Goddess in Progress

On the positive side, at least it’s almost time to go home.  :)  Food is still OP.  I’ve been doing really well with food this go around and I’m proud of myself.  Now if only I can get my gym time to kick in.  Well, I’m disappointed to say that it won’t be tonight.  I’m just too pooped.  I want to go home, make dinner, eat, clean up, and spend the rest of the evening stitching away.

I’ll be sleeping in either DS or DD’s room tonight.  I’ve had hives for about 4 wks now.  I’m usually pretty clear during the day and evening.  When I wake up though, it’s like a whole new batch of hives have arrived.  I’m starting to think It’s something in my room that’s affecting me.  Tonight will be the experiment.  We’ll see what happens tomorrow morning.

Loved Prison Break last night.  I love me some Wentworth Miller. Woo Hoo.

I thought the forums were supposed to be a place where you can chat and get advice from like-minded people.  Apparently I was wrong.  It appears that if your opinion differs from the norm, you’re jumped upon.  Oh well.  Not like I post there often.  I just had to check out a particular thread that I heard about.

Food was good all weekend.  I even had a “500 Best Healthy Recipes” muffin.  The kids made it yesterday and it was quite good.  Apple struesel muffin.  Very good.  Actually I had two.  But I was well within my daily range b/c I had a late breakfast due to sleeping in and then heading to church.

I still haven’t gotten back into my exercise mode but that’ll come back quickly b/c I’m getting the ‘bug’ to head back.  I need to get myself a little bit organized with this week’s dinner before I head back, i.e making sure I don’t have to stop at the grocery store every day for dinner ingredients.  I need to buy everything in one trip.

That’s it for me today!  I’m feeling chipper and ready for tomorrow, that is, assuming I get a good night’s sleep.

Well, it wasn’t really that bad.  DH had set out with the kids to buy Harvey’s (burgers & fries).  I told DH I wanted some sort of salad and he said that he didn’t think Harvey’s had salads.  So I resigned myself to the fact that I’d be having burger and fries. I would have loved to have had burgers and fries but I really didn’t want to screw up my 4 days of healthy eating.  I called DH and caught him just after he had ordered.  He said that he couldn’t change it b/c the order had already gone through.    When he came home, he produced a grilled chicken salad with balsamic dressing.  He explained that they did have salads and he was able to change the order after all.  :)  Yay, I ate my food without any guilt and the healthy eating continues.

I’m hungry as we speak.  I don’t know what I’m going to have for dinner.  I’m going to grab an apple or something to tide me over.

I don’t know.  I just feel down today.  Can’t explain it.  Somewhat sad for some reason.  Maybe I’m just a little too bored at work.  I’m ready to leave now.  Can I leave now? 

Food has been good for the past couple of days (as noted on my Food Log page).  Didn’t know what I was going to have for dinner last night.  DH got called into work early and I had to take the kids to tae kwon do.  After class, I stopped at the grocery store and picked up a Lean Cuisine for myself and a can of “blue menu” mushroom barley soup for today’s lunch.  The kids had Chef Boy Ar Dee.  I know, it’s not the best choice but it won’t kill them to have it for one night b/c of DH’s short notice call into work.  Not sure what’s for dinner tonight but it’ll be along the healthy lines.

I think that’s it for me today.  I’m off to read some blogs and comment where I can.

So I did well today food wise.  I stopped at Walmart for some yogurt, milk, shampoo, and Benedryl this morning.  After work, I stopped at another grocery store for a bit of fruit for the next couple of days.  Food today was measured and all accounted for.  I’m glad I finally passed  the ever occurring “Day 1″.  It’s late, so that’s it for me today.

Did have hives this morning but less than yesterday so that’s good.  As odd as it sounds, I’m really hoping it was the Doritos that was causing all of this.  That would eliminate all the guess work that I was going to have to go through to figure this new allergy out.

Off to stitch….

