This has nothing to do with food or dieting whatsoever.

Today when I was driving home from the store, a song came on that made me think of my boyfriend. How lucky I am. I am in complete awe and adoration of him. How I still, after a year and 3 months,  get butterflies when he comes home from a long day of work to hug me. How he’s taken in my kids as his own, makes sure that whether they succeed at the tinyest things, or falter, that they’re always learning. He loves them like his own, and it kind of breaks my heart that they’re real “dad” can’t even do that. But I think it’s for the best. They deserve someone that loves them that much, all day, every day.

I hate songs like that… They make me cheesy.

And not the good kind of cheesy, like on nachos. lol

I’ll make sure to get pics of the fam while we’re on vacation.

Shh, don’t tell the scale I know, or it’ll give me a nasty weigh in on Sunday again… It gave me a lovely number this morning… 234.  I’m excited, but gonna take it with a grain of salt, Sunday’s 4 days away still.

Saturday we leave for up north (that’s what us MI peoples call going to northern MI) for 4 days. We’ve not had a vacation since April, it’s long overdue. I hardly get to see Aaron… He leaves for work at 7 and doesn’t get home till 6:30 M-F, and works till noon Saturday. A whole week of sleeping in and hanging out is going to be glorious.

Off to do chores and make my list for packing!

What’s the point of eating good and exercising if I not only don’t lose weight, but I gain a pound?? I was down to 235 Friday, and I was excited to weigh in today. Well, the scale played a cruel joke on me and showed me 237!! I was almost to the 10 lbs lost mark

I took my measurements again, just to reassure myself. Down 3.5 inches in waist, down 1.5 inches in hips. But still…

I’m bummed

Virtual me at 245







Virtual me at 150

I started this a couple weeks ago, then just forgot about it. Today I figured, what the hell, I’ve got a long ways to goal, but the future virtual me is pretty damn motivating.
Worked out this morn. Turbo sculpt and turbo jam 20 minute workout. Holy crap that sculpting thing kicks my butt. Then the kids and I went to the farmers market and got a lot of yummy veggies. The sweet onion, oh my god… *drools*
Been busy in the yard today. Painting anything I can find with this awesome chrome paint. A cabinet, the mailbox, a toolbox… My boyfriend shouldn’t be surprised if he wakes in the morning and the house is painted chrome! lol. It’s stupid really. I’ve still got friggen dishes to do. Maybe I should go do that now…

I cooked with butter tonight. This is a blog-worthy, big deal for me. I haven’t used butter but for one other time during this current weight loss journey. I was a butter junkie. We’ve had the same stick of butter in the fridge for a month, so I don’t feel guilty for using a couple TBS to saute onion, garlic and seasonings for my taters and mushrooms. Yummmmmmy. House smells so good right now. And some ocean perch with the best breading I’ve ever found. The breading actually tastes better baked than fried!

So, that’s all, I’m excited for dinner. I screwed up and haven’t eaten since 11:30. Thank God I didn’t start eating junk and just decided to make dinner instead!

Last night was the third time we’d been to dad’s to work on the garage downstairs. Holy hell. It’s neverending. Moved more boxes last night. Emptied the cupboards. Burned a bunch of crap. Took a 2 pound sledge to the cupboards. HOOO BOY! Talk about a workout and a stress reliever!! I think I came close to screwing up my back again, but higher up this time. Would make sense since I was swinging the hammer over my head mostly. God that was so fun lol. Feeling it in my body this morning. It actually feels good to me. And that workout was on top of the strength training, turbo sculpt and 20 min turbo jam yesterday. It was a good day

Pushed through my workout this morning. 40 mins turbo jam. I’m kinda looking forward to weigh in this weekend.

Vacation in 8 days. Hoping I can manage to log things on paper and not just eat anything/everything in sight. Aaron’s been pretty good about keeping me in check though.

