Its my turn to shine

So I am ending the last day of my detox. I am so excited about eating. I am so proud of my self. If I can go with out solids for 3 days then I can say no to the bad stuff. I have a Christmas goal of a 15 pound lost. We shall see. I have like 10 weeks to loose it. Thats 1.5 pounds a week. Anyways my last day of detox wasnt that bad. I am exhausted. Its my fault. It was crazy busy and it says in the detox that you shouldnt be very active. Well it was run run run all day. I am so pittifully tired. I cant wait to eat my cheerios!!!!!

So I am at the end of day 2 of my detox. I had quite a bad bathroom trip earlier. I mean I was in there for like a hour and a half. However after I was done I felt so wonderful. i mean I felt so energetic and I just felt so nice. One more day and I am done. I cant wait to eat my cheerios. I am having a peppersteak smart ones for lunch. Then I am having potatoe soup for supper that my mom is gonna make me. I have never felt so good. I mean I thought this would be like the hardest thing ever but it hasnt been that bad. And also in the future when I feel like I need to eat something horrible I can just remember the time I didnt eat anyhting for 3 days but juice. I mean I should be able to say no to grease if I went 3 days without food Right? Oh I feel so good though. I really recomend this. I will be posting at the end of tomarrow. We shall see if I make it through.

I am still kicking!!!! It really wasnt that bad. It wasnt easy but it wasnt bad. I changed it a little. I can only have juice water and broth for 3 days then I can gently introduce food back into my system. I am actually feeling a tad bit better. I have had a headache for days and horrid bathroom issues. My headach is gone and my bathroom issues are starting to regulate. I want a bowl of cheerios so bad I can stand it. That is def the first thing I am having Thursday. And a plum. MMMM I cant wait. So being at the end of day one I actually feel pretty good. We shall see…….

Ok so I have been feeling like poop for weeks. Everything is sluggish including my poop cycle. So tomarow I am fasting with just water. I am suppose to do that for 3 days. I honestly just dont know. I am gonna give an honest effort. Then you are on a monotrophic diet for a week. That means one fruit or vegitable for each meal. Like all plums for breakfast. Then you introduce your all your foods back in. I am gonan clean and start completly over. I am really excited. I am really scared too. I just dont know if I can do it. I can with God. I think he will help me through it. I can do this. I love apples. It is apple season.

SO today I did a yoga workout dvd that was an old favorite. So I woke up and did that then I ate a really good tv dinner. My mom came home sick because she thinks she has pink eye. Anyhoo….I am stranded at my boyfriends house. WE were supposed to be having a us night. Well his best friend shows up completley out of no where with out telling anybody. SO our night is crashed. I am sitting by my self making my dessert that was for me and my guy and now his compleletly univited friend. I mean his friend tells my guy oh by the way I am crashing at your house 2 nite. I am watching tv in your house right now. Ok so that being said very few people have the garage  code to get into his house. I am one of those. However he always knows when I am comming. I dont just show up and hang out at his house all by my self. He has no right to do that. That isnt what the code is for. Argh. Dont you have any manners or respect!!!! I did however exersice and that is better that usual. Bam!!!

Ok so I have a good philosophy going. Me and my boyfriend and his best friend are going to Buffalo Wild wings. They have the best onion rings in the face of the earth. So That being said I am going to eat some. I am not going to deprive myself. I never stick to it when I am deprived. If I want something unhealthy I am gonna eat it. However I do have to compensate for that. Tomorrow I will eat very healthy and cut my calories ever so slightly for the next few days to make up for it. I cant eat bad every day but if there is a day I want something bad I am gonna eat it and move on. There are very few things that are bad in moderation. So that is my goal. All in moderation. Loose weight in moderation. I will exercise in moderation. I will eat bad food in moderation. I will portion my food in moderation. When I achieve my goal and people ask me what my secret is I am gonna say moderation. I am not gonna kill my self exercising or depriving myself. This is going to last and this is how I will do it.

Ok so I was recently on a new healthy eating plan. It wasnt a diet. It was just a eating plan. Never the less I had lost almost 20 lbs. The most I had ever achieved. Well I had one of those weeks where you have like 3 or 4 gatherings with friends that includes large amounts of very unhea;thy but oh so good food. So I fell off. Not a little but all the way off. The wagon leftme behind and kept going with out me. So I kept telling my self I will start back up after this week. Well I told my self this several weeks in a row. So anyways I got on the scale. And I hadnt gained a full 10lbs back yet. So I thought I would turn around before it was too far gone. SO I have lost 5 lbs since being back on and I feel very good. Another reason why I got back on is because I felt so lethargic. I was eating only starch and grease. I couldnt even use the restroom properly. It just made me so so tired. So i am back on. The healthier I eat the better I am feeling. I am a dog bather and my requirments are physically demanding. Not in a bad way but exersice isnt my #1 priority because of work. I am trying to be more active but its not a huge deal. I will def be doing my walk aways the lbs. Anyhoo  I figure any time I feel like falling off I can get on here and write it out. Or if I do have a bad day I can talk it out. We shall see.