From the time that I noticed boys were looking at me I’ve always been self conscious about my weight. My mom used to shop for me in the boys section, so I never really started dressing really like a girl until I was a sophomore in high school. Over the years, as each new year approached I would make that fateful new years resolution and hope to be 50 lbs lighter by that coming May. Unfortunately, like so many others I’d fall off and never get back on. May would come and I would wonder how much I could have accomplished had I just stuck with it. This has happened for the past 5 years. Last year was a real breakthrough for me though. I started Weight Watchers and lost about 17lbs, however, like so many years before I fell off and never got back on. I learned a lesson from that though. I learned that I was capable of sticking to a program and accomplishing some weight loss.

I reached my breaking point last month when I was getting ready for  night out with my girls and could only fit into two pairs of jeans. I’m taking this as a wake up call because I just graduated from college and am looking to apply to grad school in the fall and I would really enjoy the confidence to walk into that interview and know that I’m good enough to get into their school and do well in the process.

I’m ready to be the person I want to be and drop this weight thats holding me back. According to those BMI things, I have a BMI of 35 and for a person my height (5′8″) it should be about 25. For me that means I should weigh between 140 and 160. I currently weigh about 203 lbs. I’m shooting for an even 50lb weight loss.

I’ve been exercising a little bit lately trying to get back into the swing of things and its going okay so far. I would love to wear a bathing suit, which I havent done since I was 12 (I’m twenty three now) and strut my stuff confidently. Until tomorrow :)