I decided to try my workout this morning to see what my back had to say about it. I made it through all 45 minutes of tae bo! AND I already feel better today than yesterday. If that’s not a reason to not miss workouts, I don’t know what is

Went to walmart this morning. I love back to school sales. Cheap supplies!! 22 cents for 2 pack of glue sticks. 24 cents for crayons. 88 cents for markers. 60 cents for colored pencils. So, I bought the kids some of each, put them into crayon boxes, and I’ll give em to them the day before first day school. They love that sort of stuff. I also bought a bunch more to stock up for the rest of the year. Crayons, glue, markers galore! I hate walmart, but I suppose if it’s the only time of the year I go, I’m kinda okay with that.

My babies are growing up (kidnergarten and 1st)… When did that happen??

I’m a little peeved right now. My boyfriend and I worked Sunday at dad’s to clean out the downstairs garage. When his ex wife decided a divorce was in order, she didn’t take anything but what she wanted at that moment for her new house. Pictures of her kids thrown about. Old items of her dad’s everywhere. Pictures of her two deceased siblings on the floor. Just momentos everywhere. And maybe it’s crude of me, but if she couldn’t think to grab this stuff then, four years later it’s not going to be important either. So, I’m tossing it. The garage is tore up (shoulda got before pics). Oil on the floor because her youngest son would change the oil in his car, put the oil in milk containers, and just leave it. So after so many years, they’ve busted open and the floor is an oil slick. Beer bottles EVERYWHERE. I think we boxed up around 30 bucks in bottles (at 10 cents each, that’s a lot!). Just crap everywhere. It’s unreal. Though, I did get a nice set of pans that are in surprisingly, perfect condition.

Anyway, that’s not why I’m peeved. I messed up my back in the process. I didn’t feel it much yesterday morning, so I forced myself to exercise anyway. Well, I felt it in the afternoon. And today. I’ve been on the heating pad this morning and I feel sooooo lazy that I didn’t get my workout in. It’s kinda dragging me down. It’s the first one I’ve missed so far. It’s a bit of a bummer, but I’m terrified of throwing out my back and being bed ridden like 7 years ago. And I got a new workout and some dumbbells yesterday!

The site went and changed on me. I hate surprises.

I screwed up pretty good over the weekend. Drank Saturday night and snacked. Then Sunday went to Dad’s for lunch, and I swear all that man knows how to make is fried food, fattening food and fattening fried food. So, I had 2 salads(full fat dressing). And some corn on the cob. And some fried cod (with tartar!). And some french fries. OOPS!!! To top it off, he made some brownies with the chocolate goo stuff on top of it. I refer to them as the “evil pan of doom”. I didn’t touch any of it at his house. Yay! But then he SENDS HOME evil pan of doom! Did good for the first couple hours, knowing my boyfriend was going to take one for the team and take pan of doom to work in the morning (far too willingly, I must say! I wish I could eat that stuff!). But then I kept smelling them. One forkful won’t hurt. Or two. Ok, three and four are killing my efforts.

But the brownies are out of the house, and probably working their way through my boyfriend’s bowels, the weekend is past, so the only thing to do now is look forward.

I didn’t gain this weigh in. But only lost a few oz. Still sitting at 236.

I looked at my exercise log today… 305 minutes of exercise in this week. And I still have either a 20 minute or 45 minute workout tomorrow, depending on what I feel like (I like the 20 minute turbo jam the best, but unless I do that twice, I know I’ve got to do the 45er too). That’s just over 5 hours of exercise for me this week! That’s completely unheard of for me!

It’s really amazing to me how having a support system can help so much. Mom encourages me to go on bike rides with her. My oldest daughter does my workout dvd with me sometimes. My boyfriend praises me for being so devoted and eats healthy with me; doesn’t bring home any junk food. And of course, this site. I lurk a lot. But the stories, and everyone being so helpful towards others is a big fat huge motivator.

 Only 9 lbs gone so far, but curiousty got me to pull out the tape… 2.5 inches gone from my waist!!