Leeda: Running in a Fat Suit

Sometimes I just have to sit back and think how ludicrous all this weight loss stuff is.

I was watching the Biggest loser last night which I haven’t watched in a while. I dont watch much tv at all these days.

Anyway, as some of the contestants were cramming food from a vending machine in their mouths for the possibilty of a pound pass of wads of cash, I was thinking how strange that FOOD is the cause of this show. Or rather, our lack of control with food.

It’s just food, right? It’s only food. Why is it in theory so easy to lose weight, but most of us can’t do it? Why do we eat so much in the first place? Why can’t I be like a robot and program myself only to eat this many calories per day? It’s about my life, right? It’s about how happy I am with my body, my sex appeal? Why can’t I take the reigns completely and say., this is it! Sure, I do this every now and then, but ultimately, I fall prey to my weakness for food.

It’s all so stupid to me when I really think about it. Food is not an entity with the intelligence to bend me to its will. It is a resource that keeps me alive, like oxygen or water.

Sorry, just feeling a little resentful to my excess fat today.

Yesterday was not a good eating day, so I won’t go into it! Just for my own record, it was because of emotional upset.
Today has been pretty good. I think I have found a way to help me not eat a bunch of calories before most of the day is gone. Protein and fat (the good kind of course) really help early in the day. This morning I had 2 eggs and a serving of almonds. That was around 300 calories. I wasn’t ravenous.  I’ve noticed this before and I think I will try to stick to a similar breakfast from now on.

DH has to work today and was up all night working, so  no running without the stroller today, like I usually do I decided to do the Firm instead and it was a good workout. Tomorrow, I’m starting back my running and no excuses! I didnt check into the Mother’s Morning Out thing like I meant to so I will try to remember to do it tomorrow.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!