely 2 hr walk. We checked out some shops and especially enjoyed going into Lush. We decided to get a hot dog from a street vendor. Not so bad. I figured my 2 hr walk would surely counter the calories in the hot dog. Later in the evening, DH decides he wants pizza for dinner. I thought I could handle and resist it. Thought being the operative word here. I had 4 slices of a medium pizza plus a can of Pepsi. To top it off, I had a mini bag of Doritos. Why? Why? I suck.  Goddess my arse.

So today was a pretty good day. I slept in a bit but not too much. I got up, had breakfast and started cleaning. That was pretty much my whole day. I’m pooped. Cleaning and laundry with no breaks in between. I couldn’t get to the gym. DH worked overtime and by the time he left work, the gym was already closed. I will try and get there tomorrow. I was planning on doing the 30 day shred but I really am just too tired. I think I’m going to take a shower and read a little bit before bedtime.