Digging Deep

Cheating on My Diet

Posted kiki on June 11th, 2008 | Filed under Just Venting...

I’ve had a few slips ups this week but nothing like I would do in the past. NO BINGE eating whatsoever! For the most part of the day I follow my low calorie diet to a “T” but for the past two days in the evening I’ve made some pretty bad choices. Yesterday I had tunafish on crackers (about 8 crackers). That wasn’t so bad. But hubby came home LATE LAST NIGHT with pizza, and you guys know my favorite number one food of all time is pizza. So I had a slice and a half. I ate it slow and savored the taste. I paid for it this morning though. I guess because I haven’t been eating fried/greasy/fattening stuff for the past 2 weeks, my body rejected it. I couldn’t stay off the damn toilet this morning!

This evening for dinner I went downstairs and cooked fried potatoes (from 2 whole potatoes) and two scrambled eggs -WITHOUT cheese - HUGE step for me! I enjoyed my dinner at 5pm. At 6pm I went downstairs looking in the fridge and the freezer. I think this was out of boredom, cuz I wasn’t hungry. I think my mouth just misses chewing. So, I had a chocolate eclair icecream bar (I think it’s 150 calories). I also ate that slowly. I keep mentioning that I eat the food slowly because 2 weeks ago this was not how I ate. I ate pretty fast and as a result didn’t give my body time to signal my brain that I was “full.” Therefore leading to overeating.

I guess the purpose of this post is to let you all know that it’s not easy sticking to a restricted diet, even if you have the most serious intentions of losing weight. I completed an AM workout today and I enjoyed it. I don’t feel guilty about cheating on the diet. But I am still very focused on the prize. The key is consistency. Although I had a few cheat foods, that’s not an excuse to pig out tonight and “start fresh” in the morning. No-f*cking-way would I mess up all my hard work. (again, that’s what I USE to do!). Instead my cut off for eating was 6:05–after eating that ice cream bar. If I get hungry at 9pm, I’ll swallow a glass of water. That’s all there is to it.

You must have self control and PATIENCE with yourself. Don’t give up if you’ve eaten a few bad things. Don’t let your slice of pizza turn into a full blown pig fest. It’s not worth the emotional damage you will cause yourself. Enjoy your life, AND your foods, but still keep your eyes on the big picture. My big picture is weighing in at 165 next week.

Kiki out.