Digging Deep
My Frustrations With Dieting
A Poem for Self
Posted kiki on June 13th, 2008 | Filed under Just Venting...
Sometimes it is so easy to tell others
how much you love them
You can look at them and fall in love
with what you see dancing in their eyes
It is easy to accept when they let you down
But you accept their apology anyway and move
on back to being friends
It’s easy to open up and be honest with them
It’s easy to accept who they are - flaws and all
It’s easy to write a poem for them
expressing your feelings and emotions out
on a blank sheet
It’s not the same when I try to do that for me
I treat myself like I’m my own worst enemy
I don’t accept myself for the woman I have become
I judge and criticize everything I do
I’m not accepting of my many flaws
incapable it seems to love the skin I am in
Harsh quiet voices roam my head all day
Reeking havoc on my thoughts of myself
Feeding me lies that I know aren’t true
Even when I’m happy - they try to make me blue
So I sit today and write a poem for me
I’m trying to accept who I am
I’m trying to love the skin I am in
I’m trying to be a better woman than I have been
But the past holds on and clings
trying to make me remember unforgettable things
Still, I try
Trying is all I can do
It is the only thing that will make me feel like I’m not
a complete loser
I can not love hard and without thought
without first loving me
Without first accepting me
This is one of the most important lessons in life
to be learned
I’m still trying to pass this test
Often times my emotions are a mess
But still, all I can do is try
Yes, my sweet one
you are beautiful
your smile shines bright like a warm
Thursday afternoon
Your energy invigorates all that you meet
Your love wraps around people in layers
and keeps them warm
Yes, you are beautiful
You are smart
You will succeed
You can do anything you put your mind to
Yes, you will make it
Yes, you are special
You are a gift to the world
and there’s nothing you can’t do
Let your light shine brightly
For there is no other who is
like you
Written by: SMC (me)
June 14th, 2008 at 10:49 am
We do tend to look at ourselves in the worst possible light, Kiki. Don’t know why we do that. If we were half as bad as we think we are, we wouldn’t have any friends. I’m sure you have LOTS of friends who see your light. You’re right to take a few minutes to let it shine for yourself.
Have a great weekend!
June 16th, 2008 at 1:22 pm
thanks for sharing - very thoughtful