Leeda: Running in a Fat Suit

I don’t know where I heard that particular nickname for a bra. Cute isn’t it?

I had one of these babies a few years back and still have it, but it’s too small for me now, so I got my size 2 today! And that’s the end of me spending money for awhile. I have great shoes, great sports bra, the other things on my wish list are “wants” for running and not “needs”. I hate that it gets so dark so soon. The day just gets away from me. Makes me wish I had a treadmill. I am doing Y!F tonight, which I havne’ done in awhile, so should be interesting. Eating was terrible again today. Just bought groceries so I have some very healthy and yummy options for tomorrow.

This is how I feel about my running. I am very slow,but persistent. I went yesterday to run a 3 miler, without the baby for once, and only did 1.5 for several reasons:

1. I’ve noticed that when I run without the stroller, that my back kills me! It’s my boobs. I so need the enell. I hate to keep going on about it, but I need a new bra, stronger core muscles.  Those will help me. I have terrible posture and need to fix that. After all, they say good posture takes off about 5 pounds in appearance.

2. I had a small scratch on the side of my heel that got very irritated while I was running. It hurt pretty bad afterwards and was pretty raw looking.

3. The damn hills…my arch nemesis!

Yesterday was kind of a bad day for food. Not that I ate tons of junk. I just really didn’t keep track of what I was eating and how much I ate. Today will be better. I’m wasting too much time NOT losing weight that I could be losing. I am down to 193, but it’s going too slow mostly because I am not doing everything that I could to lose this weight. The sooner I lose weight, the sooner I will be healthier, run faster, and feel better about myself (hopefully!). Off to take the baby to the park.

I haven’t posted in a couple of days. Things have been kind of busy around here. Couple of things:

The running shoe store was having a Black Friday sale and I found a pair of shoes that fit me for 55 bucks! They were half off. I ran in them Sunday and did (are you ready for this?) FOUR MILES!! It took me an hour,  but the baby was asleep most of the time, so it went well. I would love to see what my time would be like without the stroller.

My job is going fine, though I think they would like me to work a little more than I am. I am thinking about putting the baby in daycare 2 days a week and working then. I think he needs the socialization, it’s just hard for me to trust anyone with him, but I will have to eventually.

I went yesterday to get fitted for a sports bra. I’d already measured myself at home and decided that I need a size 2 enell. I called on the phone to see if they carried that brand and she said they did in addition to another brand (Lunaire) that she said was priced well. When I looked it up online, I could see why. Those bras are not good for high impact. When I got there, I told her that I would probably get the Enell, but I just wanted to try the Lunaire and see how it was. She proceeded to try to force me into like 6 different pair of Lunaires. The first one which was my size just didn’t offer any bounce control at all. So she decided to try more sizes, and after awhile I just told her that I wanted to try on the Enell. Well, she brought me back a size 3. I raised my eyebrows but didn’t say anything. I put one boob in it and she shakes her head and says “Oh no, this won’t do, it smooshes you”…Um, enells smoosh you that’s how they work. As long as it holds me in and I can breathe correctly, I don’t care.She could’ve at least let me actually put the whole thing on.

She then goes and gets a size 4 which is huge on me and she lets me know that it just won’t work. Well, duh, it’s too  big! At this point I’d had enough and put my top back on and got out of there. She argued with me, but luckily DS threw a big fit at that moment as if on cue and I got out of there. The running store sells sports bras and I think I will just go there and buy an enell.

I’d really like to use Moving Comfort Maia, but I’m afraid that my breast size will change when I lose weight and stop nursing, so I don’t want to spend that much money on a bra that comes in a specific size like the Maia. I wore a size 1 enell when I was thinner and I think I would be able to fit it again one day for running and then wear the size 2 for other lower impact things.

Ok, baby has a poopy diaper, so I have to go. Not the most glamorous end to a post, but it’s raw reality.

Running skirts

Enell sports bra

Moving Comfort Maia Sports Bra

Another pair of good shoes

Garmin 350 GPS thingy

Katie Holmes ran the New York marathon and I was looking online just reading about the marathon itself. I love reading about races now. Anyway, I saw this picture of her:

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Everyone keeps making a big deal about her not wearing a bra. Ok, who cares if she was comfortable doing it? Personally, I would’ve been on a hospital stretcher with a concussion by the first mile if I had tried that, but more power to those who can go without.

But her boobs are not perky like I alway see on TV.  They look normal, like a real mom. Granted, maybe she’s slumping over a little, but I’m fighting the battle of the sag/bulge and feel a little better knowing even a sex symbol like her is not perfect.

Anyhoo….I did 2 miles today. Those hills kicked my BUTT. I did 1 mile and felt so winded that I stopped to walk about 5 minutes. Then I went back and did it again. Not as bad the second time around, but there was still a lot of butt kicking by the hills.

