I have been feeling lazy all week and I just have not been able to push myself to the gym.  I was suppose to go yesterday…and I didnt so I said I would go today…well I didnt.  I spent the morning cleaning, mopping, doing laundry trying to catch up on the house things and while thoughs things NEEDED to be done I still feel like I used them as an excuse not to work out.  I do NOT want to go back to the way I was so why am I so not wanting to work out right now?  Even food has been harder then it has been before to control.  I want all the things that I have not really had…like the full fat pizza, and the burgers.  It’s taking a lot of energy just to say no to the food and I am not always successful at that either. 

 I think I am going to stop trying to lose weight for the summer and focus on just maintaining where I am now.  I know that having my kids home everyday is going to stop me from working out the way I have been anyway, and I think this might be a good break for my body, and a test for me. 

 I wish I could be one of those people who could eat whatever they wanted and not gain an ounce.  My sisters are like that and if you combine their weights together they STILL do not weigh what my starting weight was. Scary eh?  I think I must have gotten my dads genes (thanks roll eyes). 

 Anyway, Im having a blah day and just not motivated to do anything really.  So, while my cleaning is done…I just dont have that extra energy to work otu.