The site went and changed on me. I hate surprises.

I screwed up pretty good over the weekend. Drank Saturday night and snacked. Then Sunday went to Dad’s for lunch, and I swear all that man knows how to make is fried food, fattening food and fattening fried food. So, I had 2 salads(full fat dressing). And some corn on the cob. And some fried cod (with tartar!). And some french fries. OOPS!!! To top it off, he made some brownies with the chocolate goo stuff on top of it. I refer to them as the “evil pan of doom”. I didn’t touch any of it at his house. Yay! But then he SENDS HOME evil pan of doom! Did good for the first couple hours, knowing my boyfriend was going to take one for the team and take pan of doom to work in the morning (far too willingly, I must say! I wish I could eat that stuff!). But then I kept smelling them. One forkful won’t hurt. Or two. Ok, three and four are killing my efforts.

But the brownies are out of the house, and probably working their way through my boyfriend’s bowels, the weekend is past, so the only thing to do now is look forward.

I didn’t gain this weigh in. But only lost a few oz. Still sitting at 236.

I looked at my exercise log today… 305 minutes of exercise in this week. And I still have either a 20 minute or 45 minute workout tomorrow, depending on what I feel like (I like the 20 minute turbo jam the best, but unless I do that twice, I know I’ve got to do the 45er too). That’s just over 5 hours of exercise for me this week! That’s completely unheard of for me!

It’s really amazing to me how having a support system can help so much. Mom encourages me to go on bike rides with her. My oldest daughter does my workout dvd with me sometimes. My boyfriend praises me for being so devoted and eats healthy with me; doesn’t bring home any junk food. And of course, this site. I lurk a lot. But the stories, and everyone being so helpful towards others is a big fat huge motivator.

 Only 9 lbs gone so far, but curiousty got me to pull out the tape… 2.5 inches gone from my waist!!

Weigh in today. The scale was nice to me. Down from 240 to 236. A total loss of 9 lbs so far.  :D

Had some horrible, awful cravings last night. Wanted to eat everything in site. But I told myself how much I’d regret it. So, being that it was already 10, I decided to just go to bed.

Mom’s birthday today. Not really a party or anything (she doesn’t want one). Just gonna take a gift and hang out for a bit. Maybe tread some more water in the pool for 30 mins.

Apparently I’m taking this weight loss seriously. Or more serious than before. Whichever. This week alone I’ve logged 250 minutes worth of exercise. At first I’d planned on maybe 60 minutes 3 days a week. But now, Sundays are the only days I’ve taken off. And that’s only cuz I won’t exercise in front of Aaron.  I’ve been feeling better for the most part since adding exercise.

I’ve been eating really good too. And yummy foods. I thought eating healthy was like chewing cardboard. So not true. I made some teriyaki chicken last night that I coulda eaten all of. Aaron and the kids scarfed it. And it was a good for you meal with broccoli, roasted potatoes, and brown rice. Junk food just doesn’t taste “right” anymore.

Still weighing excessively. At one point I was back to my start weight for who knows what reason, and now those 6 lbs are gone again. I hope tomorrow’s weigh in is a good one.

So, I’m up a pound. I’ve been weighing myself throughout the week, so I’m not surprised. I guess I have to look at the big picture… I’ve still lost 5 lbs. I’ll lose the rest of it too.

7/20: 239
7/27: 240

I’m not sure I should expect a loss this week. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been very good. Staying within points/calorie range, drinking loads of water (and only water. Still a 2 liter in the fridge I haven’t touched :]) and exercising. But I’ve been weighing myself. Constantly (I had my boyfriend put away the scale finally). And I seem to be holding steady Not even sure if I want to do weigh in tomorrow. I’m a bit confused. And I know these things happen, no matter how good you are, but I thought I’d lose something. Am I building muscle from exercise???

 Anyway, nothing I can do about it but keep doing what I’m doing. My boyfriend told me he’s proud of me for sticking with it

I’ve been eating well. Been logging on sparkpeople. 