After the run, I went on a tourof  gym/physical therapy center that is affiliated with the hospital I now work for.  I would be able to get a reduced rate w/ no joining fee or contract. Really nice facilities, but the childcare area could use some help. The lady showed me around and the kids looked totally miserable. They were all sitting at a table, one of them slumped over a coloring book that I swear was from the 1980s, while an outdated video played on a tv in the background. The kid slumped over the coloring book looked up briefly when I came in the room and then let her forehead land back on the table. This was not the happy toy land I expected. DS kind of looked at me desperately when we toured the area and started clutching me tighter as if begging me not to leave him there.

But they do have a nice heated pool, aerobics classes and a nice gym area, so I might just join and go when DH is here to watch the kiddo. I really want to incorporate swimming into my exercise regime, though it wreaks havoc on my hair.

I’m supposed to do 2 miles tomorrow, so I think I will do the hilly area again. I will rest on thursday and then friday get DH to watch DS while I do my “long” run of 3.5-4 miles. I’m supposed to do 3.5, but I think I could do more, especially on a flat course. I found a new biking trail to run on that’s out in the open that I would like to try, but I don’t feel comfortable pushing a stroller over some of the parts. I really wish I had someone to run with, but best friend is out of town visiting family and plus she’s just not into running as much as I thought she was.

The running store here where I bought my shoes is having a big sale on Friday. I’m going to go and if they have shoes that fit my feel on sale, I will so be buying them. Ok, if they’re not too expensive.  Oh, and if they’re cute…

And how could I have left? I won’t get into, but the reasons were stupid on my part.

I need this blog. It helps me, you all help me and I am inspired by everyone’s progress. Also, my weight loss has really slowed down (er, stopped?) since I stopped writing here. Coincidence? I think not.

Today, as I sit here eating grapefruit and sipping coffee, I can say that I have changed my lifestyle. Yes, there are the occasional slip ups and probably always will be. But thus far I am proud of what I have accomplished. I ran 3.2 miles yesterday. Yes, ME! And guess what ? I wasn’t winded, my legs didn’t burn like fire.  Ok, it was a flat course, but darn it, I did it.  I have signed up for a 10k in February and I’m going to be ready.

Let’s see, what else is new? Oh yes, I started a job. No, it’s kind of like part time (prn, if you know what that means). I’ll only probably work like once a week, but I get to choose my own schedule. Still working with babies, not at my old place of employment though. It’s pretty slow there, so I have to make sure I bring a book. Healht-wise, I don’t like being so sedentary. I’m not even that sedentary at home, so it’s a bit of a change. My legs usually ache afterwards from sitting down so much. But it pays pretty well and I get to cuddle infants, so it works for now.

Ok, off for a run. I’m going on the hilly course and am going to do 2.8 miles. Just watch, it will be harder than the 3.2 miles lol. So happy to be back. I will post more later AND I need to get caught up on everyone’s blogs!

I’m going to stop posting for awhile. I’ll be using the message board more. I’ll still check in on your blogs, so don’t worry I’m not gone.

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So I’ve been in orientation and to make a long story short, my diet has gone to hell. Ok, maybe not to hell..maybe to purgatory? No, it was in purgatory when I had 2 nutrigrain bars (high fructose corn syrup!!) and a buttery roll for breakfast and lunch. Then it went to hell when my MIL ordered pizza and hot wings. I had 3 pieces of pizza and 2 wings. Sigh…The only good thing I can report is that I had no diet pepsi and drank a good deal of water.

Here’s total menu for today:

B: coffee, strawberry nutrigrain bar

S: nutrigrain bar

L: baked (broiled?)chicken breast, broccoli, and that buttery roll (this was from the hospital caf)

S: nothing

D: 3 slices of “the works” papa john pizza and 2 hot wings

Ok, I just added that up and of course I had to estimate for the cafeteria stuff, but it was 2100 calories…not as bad as I thought. I’m going to go running tomorrow. I’ve got to, so I wont’ revert back to a big fat pig. I know that AF is coming, but this is no excuse for all of the crazy eating I’ve been doing. I’ve got to learn how to incorporate this into life even when I’m working.

Ok, strike everything I ever said about wanting to run on a treadmill. I used my free pass to the Y yesterday and that was the most boring experience ever. Granted, each machine had a TV and I thought that was kind of nice, but gah, even “Silence of the Lambs” couldn’t take my mind off the fact that I was running and going no where. I did 2 miles.

The Y is very nice though. Unfortunately, the track goes around the weightlifting area and it’s not at all like I imagined.    First, there is no way in hell I’m running around on a track in front of a bunch of big sweaty men. Second, I was expecting a better surface to run on, the ground looked like concrete.

If anything, it would be nice on rainy days and for the pool and classes. Best friend and I are going swimming later on today.

I’ve decided to do this plan   instead of the half marathon plan. Besides, there are a lot more 10ks in my area than half marathons. I may tinker around with it though.