Leeda: Running in a Fat Suit

Ok, so I’m running along in the park today minding my own business, listening to an audio book on my Ipod. There’s a lady who walks there frequently. I saw her in Wal-mart once with her little girl. In case I haven’t said this before, I’m in a mixed marriage so my child is biracial, though he looks white, so everyone assumes I’m babysitting him or something. Anyway, this lady also has a biracial child who is white looking (the lady is black). The little girl looked at DS in Wal-mart and said “Look Mama” and then the lady said something like “Oh, he’s like you” We chatted a little bit, and it was actually pleasant because normally I get annoying or stupid comments.

Well it turns out this lady goes walking at the park I normally go to. I saw her a couple of times and waved, but she always wants to stop and talk to the baby. This annoys me, because I don’t want to stop running so she can chat. Other people who are regulars at the park just keep walking and wave at me or the baby, but she has to completely stop, get off the path she’s on and come over to us, so I feel obligated to stop.

She did this today, but had kind of grim look on her face. I stopped, but jogged in place so that she would get the hint that I needed to keep going. I’m there for exercise, not conversation. She wanted to inform me that I needed to be wearing a sports bra when I run.

OKAY…I was wearing 2! I test them out by jumping up and down a lot before I go running to make sure there won’t be any extra jiggle. Anyone with big breasts knows how uncomfortable that can be.  I also have an enell that I prefer to wear because it works so well, but it was in the wash today. I usually wear it though. She said that she saw me the other day and thought it was a shame I wasn’t wearing a sports bra. She said that she had been running without one a few years back and that it caused her breast to sag really bad, even though they were small. I then told her I was wearing 2 and the support was fine. She got this surprised look on her fact and looked down at my bust.

She then said that she could recommend me a doctor to take care of my problem. WTF?! Now, my breast are saggy? How DARE she?!

Yes, my breast have never been perky, they never will be. I’m fine with that. Unless they start dragging the ground, I won’t be having surgery on them.  I shook my head no, and she assured me that medicaid would pay for it…um, who the *$%# said I was on medicaid? In fact, who the *$%& invited you over here to critique  my boobs, my running, and then suggest how I would go about paying for a surgery that I don’t intend to have.

I said I wasn’t on medicaid, and she looked surprised at that. I wanted to say “Lady, do you want the name of my insurance company so you can double check? Do you want me to pull up my shirt so you can see that I do have 2 sports bras on?”

I packed up my son, stroller, and saggy boobs and got in the car. I am never going to that track again, at least not in the morning when she likes to come. I drove by another park further down the road that I thought was all concrete, but it turns out to be asphalt, so I’ll be running there from now on. Maybe I overreacted, I don’t care.

What makes me the angriest is that I am not bouncing all over the place at all. The girls are pretty much in place. ARGH so mad!!!

pardon my rant

Hehe, totally did not make the 2.8 miles, more like just 2…sigh oh well. I will try again tomorrow.

Eating was good yesterday, I bought some liver, which I hadn’t had since I was pregnant and it’s SO good, yum. Iknow most people hate it, but it’s so good for you (and tastes good too!) YAY LIVER!!

I slept funny last night, so my back is sore, as well as my arm. I’m not going to run today, but I will tomorrow. Nothing else really to report. No weight loss this week, but I think AF is around the corner, so I’m not complaining.

Ok, I’m going to try and run 2.8 miles today, or at least more than 2 which is what I usually run.  I have a 5k that I’m doing in a month and I intend to run the whole thing, no walking. I’m posting this here first so that I will have more encouragement to make that 2.8 miles. I know I could do it without a stroller, but that’s something I can’t help, so no sense in whining about it some more

Write more later.

As I do every month, I’m posting a progress picture. I have actually lost 6 lbs this month, so I’m pretty happy. Hopefully it will continue, but I have a feeling that the dreaded plateau is in the works at some point. My belly bulge is still there, the shirts just kind of hides it.

I ran 21 minutes yesterday morning. I will probably try to do another one today or might just walk depending on how I feel and how hot it is. Baby is definitly going to the park today, so I will be near the track and therefore feel obligated to do SOMETHING. Yesterday was a bad food day. I went over my calories and ate some things I shouldn’t have. I won’t dwell on it, though the guilt is there, just time to get back on the horse!

Scale said 198.6 this morning! I am so happy that things are moving along nicely. I went and bought a pair of size 14 pants from the consignment store. One of the pair of size 14s that I usually wear are starting to get big, but they are low waist, and I always seem  a little smaller there. As I’ve said before, my belly is huge (though it’s gotten smaller over the last few months), so I think that’s really keeping me out of size 12. I remember when I was at this weight a few years ago, I refused to fit myself into a 14 and just kept squeezing into my 12s…It was so uncomfortable and i’d have horrible marks of my abdomen. Now, I have no shame in getting into 14s because I have been higher and also because I know that I won’t be here forever!

Once I do get into 12s comfortably, my waredrobe will increase significantly. I figure another 20 lbs should do it, so maybe by Christmas if things keep going the way they are, I’ll be there.

I went running today, just intervals with my friend, though I ran a little bit more than she did. She pushed my son in the stroller too, which makes a HUGE difference in my running speed and endurance. Also got a good workout playing with baby in the playground. That little guy is a busybody.

Weight today was 199 on the dot. I was all dressed to go running today before I did groceries. It was drizzling  a bit but I still planned to do it. of course, the downpour started just as I was pulling into the parking lot. I know a lot of people run in the rain, but I dont have a stroller cover to protect the baby and I dont’ have a poncho to protect myself. Plus, I’m afraid of slipping and hurting myself. I am going to do either Y!F or DDR today instead and run with my best friend tomorrow. Hopefully it won’t rain.

I bought groceries today, as I said, and thank goodness because it was getting down to the bare bones well not really, it was just stuff that I was tired of eating. Still trying to get off the diet pepsi’s . I wish they weren’t in the house, but DH is addicted to them and I wouldnt even dream of asking him not to drink them, he would die of indignation. Nothing much else to report.

I saw this article on CNN.com, Here is the link, but I just went ahead and posted the high points. Very interesting!

Healthy Habit 1: Eat plenty of produce and whole grains

Countries known for putting it into practice: China and Greece

Healthy Habit 2: Savor leisurely dining

Countries known for putting it into practice: Italy, France, Spain, Greece, Japan

Healthy Habit 3: Practice portion control

Countries known for putting it into practice: France, Japan

Healthy Habit 4: Eat a variety of unprocessed, fresh foods

Countries known for putting it into practice: Italy, France, Greece, Japan, the United States

Healthy Habit 5: Spice up your plate

Countries known for putting it into practice: India, China, Thailand, the United

I haven’t been on the past couple of days, but the good news is that I haven’t been off track at all. Eating has been going rather well. The weather has cooled off so much, the run this morning was divine. Since I’m not totally doing C25K while I’m making sure to heal, I’ve been listening to an audio book while I run. I prefer to read, but this is ok for riding in the car or during exercise. I did 9 minute walk, 15 minute run, and then 11 minute walk today. The next time I’m going to bump it up to 20 minutes and do that for the next 3 times.

The scale said 199.4 this morning, so we are moving along steadily. DH congratulated me on reaching “onederland” (he’s been reading my blog, the sneak!) Anyway, that’s it for today.

ONEDERLAND!!! the scale said 199.6 this morning! I am SO happy. I’m down to my pre-pregnancy weight! Now I just have to get off the rest, but this is so encouraging! Thanks to all of you for your support and cheering me all the way to Onderland!