Finding the Real Me

It’s been a little while since I’ve posted, but I’m back and promise to do better about posting.  And better about what I eat.  I’m not doing WW anymore because I found that constantly calculating points and writing down everything I eat was causing me to obsess over food.  So, I had to stop.  Now, I’m concentrating on eating whole/natural foods, and trying to stay away from processed junk.  I’m trying to eat more fruits, veggies, and whole grains and stay away from sugar and refined carbs. 

I’m trying really hard to make this a real lifestyle change rather than a temporary diet.  I’d rather lose the weight slowly and keep it off than lose it quickly only to put it and then some back on.  So, I’m also trying not to put too much pressure on myself and not view anything as “cheating,” because I tend to allow one slip up to give me the license to cheat for the rest of the day.  So, if there is no cheating, there’s no excuse to continue eating badly afterwards.

Okay, so the Holidays weren’t so good food/weight wise.  Part of it was all the stuff that’s only around during the holidays, and part of it was being at my parents’ house.  I was there for over a week and it just brought back all the old “triggers.”  I’m hoping that now that I’m back at my house I’ll get back control over my eating.  If I don’t bring junk in the house, I won’t eat it.

As I look to the New Year and think about resolutions, my first one is to of course lose weight…that’s been the main one for every year I can remember.  But, the more I think about it, it’s not about losing weight at all.  It’s about getting healthy…physically, emotionally, and spiritually.  Sure, I want to be thin, but I want to be healthy more.  I’d rather be technically overweight, healthy, and strong than skinny, weak, and sick.  I also need to get healthy emotionally.  I’ve been going through alot of emotional stress lately (all about a boy) and I’ve finally reached the point where I’m tired of it.  I’m ready to be happy again. 

 So, here’s to a new year and a new me…a healthier, happier me :)