Finding the Real Me

my journey through weight loss and self discovery

Food Log (Wednesday) April 30, 2008

Filed under: NS, food log — mffallaw @ 9:03 am

Breakfast:  NS granola w/ milk, coffee

Morning snack:  NS Sour Cream and Onion Soy Chips, Coke Zero

Lunch:  NS Hearty Minestrone Soup, Salad w/ FF Dressing, Dt. Mt. Dew

Afternoon Snack:  string cheese, apple

Dinner:  NS Pasta Fagioli, WW ice cream

Water:  50.7 oz.

 

TGIF April 25, 2008

Filed under: NS — mffallaw @ 2:24 pm

I’m SOOO glad that the weekend is almost here.  Today has been a weird day at work because I’m the only one here.  It’s just odd and feels kinda strange.  It feels like it used to feel when I’d have to go into work on the weekends…it’s the exact same place you go to everyday, but being there alone with it all empty makes it seem a little foreign and not normal somehow.  Anyway…

I’ve done well on NS today, just hope I can eat the NS dinner and not be tempted to go out.  And, I need to exercise tonight because I didn’t get any in yesterday.  Monday will be my first weigh in since starting NS.  I just hope my alterations haven’t kept me too far off course.

 

Yesterday April 24, 2008

Filed under: NS — mffallaw @ 11:13 am

Yesterday went well on NS until dinner.  A friend called at the last minute to see if I wanted to go to dinner.  At first I said no because I needed to stick to the NS plan.  But then I realized that I can’t shut myself off from all my friends and never ever go out to eat again.  Plus, I wanted a glass of wine ;)  I will likely lose the weight slower this way, but hopefully I’ll be creating a healthy lifestyle rather than just being on a diet that I eventually get off of and start right back eating the way I did before.  I have to make it work into my life otherwise I’ll abandon it all together. 

But, I do realize that I have to make changes in my lifestyle because my current lifestyle is what’s gotten me to the point I’m at…a place I DON’T want to be.  But, I’m already making some positive changes.  Like, last night, I made good choices and didn’t eat everything on my plate…which is a huge shift for me.  I always clean my plate.  And, I’ve started meeting friends for walks at the lake/park or for tennis instead of drinks and dinner.  And, I’ve started putting in an exercise DVD when I get home instead of vegging out on the couch.  I’m hoping the small changes over time will stick and make a difference.   

 

So far… April 23, 2008

Filed under: Fitness, NS — mffallaw @ 8:38 am

…so good!  I stuck to the second day of NS.  Seems weird to be excited to complete 2 days on a plan, but I am :)  My biggest surprise with this has been that the food actually tastes good.  It’s much better than the typical diet tv dinners you get.   

My abs are killing me because I did TurboJam’s ab routine Monday night.  Half of it is standing ab routines and the second half is mat/floor work.  I have a LONG way to go but at least it feels like it’s working.  Last night I played tennis again.  I know exercise is supposed to be a stress reliever, but last night it just caused more stress.  I just get so frustrated when one time everything comes together and then the next time I have absolutely no control over where the ball goes.  Same reason I don’t play golf…you get that one perfect swing and then 5 that completely suck.  I know you only get better with practice, but I just get so frustrated that the practice become work rather than play.  But, I still had fun and at least I was out running around and getting in some activity…and running around the tennis court chasing a stupid yellow ball is still more fun than running on a treadmill, at least for me.

 

Day 2 April 22, 2008

Filed under: NS, emotional stuff — mffallaw @ 9:28 am

I was able to stick to the NS plan completely yesterday…here’s on to day 2 on the plan.  So far the food has been pretty good, and I’m adding in a good bit of fresh fruit and veggies and lowfat dairy.  This week I’m focusing on getting in all my water because I’d become a little bit lazy with it. 

I am hungry right now (it’s around 10:00 am) and was hungry yesterday.  The good news is that the meals fill you up, but you get that empty stomach feeling right around time for the next meal or snack.  But, I’m taking it as a good sign…I’m experiencing actual, real hunger and it’s actually a good thing…ha.

 Another plus to the plan is that starting something new has re-energized me and taken away some of the blah I’d been in.  I just hope I can keep up the motivation and excitement and don’t get back into the permanent funk I’d found myself in.     

 

Weekend April 21, 2008

Filed under: General, NS — mffallaw @ 8:30 am

I had another pretty good but busy weekend.  There was a friend’s son’s t-ball game on Friday, dinner with a friend Friday night, a wedding on Saturday, tennis on Sunday (I’m very bad at it, but it’s fun), and then drinks out with the girls Sunday night.  I had a lot going on that kept me from home so I wasn’t able to stick to NS as much as I’d hoped.  But, I realized that if I’m going to make permanent, life long changes, then this has to fit into my daily life and has to be adapted so that I stick with it and don’t abandon it altogether.  I ate NS as much as possible and then tried to make good choices when I had to eat other stuff, although I did have wedding cake at the wedding…yum. 

 

Nutrisystem April 18, 2008

Filed under: NS — mffallaw @ 8:46 am

My nutrisystem food came yesterday, so I’ve started it today.  But, we have an office lunch for work…one of those I can’t get out of…so I’m already going to have to cheat on day one.  I thought about putting it off a day but decided that if I wait for the perfect day to start then I’ll never start.