OK.  So the weekend didn’t go as planned and not for lack of trying.  I did try.  I got sick Saturday evening though.  In fact, I ended up in the emergency room at the local hospital.  I was having upper chest pains right across my body.  I don’t know what it was so I called a 1-800 medical line the province of Ontario offers (it’s quite good actually…registered nurses on the line to help with questions).  Anyway, after going through some questions she asked, she recommended that I head directly to the nearest hospital.  In fact, she suggested I call an ambulance in case something happened.

To make a long story short, I had an ECG and my heart rhythm came back normal.  I was then sent for a chest x-ray.  That came back clear, so pneumonia was ruled out.  Problem is, no one could figure out what the problem was.  I’ll have to figure it out myself, I suppose.  No one could explain why I’m covered in hives either.  I’ve had hives for about a week now and they’re not going away.  I’ve been taking Benedryl but they still flare up.  I’ve had hives only two other times in my life.  When I was pregnant with 2nd child and when I developed a reaction to Advil.  Neither is applicable in this case.  I did speak to my mother today and she said that my dad  had been breaking out in hives.  In fact, he told her that he broke out in hives every time he ate Doritos.  *ding, ding, ding*  I had some Doritos Saturday afternoon and I got sick Saturday evening.  As stupid as this sounds, I’m hoping it’s the Doritos that did this to me.  I would like to wait until my hives clear and then have Doritos just to test it and see if that’s the cause.

I did some internet research and there are a lot of hits for “Doritos and Hives”.  Who knew?

We got home really late (3:30 a.m.) so I slept in on Sunday.  I decided to miss church and just sleep in and enjoy my sleep-in with no guilt.  I didn’t do very much yesterday either except cross-stitch while watching a Rocky marathon on TV.

So having said that, I wasn’t able to prepare meals like I had planned over the weekend, so my Day 1 actually starts tomorrow.  I will stop at the grocery store on the way into work to buy fruits and yogurt for my snacks.  I’ll probably get a frozen meal for lunch (b/c my food stash at home is really low) and I’d rather eat a Lean Cuisine frozen meal than throw everything away.

I’m so tired right now and this is a last post so I’m off to bed.  Good night!

Really…how many times have we all said that?  What makes this one time any different for me?  Not sure.  My goal?  I really don’t need to lose a lot of weight.  I’m aiming for about 10 lbs.  What I’m really after is a firmer figure and a nice core, not a six-pack necessarily but close to that.  I know that in order to achieve it, I need to cut all the crap I’ve been eating.  So why is this so hard to follow?  Do I really need to eat that tootsie roll b/c I’m bored driving to and from work?  The answer is NO!

In the end, I would like to take a tasteful semi-nude portrait.  One that displays my tattoo nicely.  You will only see my back and the tattoo on the lower right hand side.  I want to do this now before I get any older.

That’s another story altogether.  When did age creep up on me like this?  I know I’m still young by comparison but I’m getting up there.  Maybe it’s hard to accept b/c I don’t look my age.

Oh well, so far food is good.  Mind you, it’s not even lunch yet, but I’ll take it.  I have to stop at the grocery store for some fruit or something for my afternoon snack.

I’m aiming for my gym sessions to begin Sat & Sun.  Hopefully, I’ll get all the cleaning and laundry out of the way so I can do just that.  I mean, what’s my iTouch for anyway?  To listen to music at the gym baby!

After being down for what seemed like forever, I’ve decided to shake out of it and move on.  The first step will be loving myself.  No more negative talk of failing.  NO MORE!  I love me.  I can do it.  Things can be worse so enjoy your blessings.

Having said that, I’m on my 4th day of healthy eating.  Still haven’t found the gym time yet but I’ve been so busy with movement and walking that I’m sure I’ve burned some calories somewhere.

