you would be so gorgeous if…

sisterchicks, I feel positively superb.

I managed to escape fatsgiving with a minimal gain (I think) and today we went clothes shopping.

First we hit forever 21 where I only ended up with a short sleeved cowl neck sweater. Its sure purty.

Like this but it’s solid grey. Yay.

Then I took my mom to Coldwater Creek where her eyes nearly popped out of her skull. She must have been marked because the associates swooped in on her, fetching her sizes and making recommendations. I stood back and let her do her thing so she couldn’t blame me for the obscene amount of money she inevitably spent. Then we hit up Victoria’s Secret which I never get to go to cause I don’t want to drag DH in there and I hate going by myself. I was so excited I was shaking. How effing retarded… Anyway. I bought 5 pairs of PINK panties and a PINK t-shirt. By this time it was almost 6 so we decided to head over to the Olive Garden. I cautiously followed HG’s recommendation of the Venetian Apricot Chicken and I am SO GLAD I did. It was SOOO good. SOOOOOOOOOO GOOD. We headed over to Old Navy after dinner and I lamented that I felt so full on my low fat dinner that I shouldn’t even be thinking about going shopping for jeans. BUT regardless, jeans were 50% off at ON so we were going! I hastily grabbed a couple pairs of 14s just to check and see, since I’ve been told my 16s (that I’m just barely breaking in) look too big already. (And they probably are, since I’ve started wearing a belt out of necessity) but I doubted they would fit. Especially after a big meal.

Well spank me blind and colour me happy, sisterchicks. I’m a size freaking 14 even after a big meal. I was on cloud nine. I could hardly speak. My mom grabbed 10’s to try on and had to exchange them for 8s. We were both floating in such a daze we just started happily grabbing clothes that were on sale.  Eventually I said that we should probably go before we end up in the poor house with nothing but our skinny pants.

so. I haven’t been a 14 in almost 10 years. Granted, sizes have changed a bit since then, but regardless. I am floating. I am elated. I am…tired.

weigh in: 193.4 lbs
lunch: Healthy Choice BBQ chicken
dinner: pretty much an entire bowl of the olive garden salad, venetian apricot chicken, HALF of a breadstick. And of course, the after dinner andes mint.
exercise: I believe I did some serious weight lifting carrying around those bags Also I did the shred with my new workout pants from ON. Finally..a pair of pants that won’t fall around my ankles while doing jumping jacks.

I can’t believe it’s after 11 already.

I’m gonna take a quick shower and hit the hay. Shopping is exhausting.

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 29th, 2008 | 2 Comments »

weighin: 192.8
breakfast (5:30am): 2 tubs of weight watchers plain yogurt and a banana (my day started so promising)
lunch: thanksgiving. one small scoop of macaroni, one small scoop of stuffing, one small scoop of mashed taters, one small scoop of broccoli and rice, one slice ham, 2 slices turkey, one skinny cornbread muffin
dessert: one slice of skinny pumpkin cheesecake, two pecan squares
dinner: ham sandwich (with lunch meat ham, not honeybaked ham)

Now that I’ve written everything down, it doesn’t seem so bad. Those pecan squares were probably the worst thing I ate all day.

I ran a mile and a half on the treadmill at MIL’s house. I couldn’t do any more with all that food in my stomach. I wanted to do the shred tonight but as you can imagine, I am so freaking wiped out. I’m staying up until at least 10:30 (its 9:30 now) because I don’t want to end up sleeping 12 hours and feeling like crap anyway.

What am I thankful for? I’m thankful that I’ve had the willpower to lose 53 lbs. I’m thankful for my family, for my friends, and for you sisterchicks. I’m thankful for 10 days without kroger. I’m thankful for diet soda. I’m thankful for hungry-girl.com. I’m thankful for all things fat free.  I’m thankful for my new jeans already being too big. I’m thankful that tomorrow is another day.

Speaking of tomorrow being another day, I have a date with Old Navy and Forever 21 tomorrow. Mom says my wardrobe looks pathetic. I guess I’ll have to let her fix it She wants to go to the olive garden for dinner tomorrow night. Luckily, my favourite thing to order on the menu (that actually includes pasta) is still probably one of the best diet bets on the menu! I’m a simple girl, I like the linguine alla marinara. Though I’ve heard good things about another dish I can’t recall the name of. One thing is for sure. No freaking bread!

goodnight sisterchicks, and remember. I’m so very thankful for each and every one of you. You keep me going!!!

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 27th, 2008 | No Comments »

First off I want to say, Please treat your local grocery store employees with patience and kindness this week. They are just as stressed out as you are.

Today was a bit of a hair-raising day.

Work was, no doubt, insane. The good news is that I’m going on vacation starting tomorrow afternoon. wheeee!!!

So in the throes of insanity in the bakery department today, the store manager brought us a pizza to share for us all working *so hard* and while at first I turned up my nose at it, with the way things were going, it was unlikely I was going to get a break (or rather, a chance to take one, I’m supposed to take one but sometimes I don’t) So it became easier to fold up a piece of pizza and scarf while I print pie labels than it would be to take a 30 minute and get something better to eat.  Then later on, I had a cookie. Boourns.

