Weight today: 192.4
Come on 180s! Eating has been going well. I went for a walk with my best friend this morning and that was nice. My back is aching pretty bad today, probably from the thrashing 21 month old that sleeps in my bed 
I’m going to do progress pictures in a week or so., though I dont’ think there’s been too much difference.
Yay down to 193.0 this morning!
I haven’t even been counting calories lately, just eating intuitively. And exercising. Baby finally got in the Mother’s Morning Out program and though he is still trying to adjust, I simply love it. Last week I was able to go running in the park (3 miles!) and then come home, take a shower, deep condition my hair, shave my legs, and then clean up a little bit. I hope baby starts to enjoy it a little bit more, but I guess it will take some getting used to.
DH’s workplace is going to pay for workers and families to enter a 5k on july 4th. I am so there! I will run my butt off and try to set a new time. I’ve also been doing the firm still and I can see results. I’m going to start posting new progress pictures once I hit 190lbs. I am just happy to be out of the rut I was in.
On a different note, can you believe swimsuit season is here already? Argh !
I had a great bday weekend. DH took the baby to visit his parents and they got back yesterday, which was my bday. I was a little nervous about them going by themselves on an hour and half long drive, but it went well. I also got some well deserved sleep-in time, which I haven’t done in forever. The day before my bday I went with a friend to a Crawfish boil that also had a bunch of bands like Finger Eleven and 3 doors down there. It was great, the crawfish was good and they served it with boiled corn and potatoes, so nothing fatty or bad…except maybe for the spicy stuff, which I dont think is all that bad.
I had terrible cramps friday night so I know AF is on her way. The scale is up to 195.0, but Im not too worried. I had someone that I hadn’t seen in awhile tell me that I’d lost a lot of weight and looked good. That is exactly the kind of motivation I need these days 
I’ve decided to re-read Intuitive Eating. I know that I just read it, but I think I need another run through, though I feel myself practicing its principles.
I weighed myself this morning and I was 194.6…so down a little over 2 pounds since my last post. Better than being up or staying the same, so I will take it
Eating has been going ok. Some days I count my calories, some days I don’t, but I dont gorge myself ever and I consider that a big behavior modification. Tomorrow is my bday and I’m of course a little depressed that I can’t celebrate it with a hot body, but it gives me motivation. I really need to get healthier, because i’m getting older. Youth won’t always be on my side, so I need to give my body it’s own brand of youthfulness by eating right and exercising.
Speaking of exercise. I have actually been working out regularly. Maybe not everyday, but nearly. I’m also not running over 2 miles., though I still want to shoot for that half marathon in december, so I need to get on track (literally!) I haven’t run outside in a looong time. The treadmill is so boring 2 miles is all I can stand, though I am very thankful to have it and that it’s still working.
Anyway, I am still here, still sticking with it. I hope to post more here. You ladies have always been my motivation in this weight loss gig.
Ended up eating about 2000 cals today. Ran 1.5 miles on the treadmill and then did 30 minutes of the firm. Tired now and going to be. Like my use of absolutely no pronouns?
I weighed myself yesterday for the first time in ages. I was 196.8. So I’m up about 4-5 pounds. Which is about what I expected. Also, I’ll probably start my period sometime soon, so that could be a factor as well. I will weigh myself again in a couple of weeks. Will write more later.
Well, we went ahead and bought that used treadmill. It’s a Landice which is supposed to be one of the best treadmill companies out there. We got it for 200 bucks and they normally sell for 3000 or so. Even though it’s kind of old, I still think it’s a great deal. The only problem I have with it is that the elevation doesn’t work and we were told that it did. Oh well, at least it runs! Or rather it allows me to!
Still haven’t weighed myself, but eating has been pretty good. I’m not sure when I will weigh myself. I’m thinking I’ll start doing it every 2 weeks or so. I have the feeling that once I start losing again that I’ll go back to everyday, but I hope not. I ran 2 miles on the treadmill and then did weights. Tonight I’ll probably walk on it a little and then do the firm.
Got the treadmill and I love it! It’s pretty old, but it’s commercial grade and in great condition. I just hope that it lasts for at least a year as I got it dirt cheap. I ran 2 miles on it tonight and felt great.
DH, the baby, and I went out to eat. I got a chicken sandwhich and tried to listen to my body to tell me when it was full. I stopped with almost half of my sandwhich left and half of my potatoe salad. Tonight I had a handful of almonds and feel pretty satisfied, though that gnawing feeling of “hmm, a peanut butter sandwich sure would feel good in my tummy before bed” Away, satan!
Things to remember:
Exercise makes my body feel better and, in my mind’s eye, look better.
Eating is not all there is to life.
Sometimes babies like to stick things in strange places.
First I want to say thanks for the “We miss you” posts. It really means a lot. I have been avoiding this blog on purpose.
I have been avoiding it because I have been spiraling out of control the last month or so. I have no idea what I weigh and have no desire to know right now because it will only serve to discourage me, though I can tell by the way my body feels that I have gained weight. I’ve been a little depressed about the whole thing, I feel like a failure in a big way. I’ve not been running significantly in over a month. I get resentful that I have to pack the kiddo up in order to get a run in (not resentful towards my kiddo, but the situation and maybe at people who don’t watch him for me, so that I could run).
The last week has been a little better, I ran last weekend and walked tons. I did the Firm twice this week, but nothing nearly like I’d been doing. I just finished reading intuitve eating hoping something would strike a chord with me in that book and for the most part it did. There are some things that I disagree with, but overall I get the point. Doing it is another matter all together.
We are going to look at a used treadmill today. Hopefully it will be in good condition and we can buy it. If I can get through the boredom that comes with running on those things, then I can start running again in earnest.
I’m still going to calorie count…I just need to learn not to eat “just because”.
I’ll write more later.
Sometimes I just have to sit back and think how ludicrous all this weight loss stuff is.
I was watching the Biggest loser last night which I haven’t watched in a while. I dont watch much tv at all these days.
Anyway, as some of the contestants were cramming food from a vending machine in their mouths for the possibilty of a pound pass of wads of cash, I was thinking how strange that FOOD is the cause of this show. Or rather, our lack of control with food.
It’s just food, right? It’s only food. Why is it in theory so easy to lose weight, but most of us can’t do it? Why do we eat so much in the first place? Why can’t I be like a robot and program myself only to eat this many calories per day? It’s about my life, right? It’s about how happy I am with my body, my sex appeal? Why can’t I take the reigns completely and say., this is it! Sure, I do this every now and then, but ultimately, I fall prey to my weakness for food.
It’s all so stupid to me when I really think about it. Food is not an entity with the intelligence to bend me to its will. It is a resource that keeps me alive, like oxygen or water.
Sorry, just feeling a little resentful to my excess fat today.