I used to stay away from the camera as much as I could…I did NOT want pics of me.  Well Carl took a pic yesterday of me and when I saw it I actually didn’t cringe! It was a good feeling. 

 I kicked butt in the gym yesterday.  I am doing the 3FC biggest loser challenge and I am determined to make the exercise goals for this week.  I missed it last week and I was totally bummed…that is not going to happen again!! 

Im exhausted right now.  I went to the gym this morning (I hadn’t been there since Wednesday) and I did a pretty good work out but now all I want to do is crawl into bed for the rest of the day.  I snuck onto the scale this morning and weighed in a 170.4 *shock* that means my total weight lost so far now is 59 pounds.  I feel good, but still feel like I have a long way to go.  I’m still really frustrated with walmart though because their shirts fit sooooooooo small!! I tried on an extra large shirt this morning and it was way too small.  *pout*.  I will keep plugging away though, and I will make my goal.

 I would be lying if I said that i didn’t miss Mcdonalds and the other foods lke that that I used to eat on a reg. basis.  I have not had a big mac or anything from mcd’s since Dec, 2007.  Seriously, that is unheard of for me…I used to go thru the drivethru at least 2 times (or more) a week.  I do miss it, and I crave it but I know if i give into it then it might be the begininning of the end…so for now I have managed to stay away.

 I did something silly this morning…I actually tried on my wedding dress. LOL My kids kept saying how I looked like a beautiful princess.  I was happy that the dress zipped up nicely.  I think I weighed about 180 when we got married, but my body is a LOT different now then it was then…even though I weigh less now…I was skinnier then.  Funny how that works.

 Anyway, gotta go plan some meals for the week.  I hope everyone is doing well, and thank you for the comments about my pictures!

I only have a quick minute but here is my official “before” pic and one taken this past weekend. My “during” pic..

Dh and I have been following Dave Ramsey’s plan to get out of debt.  We decided that we really needed an extra $500 a month or so to really be able to make a difference in the debt without just paying the interest so I went out and started looking for a job.  Surprisingly I actually found one pretty quickly.  Im now working at Canadian Tire as a cashier just part time.  Last night was my first training night and aside from having to stand for so long (this worries be because of my arthritis) it really looks like it will be fun.  The people are nice and everyone is easy to get along with.  I dont work again till this Thursday and Friday.

 I have decided that I am going to weigh in once a week now.  I feel like I am ready to face the scales up’s and down’s without getting discouraged and wanting to give up.  I am doing the Biggest Loser challenge on 3FC and am required to weigh in once a week anyway, so friday’s will be my official weigh in days.  Right before the weekend. 

 Im really excited about doing this challenge and I hope it can keep me focused on losing weight and getting healthy.  It is going to be harder to find the time to work out now that I am working but maybe that just means it will come off slower which I am fine with.

 Anyway, stuff to do…

Get lost and dont come back!

 I cheated and didn’t wait until May 1 to step on the scale.  Im glad I didn’t because I was down 8 pounds from last month bringing my total to 50 pounds.  WOOOOTY WOOT WOOT! 30 more to go!!

I am feeling huge today.  I have lost weight in my boobs which is good…BUT it makes my stomach look really big.  Whenever I pass a mirror I cant help it the first thing I notice is my stomach just sticking out.  I look pregnant. I took my measurements last month around the 28th and I took them this morning and I was up 1/2 inch around my waist! What is that???  I feel like I am working so hard all of a sudden my body is just like nope…not going to get any smaller, sorry.  I am actually afraid to step on the scale next week because of this.

I hate feeling like this because I know I have lost and gotten smaller since the winter, but I feel like in the last month my stomach is more noticable because of my less boobs issue.

April 22

Breakfast
fiber one cereal with strawberries/2% milk

Lunch
2 slices wholegrain bread
lettuce
1 slice ham, 1 slice chicken
mustard
tomatoe

baby carrots
cucumber

Supper
chicken/rice casserole (thighs, skin removed)
- its made with mushroom soup.
brocolli
beans
corn

ff yogurt mousse.

YMCA
Eliptical 25 min — 245 cals burned
6 weight machines

I’ve been dragging my feet this week. I am very tired and my kids have been sick so I have been up nights with them, and my lack of sleep is definitely showing itself when I go to the gym. I push myself hard and each time I go I try to go a little further, or burn a few morn calories. I think I need to stop this for awhile because I cant always do more.

Im thinking of doing a spin class. Im very nervous because I dont think I will be able to keep up with everyone else, but I am reading abook right now called Never say Diet and in it she talks about not being afraid being the biggest in the gym, or the slowest or whatever … bottom line is you are there and you are doing good for your body…at your own pace. So, I was thinking of going tomorrow morning, but after this morning I think my body needs a couple of days of rest so I might try that class instead of the aqua fit on Monday morning.

I have not weighed in, but I have had to put a way a crapload of clothes from my closet. That’s good and bad. I am feeling better about myself, like I am being the best I can be and that makes me feel like I am accomplishing something.

Im going out to dinner tonight with DH. Have already decided to eat what I would have eaten before, Im fine with that. I need that to keep this real.

 April 18

Breakfast
2 weetabix with blueberries, raspberries, 2% milk and a little splenda

Lunch
Salad with dressing
chicken breast strips

Supper
East Side Marios:
Turkey tuscan club sandwich
Mario’s potatoes

Snacks
1 orange

YMCA
Bike 35 min — 256 cals burned (upped it a couple of levels)
Eliptical 37 min — 356 cals burned

Wow, it has been so busy the last week I have hardly had a chance to come on and update.  Nothing overly exciting has happened, just normal everyday life.  I have not been posting my menu, but i have been keeping track, and i have been doing pretty well.  It has been 2 two weeks since I weighed in, and I am starting to want to step on it again, but I will NOT, I will wait until the first of the month…2 more weeks. 

For the last week I have been focusing on my budget.  Things are really tight right now and I am trying to find a part time job.  I only need an extra $500 a month, so even 15 hours a week would be enough. I worked on my resume for a few hours yesterday and i sent out a few via email.  I hope something comes up soon.

I was trying on my clothes from this past summer.  Looks like I have some shopping to do.  Please don’t mind my stretch marks.  I have 4 kids, my last two were twins and they destroyed my body…

April 10

Breakfast
fiber one cereal with blueberries and 2% milk

Lunch
1 wholewheat wrap
1 slice chicken, 1 slice ham
cheddar cheese (30g)
lettuce
mustard

all bran bar
banana

Supper
1 pork chop
1/2 cup side kicks spaghetti noodles
brocolli
asparagus

1 ff yogurt mousse

YMCA
Eliptical 25 min — 245 cals burned
6 weight machines
tread mill 18 min — 76 cals burned