The good news is that my guilt was so rampant that I did the shred almost as soon as I got home and I ate a grilled chicken salad for dinner with fat free dressing.

Hoping all goes well tomorrow. I made a skinny cheesecake to take with me to the festivities. I’m going to pack along my workout clothes so I can hit the treadmill during a lull.  Maybe I’ll be so tired from going to work at 4:00 am (Gasp! Why am I still awake?!) that I’ll nap for a good part of the afternoon.

anyway
Today:
weigh-in: 193.2 lbs… Getting sick of that 9…
lunch: THREE pieces of pepperoni pizza. Oy vey.
snack: pb brownie cookie
dinner: one southwest chargrilled chicken salad from chick fil a with light dressing. Yippie!
workout: 30 day shred… Thinking I might be ready to move to level 2….in a few days.

wish me luck for tomorrow, And good luck to all of YOU sisterchicks!

Here is a helpful link!

http://www.webmd.com/diet/news/20081126/enjoy-thanksgiving-without-the-guilt

Happy Thanksgiving! Don’t be a turkey!!

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 26th, 2008 | No Comments »

Mom has decided she wants to go shopping on friday. Ho’kay.

bound and determined to post a loss this week. Despite Thanksgiving and TOM (Turkey!) hanging around.

2 more days of work until I am on vacation. 10 days off. Paid. God, that’s beautiful.

today:
weigh in- 193.2lbs
breakfast: one glazed donut (ohhh man. I couldn’t resist!)
lunch: LC bbq chicken flatbread pizza
dinner: 4 oz chicken, 1 cup rice, a lot of broccoli, one whole wheat roll
snack: half a 100 cal bag of smart pop popcorn.
about 3 bottles of water.

am I on track? Only time will tell.

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 26th, 2008 | 3 Comments »

Of course TOM shows up the day before the first weigh-in. I’m retaining water like mad.

So today was our third wedding anniversary. I got DH a cute little card and I figured he’d get me a card and a cute little something from target maybe. I’d been unable to get him anything yet because of my work schedule but he insisted it wasn’t an issue. Over a month ago, DH commissioned a piece of artwork for our anniversary. We met through an online message board for a band called Eisley. One of the members recently started commissioning pieces of original artwork (she’s quite talented, she’s done album covers, posters, etc) because she had a little bit of time on her hands. The very night she announced this, DH contacted her about a piece for our anniversary.  When I opened it up and turned over the frame to see the art. I was floored. I was speechless. It is so beautiful and thoughtful I couldn’t find anything to say.

This photo does not do it any justice whatsoever. It is so detailed. She and DH were emailing each other and she told him she worked “crazy hard” on the piece because our story meant so much to her.

So this week is going to be a heck of a long week. TOM, Craziest week at work, thanksgiving, mom driving me crazy. Keep me sane, girls!!!

weigh-in: 194.2 (BLOOOOOOOAT)
lunch: n/a (whoops)
dinner: skinny chicken parm with 1 serving whole wheat pasta, a humungo side salad (fat free dressing), and a slice of lite garlic bread.
snack: I tested a skinny corn muffin that I made a batch of tonight. It was pretty good! needed some butter. Thus erasing the skinny…

I’m probably under. Way under. sigh.

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 24th, 2008 | 2 Comments »

so. I spilled the beans to someone on the forum, so I may as well say so here.

Weigh in: 192.8LBS

take that.

It took me two tries to finish my jillian tape today. I so wasn’t interested in doing it today. I got a call this morning from my mother. Frantic. Panicked. Upset. She drove all the way in to the airport (a two hour drive), with my brother, to come and visit us for two weeks. She had two passports. She wasn’t worried. Turns out, She’d brought hers, ….and my dead grandmother’s passport. d’oh! So the first thing I asked her was if she talked to the airline and what they are willing to do for her. They were willing to push her to the next flight that left 4 hours later. But there is still the obvious problem.  Mom got the lady who is house-sitting to drive the passport into the city to the airport. I need to send that woman some flowers.

So now they will not be getting in until midnight. That’s the bad news.

The good news is, I don’t have to eat at Fridays tonight!!!

so. I’ve been given all this extra time to clean my house, and I haven’t done it yet. What is wrong with me?! I severely lack motivation today. I’M AT AN ALL TIME LOW FOR MY WEIGHT, MY FAMILY IS COMING TO VISIT, AND I’M NOT BEING FORCED TO EAT TRASH TONIGHT. WHY AM I NOT MOTIVATED?!

Filed under: daily ponderings, wtf on November 20th, 2008 | 2 Comments »

The scale is still being ultra friendly this week. Maybe it’s because he knows that my mom is arriving tomorrow and I always manage to throw plan to the wind when she arrives. YOU SISTERCHICKS MUST KEEP ME ON TRACK!!! I’m still holding out on you guys until monday comes around to tell you my weight.