The girls’ parties were yesterday. They got lots of toys they’re fighting over now. It’s lovely. Next year, nothing but clothes, I swear. My dad made a ton of food. I took a bite of hotdog and cringed cuz it just tasted so damned salty. So I passed on eating there (choices ranged from loaded mac salad and potato salad, to hotdogs with bacon…wtf?!… and hamburgs), and made myself a healthy meal when we got home. I even passed on having a piece of cake.

I’m down 6 lbs. It’s a huge step, but I know not to expect this weekly.  It’s like my body is in shock. It’s probably saying, “What the heck are all these green foods?!”

Ohhh! Today I did my workout. Kissed my boyfriend goodbye, shut the door, turned on the dvd player… and then the kids came downstairs. Oh well, my oldest did some of the workout with me! It was funny. I think she’s better at the moves than me. I’m learning, again.

I really need to get to taking those “before” pics.

Got my Turbojam workout today. I’m way excited. I wish it was the entire set like I had when I was in WA, but this will do. It’s the 5 workouts on 2 dvds. Learn and burn, 20 minute, turbo sculpt, cardio party and ab jam. Surely enough to keep me busy and losing. Monday I’ll start. Tomorrow is the girls’ birthday parties. Busy busy busy day.

Well, I screwed up last night. 1 drink turned to 2 turned to FIVE! Ugh! And a few chili cheese fries and cheese sticks. Sick sick sick. We had fun, but totally not worth it for the way I’m feeling about myself today. I had done so well yesterday to stay on points target. I suppose the only thing I can do today is stay on target, and not re-enact last night for a long long time (I’m afraid to say never).

I don’t know how many points I consumed last night. At least 10 for the drinks (Captain and diet), and 10 for the cheesesticks, and God only knows with the oil they were fried in.

That’s like an entire day of points. There goes my 35 flex points till the next week. I’m really disappointed in myself.

But, today I’m determined to make better choices. It’s started out well this morning.

Breakfast

1/2 C fiber one w/ 1/3 C blueberries and 1/2 C milk

4 pts

Lunch

Snacks

Dinner

 Last night we also shopped for the girls’ birthday gifts. Their party is Sunday. Doing a joint party again this year since my youngest daughter’s birthday was the 8th, and my oldest’s is the 31st. It’s probably the last year I’ll get away with doing it like that. They’re both 6 right now lol. I’m excited. And my boyfriend has been really wonderful about everything, he’s pretty much taken them in as his own. I’m a very lucky girl.

Tonight’s karaoke night. Kids go to Gramma’s. My boyfriend and I get some time together alone. I’m kind of nervous about tonight. I’ll be at a bar. And I know I’ll have at least one drink. I want to limit myself to no more than two. But I know sometimes I get going, having a good time, and two turns to four turns to six.

I do not want that to happen.

Maybe I’ll ask Aaron to cut me off at 2. He ends up paying. If he refuses to buy me more, I can’t have more. It’s sad I have to devise a plan like this, but I know myself. I go to a bar once in a blue moon and I go overboard. And with it being so early in my weightloss, I want to be safe.

 Had a really good breakfast. I’m having a pretty good day today. The kids were whiny for a bit, but now they are content coloring. Woke up this morning at 6:30 like usual and wanted to go right back to bed. I didn’t, and now I’m feeling pretty energetic. Almost so much so to get my tush to the back room to finish up the laundry lol.

Anyway…

Breakfast

1/2 cup fiber one w/ 1/4 c milk
4 0z container of yogurt

4 pts

Lunch

Tuna fish sandwich (2pc bread, 1 tb reduced mayo, mustard, relish, onion)
Lettuce w/ fat free thousand island (2 tb)

7 pts

Snacks

10 pretzels w/ 2 TBS montery jack salsa con queso– 3 pts
Snuck small bite of my blueberry cobbler — 1 pt
cinimon raisin english muffin w/ egg white (i figured the cinimmon raisin would help satisfy my sweet tooth)– 4 pt

8 pts

Dinner

1 c. brown rice– 4 pts
Topped with broccolli, cauliflower, carrots and 1/4 cup montery jack salsa con queso– 3 pts

7 pts