Digging Deep

The Demon Within

Posted kiki on September 29th, 2008 | Filed under General

Today I am battling my own demons. The negative little bugs that try to procreate in my mind, hatch and birth more negative feelings and thoughts. I feel a little bloated. Probably from too much salt, or perhaps Aunt Dot is on her way to visit. Time and time again I get to this place. Although it is not as often as it use to be, it is still here. I feel shallow, a little lost, a little empty inside. I guess ultimately I am never really fully satisfied with who I am. I wonder what woman I will have to morph into next. Why can’t I ever be pleased and accepting of myself. I shouldn’t need anyone’s approval. I should be happy and grateful everyday in every way, but I am not.

SIDE NOTE: I came here today to write out my feelings simply because I am too far away from my journal right now. I don’t need anyone’s acknowledgement that you were at my page. It’s become clear to me that people on this site have their own “clicks.” Which is great if you want a good support system in your weight loss. However if you are here, feel free to use my site as a tool to help you along your way. MOTIVATION TO MOVE YOUR ASS has some nice blogs I previously wrote. So that being said, “Good luck to you in shedding your excess fat :)” Lord knows it isn’t easy.

So I guess what I’m basically saying is I’m in a funk today, but I’ll get over the tall mountain. I wish peace and love on myself. I believe in myself that I can do what I put my mind too. Therefore I will be successful at anything that I work hard at. The key to success is determination and hard work. Surprises will come along the way, but that’s to be expected. No one ever said life was easy.