Watch me shrink…

Well ive been a bit quiet, last week my weigh in only recorder a 100gram loss so i really didnt think there was anything to booast about, but today ! what a great result my weight has come down to 66kg! Thats only 1 kg away from ym mini goal of 65kg then my next mini goal is 60kg after that.

I went to my friends gathering on saturday and actually got told from one of my other mates that he thought ive lost too much weight, i think thats his way of telling me i look good? I hope….. lmao

oh my……tomorrow will be a test….my best friends daughter is turning 7 and there will be lots of food around…….i did let my bestie know to put some salad aside with no oil or dressing so i can eat with everyone else …how much does it suck watching everyone else eat the foods you love the most? answer: yep it sucks alot….

i had a big think about a few things….and i need to change …im 21 and i know its still young but i’ve never had a boyfriend but i get involved with guys that i know it wont work out with ….maybe its a self destructive thing …I’m no drama queen…..i don’t think I’m ugly……i can make decent conversation …im not shy….im independent…..i give up……WHAT DO MEN WANT?

I think ive been looking into the wrong type…..from now on ..there will be no more booty calls….i will say no if its incovienant for me…..i will not obsess about wheather he will call back or not, im looking for a gentleman with manners who will open my door and make me feel like a million

I may have mentioned that my approach to my diet isNo Tolerance and I swear by it. I don’t understand the whole “if you allow yourself a little bit then you won’t binge” concept. If I’m going to have a little piece i might as well the whole thing in this phase of the diet anyway. Maybe its because i have will power but no self control …..does that work?

Today i had the day off work so i went looking for a LBD to wear to my best friends bday, but no luck in finding what i wanted and i was also very upset that the ed hardy outlet has closed down……but i did happen to find low calorie frozen meals on special at NQR.  I guess the grass is always greener…….

Im attracted to assholes………enough said

P.S Went for a walk today 40 mins and lost our indoor soccer match last night

Well got up early to take my car to the mechanic cos the exhaust was literally about to fall off and quickly weighed my self result :

68.5 kg

i didnt lose a kilo this week…..only 700grams i guess any loss is a positive but i was expecting since i had excercised 3 times last  week to at least lose 1 kg……oh well….i guess its begun to slow down a bit or ive been eating more maybe

so total weight loss over the last 5 weeks is 5.3 kg ….not bad …….

might i add low calorie jelly is a life saver, best flavour? lime !

oh and i cant decide what to wear to my male best friend that rejected me birthday , i think i might try on some of my dresses and do a pole so all you guys can help me decide, im think LBD maybe? The thing is another one of the guest is an old friend who no longer talks to me and she has gained a stack of weight , atm i am looking 150% hotter than her, i must rub my weight loss in her face. i know that might sound a bit “mean” but she deserves it. I truly believe that revenge is best served cold. I swear i am not a bitter twisted person….. lmao 

Sometimes i crack myself up, remember how i was talking about a pair of togs this is what they look like …..

Another week flew right past me…..my battle is a constant struggle! woe is me! lol The last 5 weeks i have been punishing myself and staring at all the cook books lying around, i think Ive put on weight by just looking at the pictures. bahaha.

I think i should reveal a motive for my sudden urge to lose some weight,  its a long story but ill give you a short version, i fell in love with my best friend and he rejected me. it made me feel frumpy and ugly and all that comes with it. I don’t think men realize how what they do, can change the mood of a woman. In less than 2 seconds they can make us go from feeling like a princess to a grumpy old hag. The mood swings from dieting doesn’t help even i noticed how flat and snappy ive been. So i decided that the best revenge is get “HOT” and make him regret it. I don’t think he will know what hit him when i turn up in the hottest and most flattering dress i own to his birthday in 3 weeks.

The little trouble in the world that is not due to love is due to friendship.
      - Edgar Watson Howe

Weigh in tomorrow im hoping for a little more of a loss since i actually did some exercise this week. 

What an awesome day ! The sun is shining, the birds are chirping! It was meant to be my day off but i ended up working, we’ve fallen behind with stock because of stock-take on Monday so i went in for about 5 hrs to try make up some time. At least it stopped me from going shopping and spending half of my pay hahahaha

I wasn’t sure what i was going to wear today because i usually have a uniform but as i was out the back unpacking stock and not serving customers i got to wear casual clothes. I looked at the massive pile of clothes on the end of my bed and didn’t really fancy anything there so i dug deep into the pile of clothes on my drawers and found my guess jeans that i haven’t worn in about 3 months because i couldn’t do them up with out suffocating or getting a belly ache from the pressure of them being too tight lmao. I stared at them for about 2 whole minutes and then i said what the hell, ill try anything once. Guess what? They fit and i even had to get a belt out !

shopping is cheaper than a psychiatrist………….I’m living this quote right here and now -I love Shopping

Like i’d planned with my girlfriend on Sunday, we went for a walk . We were so motivated that not even the rain stopped us! Yea were hardcore! There was even a bit of jogging involved.

I was really hungry today, so i had some sugafree lollies, im not touching them ever again. Those things make you pass wind like theres no tomorrow (maybe a little too much information true?).

I was a little bit stressed when i stepped onto Bruce (my weight watchers scales, which i haven’t figured out all its functions yet) I’m a no tolerance type person when it comes to dieting and I’d given in to a stressful week and had a couple of drinks to unwind. But again another consistent result dropped another kg or for you imperial system users 2.2 lbs, so that was promising .

Weight 1st September ………69.2 kg /152 lbs (ill stick to the metric system thanks, smaller numbers haha)

Oh and i was so excited when i logged in today, I had my first comment from Robyn! Thanks for your support!!! It made me realize that people are actually reading my blog hahaha , I must not fail, I must not fail, I must not fail. Can i personally reply to these msgs? Oh im such a newb!

I also must share, i found a great snack today, cos you see my problem is my portion control, i have no problems eating the right type of food just limiting myself the correct amount, that’s why I’m in LOVE with the little boxes of sultanas and dried apple. I was snacking on nuts last week but almost died when i found out the fat content. I know they are a good natural fat but seriously !!! Google it!

Reminder : Buy some speedos for swimming and maybe some goggles , I heard from a reliable source that there are some pretty hot footy players that train in the pools on a Tuesday night, that’s gotta be some kind of motivation ey?