I stopped at the grocery store yesterday for some much needed supplies.   When I got home, I began the task of cleaning out the fridge.  I got rid of expired cheeses and old salad dressings and marinades and replaced them with my new ones.  I had three chicken breasts.  I marinated one of them with garlic lemon marinade, another with honey garlic marinade and a third with regular bbq marinade.  Each is in its own baggie waiting to be baked tonight.  I will be slicing these up to be used in a salad for my lunches and dinners throughout the week.

I also marinated some beef stew chunks.  This will be dinner tonight atop some egg noodles.

I purchase a rack of ribs.  I will need to cut these tonight so I can boil them and, again, marinate them for tomorrow’s dinner.  These will be cooked in the crock pot throughout the day tomorrow.  Most likely, this will be served with a side of homemade roasted potato wedges.

While all this cleaning and prepping was going on, I was also preparing dinner.  I made garlic lemon Tilapia, brown rice w/ mushrooms, celery, onion, and steamed cauliflower and broccoli.  I have leftovers for lunch today.

I also managed to cut up the remainder of my celery and green onions and packaged them separately.  This saves so much time for me.  For future cooking, I can just reach and measure out what I need.  I will try and find some time tonight to cut up the green, red, and yellow bell peppers.  I will use these for snacks throughout the day along with the rest of the broccoli and cauliflower that I didn’t use for dinner.

Even typing all that out seems like a lot. 

Now that I have my eating back on track, I will have to get my gym time back on track.  After all, can’t really have one without the other.

I wanna look like that!  LOL.  Fat chance (no pun intended).

I think I’ve finally broken through my slump and am slowly making my way back into proper eating and exercising. I almost talked myself out of going to the gym last night but I did it anyway. I’m so glad I went. I had a good workout. I will be going to the gym tonight as well. I will do cardio and try to squeeze in my weights (lower body). I’m on a time limit today so we’ll see how much I can do. I probably won’t get to abs but I can always do that at home.

Dinner last night was tilapia with cherry tomato confit, chorizo olive saute and pesto orzo. Not sure of the calorie count as it wasn’t provided with the recipe. I entered all the ingredients into SparkPeople but the count seemed WAY too high and threw my totals over 2,000. That can’t be right. The dinner consisted of 4 different pieces that needed to be put together. I had 4 pots going at the same time. I COULD CONQUER DAMMIT! Each component had olive oil in it. For example, I poached the grape tomatoes in 1/2 c olive oil. But I didn’t drink the remaining olive oil (yeck), for example, so including 1/2 c olive oil in the calorie count wouldn’t be incorrect. I might not even make it again. I liked it and DS like it. DH said it was just “ok” and of course, DD hated it. So why even bother? I doubt it’ll taste good as a leftover today anyway. We shall see.

Not sure what’s for dinner. Gotta figure that one out throughout the day. Stopped at Wal-mart on my way to work today and picked up a 750 ml “SubZero” stainless steel water bottle. I no longer have to use plastic bottles. Just another one of my contributions to the environment. I’ll help any way I can.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  I’ve just been so down (mostly, anyway).  I can’t seem to get out of this rut.  And I’m not just talking diet and exercise.  I’m talking everything in general.  Life is just so blah right now.  I feel like I’ve failed in everything.  My job is boring, boring, boring and the places I’ve applied to for a new job haven’t called me back.  My diet sucks.  Can’t decide what plan/menu I want to follow.  Exercise sucks.  Haven’t been able to get to the gym b/c DH’s working 12 hr shifts and there’s no time to get in a workout after work.  Can’t take my decorating courses (my interest/passion) and can’t take my exec admin courses (not that I need it but it’ll look good on my resume, I suppose).  Can’t afford either one.  Each course is about $300.  I’d rather pay off my credit cards first before I begin adding more debt to them.  The house still isn’t 100% painted.  I don’t know what DH’s waiting for.  I had been hoping to have everything painted for LAST xmas and it STILL isn’t completed.  Asked DH to cut grass on Sunday.  He didn’t.  Would like to buy a few more pieces of furniture but again…don’t want to add extra debt.  Ho hum…