binge, gorge, binge, gorge!
I’m sitting here hating myself.
I had done okay food wise. After supper I had in about 1700 calories. Respectable. So what happens after dinner. I continuously continue to think about eating. For 3 hours I fight the urge. I chew gum, drink, drink, drink. I Still wanna eat. So I decide to eat a sandwich. It would be about 250 more calories, so I eat that. Then DS4 decides he wants a snack of popcorn so I gorge myself on that then I eat 2 pre-cut cookies out of the cookie dough. Then I eat some candy I found up in the cabinet. Gorge, gorge, binge.
I hate myself!
Ican’t stop eating! WTH is wrong with me!?! I know that TOM is here and that is a big culprit to my bad eating…but why can’t I control it like I did back a few months ago. Why can’t I just say no and get and stay on plan???
Why?
Why?
Why?
On top of that I did not work out.
For 2 days in a row!
Motivation. I NEED motivation. I feel like it is coming back and then, I slip off and am back here again. Grrr!
Well I am going to bed. I am getting my ass up out of bed, like it or not to work out some BEFORE work.
I hate TOM.
Hormones suck!
BLAH!!!
Posted on December 10th, 2007 by lodyangel
Filed under: General
Shit babe -we’re in the same goddamn boat.
hang in there boo - it’ll pass
Damn!
xoxoxooxoxooxo
All I can tell you is that sometimes my willpower is great and sometimes it’s nonexistent……I’ve even thought of learning some type of self hypnosis or going to someone…