Leeda: Running in a Fat Suit

Floundering, but still alive.

I did a 2 mile walk (half a mile in the rain!) today, the first exercise I’ve done in awhile. I’ve been sick the past week or so. I have not gone near the scale lately. I’m on point with my calories today, so I’m going to stay on track. In a couple of days I will weigh myself.

I get discouraged that I never seem to make progress lately, but really if I’m still trying, that means that I haven’t given up and THAT means that I haven’t failed…right?

Thanks for checking on me ladies.

I’ve been making feeble attempts to get back into the running world. Well it’s time to get a plan together, especially if I want to run the half marathon I have planned in December. So I’m turning once again to old Hal Higdon

for a good running schedule. I will do this 10 mile plan, which is 10 weeks long and that will leave me enough time to start up my mileage to a bit over half marathon distance (13 miles roughly) I may stretch the plan out some if I find it’s going too fast, we shall see. Since baby has MMO tomorrow, I will start with a 2 mile run tomorrow. Actually, I will start today with some stretching and yoga.

I bought a spaghetti squash a few days ago and we are going to eat it for supper tonight (”we” being me and baby, I don’t think DH would touch it with a ten foot pole!) I’m interested to see how it tastes, if it’s good enough, it may replace pasta for me.  I stayed away from the scale today, thank goodness. Just have to make it til Sunday

 I knew it would be bad, I knew I overate yesterday and that the scale LOVES to overreact to things like that lol.

So, I think I’ve been weighing too much lately. I will weigh again on sunday morning.

I’ve had an active day so far. I dropped baby off at Mother’s Morning Out and then went to walk in the park for 2 miles. I came home and did about 3 hours of yard work, including mowing, picking up sticks and pine cones, water, edging, and using the blower. I’m pretty tired now, but I’m going to pick up the kid in about half an hour and we’re both going to lay down for a nap lol.

So I don’t think I posted this here, but I chopped off all of my hair. I won’t go into detail, but I will say that my hair is now in it’s naturally curly state, but only 4-5 inches long, which looks like 2 inches for tightly curled/coiled hair. So in addition to trying to lose weight. I’m also trying to grow my hair long and strong. Luckily, things that create good hair growth also create a healthy body, so I’m in luck!

Not a good day today.

I was bound to have a bad day sooner or later. It will be better tomorrow!! (or rather I will be better hehe )

That so many people have let their blogs go or deleted them. I hope they deleted them or stop visiting because they were doing so well and not because they gave up. Having had a bit of  a hiatus myself, I can say that I tend to post more here when I am doing well, not worst. (though I know I should post in all circumstances).

Here’s to hoping ya’ll are all well!

Oops, I’m back to weighing everyday. Well today’s weight was 190.6.

I went to a baby shower last night. I was worried that I would eat things I shouldn’t, but I was so busy chasing after my little hellion that I didn’t really have time to eat. We finally sat down to eat and hellion was eating like he was ravenous. He was the only toddler there and the person who’s house it was at did not have kids yet, so of course there was tons of stuff to get into. Someone left a drink out on the table on the edge and hellion spilled it on the floor. I felt like we were destroying the house lol. I felt a little better when the other child there (7 months old) spit up on the oriental rug lol.

Oh and I forgot to mention his 2 excursions to the front door to fling it open and make a mad dash down the driveway. Such fun!

Anyway, at the shower, I did have a couple of bites of fruit and a smidgen of cake and chicken tenders.  I got home before I realized that I’d not had any dinner except for that small amount I’d had at the party and I was a little hungry so I had a bowl of grapes. I felt so…in control. Please, Lord, let it be like this from now on….let this not be a fluke!!

My DH just quit caffeine and has been “clean and sober” for about 5 days now. He was REALLY addicted to it, so I’m very impressed and, I have to say, surprised that he was able to pull it off.  He made a list of why he wanted to quit, so I thought I would do this for my own everpresent addiction: food!

I’ve done this before, but it never hurts to do it again.

1. I want to be healthy

2. I want to live a long time, see my children grow up

3. I want to feel good about myself

4. I want to be a good example to my children

5. As a nurse, I want to be a good example to patients in the community

6. I want to fit into my old clothes

7.  I want to feel sexy

8. I want to feel fit

I was just thinking…I may have to change the name of this blog if I don’t get off my fat ass and go run!!

I’d planned to do it last night, but I’d not slept properly the last few days and went to bed shortly after the rugrat went to bed. I feel much better this morning. I get really irritable without sleep.

Weighed in this morning since AF is almost gone—191.0!!!  Awesome, awesome!

Makes me feel a little bit better. The reason that I was so sleepy was that baby and I went to see his grandparents out of town. While I was there, my MIL watched him for me and I went to browse clothes for the first time in a long time. I went to one store and saw a great looking shirt, size large and a dress that was half off, also size large. I went to try on both of them and was so disappointed when neither of them fit over my huge boobs! It was weird, because Ithought I could wear a large normally, but I went back out into the store and realized I was in a teenager clothes store. Ug, no wonder, the sizes were probably all juniors. What an idiot, huh?

I forgot to post my weigh in from a few days ago. It was 191.8!

Slow and steady!!

I dare not weigh myself today because AF is here and that could never be good news

Since I’ve been trying to practice intuitive eating I’ve noticed so many times where I’ll look at the clock and think “gosh I need to eat ” and then actually THINK about whether or not I’m hungry and be surprised that I’m not. I also noticed that I like to eat in the car while driving. It kind of takes care of the boredom. Once I decided not to stop for any food today I thought I’d be so bored…and I was…but it was quite an eye opening moment for me.

I really need to get back into the working out thing. It’s so hot right now outside I will have to put the treadmill to use tonight. No Mother’s Morning Out this week, so I can’t go running outside unless I take the jogging stroller.

Weight today: 192.4

Come on 180s! Eating has been going well. I went for a walk with my best friend this morning and that was nice. My back is aching pretty bad today, probably from the thrashing 21 month old that sleeps in my bed

I’m going to do progress pictures in a week or so., though I dont’ think there’s been too much difference.