I want to be around for my children

Still hungry

southerngal07 — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 20:18:56 +0000

Well I was still hungry yesterday and today I decided that I’m just going to eat healthy. No fried foods, I’ll eat small servings of lean meat, and I’ll limit processed foods. The first time I did detox I was not this hungry but being hungry constantly makes it even harder for me to be successful.

Hungry

southerngal07 — Wed, 10 Sep 2008 18:54:11 +0000

I went to sleep hungry last night. I kept thinking about food. Thankfully I resisted. I drank 2 cups of water and tried to not think about being hungry. This is why I hate trying to lose weight. I feel like I’m missing out on life not being able to eat like everyone else in the world. This guy I’m talking to is small and can eat whatever he wants and doesn’t gain weight. In fact his metabolism is so fast if he goes a day without eating he’ll lose weight. I know that all the suffering will be worth it in the end. I will be healthier, look better, and feel better about myself. I have confidence in myself to a point, I want to have more confidence and know that when I go outside people aren’t staring at me because of my weight. Hopefully today will be much better for me. I didn’t exercise yesterday because I felt weak and I was tired from working on a paper until 2am. Today I plan on exercising and just moving around. And today I definately won’t be focused on food and what I can and can’t have. Nobody said this would be easy!

09/10/08 Menu

southerngal07 — Wed, 10 Sep 2008 18:43:40 +0000

So far…

Breakfast- 1/2 cup oatmeal 1/2 cup lactose free fat free milk, 1 banana, and cinnamon

Morning Snack- 10 medium-sized watermelon chunks and a bowl of red seedless grapes

Lunch- 1 cup of light and fit fat free yogurt with 6 strawberries sliced in

Afternoon snack- 1 banana

Dinner- 1 large sweet potato with with smart balance light butter and splenda brown sugar blend and 2 cups of chopped broccoli

Goals

southerngal07 — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 20:17:50 +0000

I was thinking I’d like to start a post where I would list my different goals. I don’t want my goals to just be about weight. So here goes….

1) I want to be more active

2) I want to be able to play with my daughter more

3) I want to have self-control and exercise moderation

4) I want to be able to exercise for 2 hours a day 6 days a week

5) I want to enjoy the rest of my 20’s and beyond

6) I want to be around for my daughter and have another child in the future when I’m not overweight (assuming that I’m married)

7) I want to abolish the helpless feeling and be able to defend myself

8 ) I want to be able to go to a regular clothing store and buy nice clothes that look good on me

Starting Weight & Measurements

southerngal07 — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 20:09:46 +0000

My original starting weight is 446.8, I’m starting over at 423.6, although the scale today showed 430 but I believe that’s due to the water retention from having a little too much fun with some salty ribs two days in a row. So the 423.6 is before the ribs and the 430 is after.

My measurements are:

Arms- 20.5

Bust- 52

Waist-53

Hips- 66

Thighs-39

Already having trouble

southerngal07 — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 20:04:43 +0000

Well I was supposed to start yesterday. Sunday I made some beautiful ribs as my last meal kind of thing. Well there were plenty left overs and I swear those ribs kept calling me all Monday. I started out eating breakfast and did well but for lunch I ate those ribs. So I’m starting today. We have all kinds of chips and cookies that my sister and daughter eats but they aren’t bothering me, it was just those ribs. They were good though, but that’s not the point. I need to have more self-control if I plan to make it.

9/09/08 Menu

southerngal07 — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 20:01:22 +0000

Breakfast- Granny smith apple & 2 bananas

Morning Snack- 2 cups of red grapes

Lunch- 2 cups of Dole Field Greens Salad with 3 tbs of Fat Free Ranch Dressing and a bowl of seedless watermelon chunks (about 10 medium-sized chunks)

Afternoon Snack- A nectarine and a banana

Dinner- 2 cups of California blend frozen vegatables, 2 cups of uncle bens whole grain brown rice with 1 teaspoon of smart balance low sodium butter spread and Ms. Dash lemon pepper seasoning

6 cups of water

I did good for almost the whole day. I did however have half of my daughters pork chop. It was baked so it wasn’t too bad, but I want to do a strict detox. I will more than likely do the detox phase longer than 9 days. Today wasn’t a perfect day but it was far from bad.

My total calories for the day 1,502

Starting On Monday

southerngal07 — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 19:31:03 +0000

So starting on Monday I’ll be getting back on my diet. I’ll be said because the first 9 days I won’t be able to have meat. The detox phase is pretty hard, but I’ve done it before and I know I can do it again. I let life take over and keep me from eating right and exercising. I needed to clean up and take out the trash. My daughter’s father was keeping me down and making me feel worse everyday. I have to get my life in order and kick him out of it. He was very unsupportive and didn’t help with Mariah and everytime I tried to lose weight he would eat all kinds of crap and would accuse me of trying to lose weight to find somebody better. I am definately an emotional eater and all the drama with him caused me to eat all kinds of crap. But for some reason I didn’t gain too much weight back, I’m surprised at that, but happy since I don’t have to do too much backtracking. So tomorrow is the beginning and this time around I plan on being more determined and I’m not going to let foolish miserable people get me off track.

Some face pics of me

southerngal07 — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 19:06:07 +0000

Some Starting Pictures

southerngal07 — Sun, 07 Sep 2008 19:00:59 +0000

It’s so hard to find a full body picture, mainly because I don’t take them. I know I have a pretty face so I takeface pictures. I’m so tired of hearing people say I have a pretty face but……