So, I’m up a pound. I’ve been weighing myself throughout the week, so I’m not surprised. I guess I have to look at the big picture… I’ve still lost 5 lbs. I’ll lose the rest of it too.

7/20: 239
7/27: 240

I’m not sure I should expect a loss this week. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been very good. Staying within points/calorie range, drinking loads of water (and only water. Still a 2 liter in the fridge I haven’t touched :]) and exercising. But I’ve been weighing myself. Constantly (I had my boyfriend put away the scale finally). And I seem to be holding steady Not even sure if I want to do weigh in tomorrow. I’m a bit confused. And I know these things happen, no matter how good you are, but I thought I’d lose something. Am I building muscle from exercise???

 Anyway, nothing I can do about it but keep doing what I’m doing. My boyfriend told me he’s proud of me for sticking with it

I’ve been eating well. Been logging on sparkpeople. 

The girls’ parties were yesterday. They got lots of toys they’re fighting over now. It’s lovely. Next year, nothing but clothes, I swear. My dad made a ton of food. I took a bite of hotdog and cringed cuz it just tasted so damned salty. So I passed on eating there (choices ranged from loaded mac salad and potato salad, to hotdogs with bacon…wtf?!… and hamburgs), and made myself a healthy meal when we got home. I even passed on having a piece of cake.

I’m down 6 lbs. It’s a huge step, but I know not to expect this weekly.  It’s like my body is in shock. It’s probably saying, “What the heck are all these green foods?!”

Ohhh! Today I did my workout. Kissed my boyfriend goodbye, shut the door, turned on the dvd player… and then the kids came downstairs. Oh well, my oldest did some of the workout with me! It was funny. I think she’s better at the moves than me. I’m learning, again.

I really need to get to taking those “before” pics.

Got my Turbojam workout today. I’m way excited. I wish it was the entire set like I had when I was in WA, but this will do. It’s the 5 workouts on 2 dvds. Learn and burn, 20 minute, turbo sculpt, cardio party and ab jam. Surely enough to keep me busy and losing. Monday I’ll start. Tomorrow is the girls’ birthday parties. Busy busy busy day.

Well, I screwed up last night. 1 drink turned to 2 turned to FIVE! Ugh! And a few chili cheese fries and cheese sticks. Sick sick sick. We had fun, but totally not worth it for the way I’m feeling about myself today. I had done so well yesterday to stay on points target. I suppose the only thing I can do today is stay on target, and not re-enact last night for a long long time (I’m afraid to say never).

I don’t know how many points I consumed last night. At least 10 for the drinks (Captain and diet), and 10 for the cheesesticks, and God only knows with the oil they were fried in.

That’s like an entire day of points. There goes my 35 flex points till the next week. I’m really disappointed in myself.

But, today I’m determined to make better choices. It’s started out well this morning.

Breakfast

1/2 C fiber one w/ 1/3 C blueberries and 1/2 C milk

4 pts

Lunch

Snacks

Dinner

 Last night we also shopped for the girls’ birthday gifts. Their party is Sunday. Doing a joint party again this year since my youngest daughter’s birthday was the 8th, and my oldest’s is the 31st. It’s probably the last year I’ll get away with doing it like that. They’re both 6 right now lol. I’m excited. And my boyfriend has been really wonderful about everything, he’s pretty much taken them in as his own. I’m a very lucky girl.

Tonight’s karaoke night. Kids go to Gramma’s. My boyfriend and I get some time together alone. I’m kind of nervous about tonight. I’ll be at a bar. And I know I’ll have at least one drink. I want to limit myself to no more than two. But I know sometimes I get going, having a good time, and two turns to four turns to six.

I do not want that to happen.

Maybe I’ll ask Aaron to cut me off at 2. He ends up paying. If he refuses to buy me more, I can’t have more. It’s sad I have to devise a plan like this, but I know myself. I go to a bar once in a blue moon and I go overboard. And with it being so early in my weightloss, I want to be safe.

