Goddess in Progress

I’ve done good with food for the past 3 days and have exercised the last two days. I’ve deleted all food and exercise logs before that in hopes of starting with a clean slate. I really want to do it this time. See that picture down there? Inspiration right there. We shall see.

I wanna look like that!  LOL.  Fat chance (no pun intended).

I think I’ve finally broken through my slump and am slowly making my way back into proper eating and exercising. I almost talked myself out of going to the gym last night but I did it anyway. I’m so glad I went. I had a good workout. I will be going to the gym tonight as well. I will do cardio and try to squeeze in my weights (lower body). I’m on a time limit today so we’ll see how much I can do. I probably won’t get to abs but I can always do that at home.

Dinner last night was tilapia with cherry tomato confit, chorizo olive saute and pesto orzo. Not sure of the calorie count as it wasn’t provided with the recipe. I entered all the ingredients into SparkPeople but the count seemed WAY too high and threw my totals over 2,000. That can’t be right. The dinner consisted of 4 different pieces that needed to be put together. I had 4 pots going at the same time. I COULD CONQUER DAMMIT! Each component had olive oil in it. For example, I poached the grape tomatoes in 1/2 c olive oil. But I didn’t drink the remaining olive oil (yeck), for example, so including 1/2 c olive oil in the calorie count wouldn’t be incorrect. I might not even make it again. I liked it and DS like it. DH said it was just “ok” and of course, DD hated it. So why even bother? I doubt it’ll taste good as a leftover today anyway. We shall see.

Not sure what’s for dinner. Gotta figure that one out throughout the day. Stopped at Wal-mart on my way to work today and picked up a 750 ml “SubZero” stainless steel water bottle. I no longer have to use plastic bottles. Just another one of my contributions to the environment. I’ll help any way I can.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  I’ve just been so down (mostly, anyway).  I can’t seem to get out of this rut.  And I’m not just talking diet and exercise.  I’m talking everything in general.  Life is just so blah right now.  I feel like I’ve failed in everything.  My job is boring, boring, boring and the places I’ve applied to for a new job haven’t called me back.  My diet sucks.  Can’t decide what plan/menu I want to follow.  Exercise sucks.  Haven’t been able to get to the gym b/c DH’s working 12 hr shifts and there’s no time to get in a workout after work.  Can’t take my decorating courses (my interest/passion) and can’t take my exec admin courses (not that I need it but it’ll look good on my resume, I suppose).  Can’t afford either one.  Each course is about $300.  I’d rather pay off my credit cards first before I begin adding more debt to them.  The house still isn’t 100% painted.  I don’t know what DH’s waiting for.  I had been hoping to have everything painted for LAST xmas and it STILL isn’t completed.  Asked DH to cut grass on Sunday.  He didn’t.  Would like to buy a few more pieces of furniture but again…don’t want to add extra debt.  Ho hum…

let’s hope i can keep things this way.

had my cousin’s baby shower today and i did well food wise. i did have one serving of rice pudding but that’s excellent for me considering that i love rice pudding (especially when my aunt makes it). lunch started with a potato leek soup, a garden salad with oil/vinegar dressing. that was followed by a steak with steamed veggies and a serving of mashed potatoes. i wrapped the beef up and brought it home for DH. so for two days, i’ve done well avoiding meat and poultry. the hard part comes now when i return to work tomorrow and try to figure out what’s for dinner. i’ll have to make something for the whole family so what can i make that we’ll all enjoy? don’t know. i really have to go on the chapters website and peruse the vegetarian cookbook.

wish me luck!

I can’t even begin to explain why.  Well, I know why.  I’ve just been so depressed lately but why do I let it affect my progress.  I’m so disappointed in myself.  I’m really, really hoping I can get my ass back in gear.  I mean really…who am I disappointing here?  Myself!  Am I not that important to even care about.

Reading this post confirms that I have issues!  ;)  I’m okay.  I know I’ll pull myself out of this funk soon.  I just don’t want to be here anymore.  Now if only I can make work better…

Today was a better day.  I went to the gym and food was OP.  Although…I did have a huge gap in between breakfast and lunch but that couldn’t be helped b/c I was running around from the gym to my eyebrow appointment.    So by the time dinner rolled around, I was starving.  I ended up eating a sandwich, which involves carbs (at night) but it was better than a total pig out.   I’m settling in to watch a movie now.

Tomorrow will be positive eating and exercise.  Still looking forward to working out on the elliptical cross-ramp tomorrow.  I’ve been trying out the different programs to see how easy each one is.  I find I’m not burning as many cals as I would like on the pre-programs so I may try a manual workout tomorrow with my own resistance and ramps.

Um…not so good today. Thought I’d take a day off of the gym b/c I’ve gone 4 days in a row. So I don’t feel bad about that. Food however, wasn’t so wonderful. I had leftover Chinese for lunch (not much, just a bowl’s worth) but then I had McDonald’s for dinner. I know, I know.   *gulp*

I will not let this throw me off the path (as I have let it in the past). Tomorrow I will continue and surprisingly enough, I am still looking forward to going to the gym tomorrow and getting in a good workout. Kids will be at their cousin’s b-day party so I should have most of the afternoon to get that accomplished. I finished the laundry today too. Tomorrow will be light cleaning with the gym session between.

Purchased a new gym outfit today. Can’t wait to wear it (isn’t that sad?).

Today was just a lazy day really.  Well, not really.  I had a miserable night’s sleep but got up a bit earlier anyway and got ready for the gym.  Is it odd that I’m looking forward to working on the elliptical cross-ramp?  Hmm…I don’t know.  Anyway…did the elliptical for 35 min and then did upper body weights (biceps and chest).  After the gym, I headed home and fixed myself a protein shake, got ready for the pool and spent the afternoon basking in the sun while the kids played in the pool.

Everything about today was positive until we headed into dinner time.  We spent more time at the pool than we usually do and I just didn’t feel like making dinner once we got home.  We opted for Chinese food.  I had 4 sweet ‘n sour chicken balls, some veggie fried rice (probably too much) and some chicken lo mein.  Things could be worse I suppose because I didn’t have lunch or my afternoon snack.  I think that calories balanced out anyway.

Well, I’m off to read a few blogs and hopefully…a restful night of sleep.

Tried the elliptical cross-ramp machine today.  It’s a bit different from the typical elliptical (hey that rhymes).  I quite enjoyed working out on it.  I actually feel like I’m working other parts of my body while working on cardio.  I think this will be my new machine of choice.   After my cardio, I did lower body weights.  I actually feel very good right now.  I’m looking forward to tomorrow’s workout.

I did get up late so breakfast was late, in turn, there was no time for an a.m. snack and I went straight to a late lunch when we returned from the pool.  Tonight’s dinner will be lemon garlic tilapia w/ wild rice & mushrooms & celery, and frozed corn (cooked of course).

It’s pretty gloomy right now and storms are headed this way.  Well, off to finish watching Y&R then I will start dinner.

Got my hair cut and freshly highlighted today.  I’m swinging it around.  I can only do this when my hair has been blow dried straight. 

Food and exercise were OP today.  Didn’t go to the gym but worked in a quick 30 day shred video.  Looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow.  Was up early today.  That’s about it for today.  Nothing too wonderful!