I’m really rather proud of myself today. Yesterday I hit the treadmill at my mother in law’s house and I did fairly well so I decided I would do the same today.  I also restarted the 30 day shred because my TBL team wanted to do it as a team so as the captain I had to do it as well

I did something kind of ballsy today. I had some photos of myself in my underwear (bra and panties) that I took in july when I’d lost about 15 lbs. I took some new ones today (biggest loser style, bra and workout pants) and I was so astonished at the difference. Maybe it was the pride, maybe it was the fact that my thread would get lost among 5 other threads that did the same thing today, but I ACTUALLY POSTED THEM FOR PEOPLE TO SEE.

I regretted it for a few minutes.

Then the comments came pouring in. I feel a lot better. I don’t know why I was so worried. I don’t LOOK like that anymore!!! That’s the whole point. I don’t know. Part of me will be glad when the thread falls off the first page.

I’ve got to clean my house tonight. It’s hard to get anything done with James right now.

Today:
weigh in: SUPERSEEKRIT!!
lunch: LC Mac and Cheese, 1 whole wheat roll.
snack: Yoplait Strawberry Shortcake Yogurt (6/10…I prefer regular strawberry)
dinner: 4 oz pork chop, half a cup of mashed potatoes, 1 cup of broccoli. 1 whole wheat roll.
snack: a frozen fruit bar (because I deserve it!)
Exercise: Chasing DS, 30 day shred, 1.5 miles on the treadmill (25 minutes on the treadmill. Not a terrible time for someone who doesn’t run at all), cleaning my house tonight.

2 bottles of water, one diet soda.

Gotta clean. It’s already 10. Oy vey. Lord beer me strength.

Filed under: daily ponderings, wtf on November 20th, 2008 | 1 Comment »

my coworkers aggravate me so much sometimes that my hands start to shake. Not healthy. I’m soooo ready for my vacation.

The scale has been my friend this week, but for the purposes of the biggest loser challenge, I’m not posting my daily weight. Look for it on mondays!

This provera is kicking my ass. This is going to be the worst TOM ever!

today:
lunch: tub of ww key lime pie yogurt and a LC Panini sandwich
dinner: (is going to be) steak fajitas made with LTF whole wheat tortillas.
snack: (will probably be) ww ice cream bar.

I’m pretty excited for The Biggest Loser tonight. So much drama, They couldn’t script this any better if they wanted to!

…

SO the biggest loser tonight? I was so giddy after the final weigh-in. I was sure I knew who was going home. And then, bombshell. I cried at the reveal all the way through until the end of the update. Even after I came over to the computer to dish on the forum, I was fighting back tears. I’m too emotionally invested in this show, man! It turns me into a big wimp! Between TBL and this Provera, I’m a mess!!!

This evening at my mother in law’s house, I decided to jump on her treadmill. I did a mile and a half in about 18 minutes which is an average of a 12 minute mile. Not too shabby! Especially wearing jeans that are too big and shoes that are not for running. Next time, will be prepared.

ordered the 30 day shred on amazon because with the actual dvd, there is the option to not have to listen to jillian talking but still have the music. Gosh! I figure it’ll help since I can’t stand her.

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 18th, 2008 | No Comments »

195.2 lbs this morning.

Huzzah!

I cleaned the office, the kitchen, the bathroom, and the living room today. Tonight I cleaned and organized the pantry. It looks SO good right now.

James was a fusspot today. It was really frustrating but when he throws a tantrum because I put him down for his nap, what can I do? I ignore him and let him fuss it out.

today:
weigh in: 195.2 lbs
lunch: HC Panini with one serving ruffles lite chips
dinner: 6oz baked chicken breast with 1 serving Green Giant Broccoli, carrots, and pasta with cheese sauce (150 cal per serving) and one whole wheat dinner roll
snack: ww giant ice cream bar.
I think cleaning my house counts as exercise!!!

My son is really growing up too fast. He can now pull himself along the furniture and change from the table to the sofa and back again.

I found him asleep after his tantrum, laying in bed like this.

Here is my boy playing with his jumper that he doesn’t actually like to jump in anymore.

DH insists he needs a haircut. He’s probably right but I can’t bring myself to do it.

Filed under: daily ponderings, photolog on November 18th, 2008 | 2 Comments »

I’ve neglected writing today because

a)I’ve been constructing a spreadsheet for the 3FC 20-somethings biggest loser challenge because I was nominated for team leader. I think I finally have it. Excel and I don’t work well together, dh helped me a little more than I want to admit.
b) I put together a photo album in my facebook of my weight over the last 5 years. If you want to see it, you can find it here.

today:
weigh in- 196.0lbs
breakfast (YES, BREAKFAST)- DH made eggs and hashbrowns. according to his calculations, 250 calories for what I ate.
late lunch: half a roast beef sandwich, 2 containers of plain yogurt
dinner: 2 servings Zatarains Jambalaya made with Healthy Ones Turkey Smoked Sausage. Ooops. Salty.
snack: Frozen fruit bar

drank like 3 bottles of water today hoping to chase away some bloat. Hopefully it pays off. I’m tired of seeing that 6.

goodnight everybody!

Filed under: daily ponderings on November 17th, 2008 | 1 Comment »