I want to be around for my children

So starting on Monday I’ll be getting back on my diet.  I’ll be said because the first 9 days I won’t be able to have meat.  The detox phase is pretty hard, but I’ve done it before and I know I can do it again.  I let life take over and keep me from eating right and exercising.  I needed to clean up and take out the trash.  My daughter’s father was keeping me down and making me feel worse everyday.  I have to get my life in order and kick him out of it.  He was very unsupportive and didn’t help with Mariah and everytime I tried to lose weight he would eat all kinds of crap and would accuse me of trying to lose weight to find somebody better.  I am definately an emotional eater and all the drama with him caused me to eat all kinds of crap.  But for some reason I didn’t gain too much weight back, I’m surprised at that, but happy since I don’t have to do too much backtracking.  So tomorrow is the beginning and this time around I plan on being more determined and I’m not going to let foolish miserable people get me off track. 

Posted on September 7th, 2008 by southerngal07
Filed under: Journal