This Chickie

Conquering sugar and surrendering to balance.  I gave up sugar Mar 11 and was able to stay off it for about 6 weeks.  Then, I got distracted, life got stressful, and sugar crossed my path.  I let it take over and make its way back into my life again.  4 weeks later, I am now back up 9 pounds and found myself noshing on cookies yesterday.  I feel bloated and lacking in energy.  Due to limited time in my day to meet a deadline, exercise also went out the door.   These are the facts.

 What I know now.  When I am stressed and consumed by a project or life responsibility, my personal care is the first thing out the door.  To me this means I am more susceptible to put others first before myself.  Putting myself first seems to be selfish.  This is something I need to change.  If I take care of myself first, I’ll have more to give back to the world.  I’ve also learned that when sugar and I are not good friends.  I would like to remain acquaintances but only on an as necessary basis.  E.g. if it’s somebody’s birthday, I can have  a little piece of cake and then walk away feeling satisfied.  But for now, I don’t think we can have that relationship.  Distance will make my heart grow fonder and appreciative.  Finally, I need to be balanced.  I tend to go “all or nothing” and that includes forgiving myself.  These are tough lessons to learn because I have built up bad habits through the years where I tend to swing toward the “all or nothing” mentality and then falling to failure.    Moderation and balance will bring me good health mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally.

I wave my white flag.