Chasing away Chubby

The theme for today is progress. 

I woke up this morning and went for a run.  I haven’t ran in probably 2 months.  I ran 2 miles. Further proof that running is 90% in your head.  If you think you can do it, you can.  I finished up and realized that I could have ran farther.  I could have ran to the end of the road bringing my total to 3 miles, but I decided that I didn’t want to overdo it.  Then I rode bikes with the kids for a few minutes…not long.  I kicked them all out of the house so they would have to do something besides stare at the TV screen playing games.  They need some sun and exercise.  While I was riding the bike I concentrated on holding in the ab muscles.  I could feel my quads working.  I loved the way it felt.  I realized then that I just have to love it.  I have to concentrate on the good feelings I get from working out and allow that to become my “addiction.” I need to embrace the good feelings and forget about any pain I feel while I am working out.  It was minimal today anyway.  I could feel myself wanting it.  Wanting to push myself farther, harder, faster.  I held back because I don’t want to injure myself.  I am a 216 pound woman with arthritis.  The Doc doesn’t mind my running, but I know that it is hard on the joints.  (However, I don’t have arthritis pain when I run regularly…weird???) I have to take care of myself.  But the craving is there.  I want it.  I want to be the person I am in my mind, strong, healthy, Hot!    I know I can do it.  I just have to keep the craving, keep the focus, make myself want it. 

Food yesterday was decent.  I am back on my one meal a day thing…sometimes 2 meals.  (Yesterday was 2 meals). I am just listening to my body, eating when it tells me too. Making better choices.  So far today I have been too busy to eat, and haven’t been hungry.  However, when the hunger hits I will eat. 

Weight this AM: 216.  I ate horribly this weekend so no doubt I am still up from that, plus TOM is still lingering.  Can’t wait til it is gone. 

Well ladies off to do homework and eat a healthy lunch. 

Posted on July 1st, 2008 by lodyangel
Filed under: General