I’ve lost track of what day it is…..
April 21st, 2008
I’ve been missing in action for 2 weeks and decided to make at least one more post while I ponder whether or not to delete my blog entirely. It served me well for several months, but hasn’t been working for me as of late. No, I’m not blaming the blog. It’s a blog, and I can only get out of it what I put into it. I’m blaming myself, but also accepting the fact that some changes happened which are affecting my diet and exercise.
First of all, I’m 15 weeks pregnant. I’ve started slacking on my diet and giving into cravings way too much. I need to find a better balance again.
Second, I developed athlete’s foot a few months ago. I must have caught it from the shower at the gym, and the thought of that alone makes me want to puke. My doctor gave me a cream to use and said it could take from 6-8 weeks to work. I gave it 7 weeks for christ’s sake, and it didn’t work. I went back and got another medicine 2 weeks ago, and it doesn’t seem to be working either. My feet are extremely itchy (to the point that I wake up from a dead sleep) and they crack too so it’s painful to walk sometimes. Can someone tell me how I’m supposed to get any fucking exercise?
Oh sure, there are medicines that would clear up the athlete’s foot immediately, but they aren’t safe for use during pregnancy, or during breastfeeding for that matter. I can’t deal with this pain and torture until October when the baby is born, nevermind several months after due to breastfeeding. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. I’m starting to get depressed about it, and I cry about it all the time. I’m so embarassed about the way my feet look. By now I would typically be wearing flip-flops every day, but instead I’m stuck in sneakers and socks. And I live at the beach during the summer….I don’t know what I’m going to do.
I called this morning to make an appointment with a different doctor. Maybe he’ll be able to help. Wish me luck.
April 21st, 2008 at 9:28 am
I hope they can find a better treatment for the athlete’s foot problem - I never realized it was so awful, I just thought it was gross… A new doctor sounds like a good idea.
I can’t tell you about keeping the blog or not, but wanted you to know that I’ve always liked reading your posts. And I would think that keeping a log of what you eat daily will help you with that balanced eating you are seeking.
Happy & healthy 9 months (well, whatever is left!) regardless of what you choose.
April 22nd, 2008 at 9:03 pm
I was very glad to see you’d posted — and then was so sorry to read it. A different doctor sounds like an excellent idea. I had athlete’s foot as a teenager and remember that it cleared up very quickly; there has to be a way to fix this.
If you’re feeling overwhelmed, then blogging takes energy. I hope you can check in once in awhile. There are people out here who care about you
And it would be interesting for you to do, and for us to read, if you work out how to handle pregnancy with a reasonably balanced eating plan. Whatever you do, best of luck to you.
April 23rd, 2008 at 3:33 pm
thanks everyone for your support. i really do appreciate it. i’m trying to get back to a positive place. it’s just harder than i thought it would be.
bloomer, what is the name of your blog? i would love to check it out.
April 23rd, 2008 at 5:44 pm
You’re posting again! I was so happy to see your menu. I’m so sorry that you’re in a bad place right now, but I think writing about it will help. It’s one active thing you CAN do.
I just restarted a blog, at http://saladspinner.typepad.com/blog/ I had had one on 3FC and was very grateful for it, but just didn’t like the software. There’s not much there yet. I have the flu and am just posting the bare minimum. Keep on posting, keep in touch. You’ve been so dedicated and you have so much to look forward to — we want to follow your journey!