 Had a really good breakfast. I’m having a pretty good day today. The kids were whiny for a bit, but now they are content coloring. Woke up this morning at 6:30 like usual and wanted to go right back to bed. I didn’t, and now I’m feeling pretty energetic. Almost so much so to get my tush to the back room to finish up the laundry lol.

Anyway…

Breakfast

1/2 cup fiber one w/ 1/4 c milk
4 0z container of yogurt

4 pts

Lunch

Tuna fish sandwich (2pc bread, 1 tb reduced mayo, mustard, relish, onion)
Lettuce w/ fat free thousand island (2 tb)

7 pts

Snacks

10 pretzels w/ 2 TBS montery jack salsa con queso– 3 pts
Snuck small bite of my blueberry cobbler — 1 pt
cinimon raisin english muffin w/ egg white (i figured the cinimmon raisin would help satisfy my sweet tooth)– 4 pt

8 pts

Dinner

1 c. brown rice– 4 pts
Topped with broccolli, cauliflower, carrots and 1/4 cup montery jack salsa con queso– 3 pts

7 pts

My eating habits haven’t been fantastic today, but better than before. Went for a little bike ride. Pushed myself hard. It was nice. Really want my dvds to come so I can workout in the morning, before the kids get up and after my boyfriend leaves for work. Around 7. Maybe I’ll push for 5, before anyone is up. Nicer to get it done in the morning anyway. Cooler, it’s done, I don’t have to worry about it later on, and maybe, I’ll even feel up to another workout later in the day. I’m really excited for this. 21 days to make something a habit I’ve heard.

I haven’t weighed myself since I determined my start weight. I don’t know how often I want to weigh. Weekly? Bi-weekly? I know any setback, any gain whatsoever typically hits me hard. So I want it to be limited. I want my body to tell me how I’m doing.

Tomorrow I get to go to karaoke. I rarely get to go to that. I’m gonna have to limit myself to one or two drinks tops. That many once in a blue moon isn’t too bad, right?

My boyfriend and I started a tradition last year. Going to Cedar Point. I used to go yearly when I was younger, so it’s nice to start that again. I love the place. And this year we’re taking the kids. They’ll have a blast! We don’t go until after Labor Day, after all the kids are back in school. And we go on a Sunday. Much less busy, way shorter lines. Shhh! Don’t let our secret out ;]


I used to be skinnier back then though (last year and when I was a kid), so I want to set up a bit of a mini goal. I figure if we go in 10 weeks, that would be around September 27, I am perfectly capable of losing 20 lbs. Maybe more given my current weight and level of fitness. But 20 is gonna be the minimum.


So that’s my mini goal. 20 lbs in 10 weeks. Seems realistic, and I’ve done it before.

It’s about time. Again. Been down this road before. Gained 60 of it back starting around Thanksgiving last year.  All that hard work wasted. Nothing to do now but jump back on and get going again.

A few confessions first. Mainly to remind myself and keep my butt in gear. I love to bake. I’m really good at baking. So that usually includes sweets. I’ve only recently gotten good at cooking. I have a horrible sweet tooth. Stupid sweets. I know I won’t entirely get away from sweets. But gosh, if I just cut back! I’ve already given up soda. Again. I have to force myself to eat breakfast. I don’t feel like eating in the mornings (I did have breakfast yesterday and today though… A bowl of Fiber One with bananas cut into it. That’s a start, right?). Most the time I hate excercise(duh). The conventional kind anyway(I guess that means machines and gyms?). Though, I love bike riding. My boyfriend, the kids and I went for a bike ride the other day and I did fine until we came to a steep hill. I didn’t make it that far away from home, maybe a mile. That broke my heart and I wanted to cry because last year my boyfriend and I were always on bike rides. What a difference 60 added lbs makes =[  Though, I will admit, I felt pretty damn good after that short ride. Awesome!

So that’s got me excited. My first real taste of excercise in quite some time. I loved that feeling after working out. It kept me wanting to do it. And kept me from eating junk. Why work your butt off then eat something to totally cancel the effort? How did I ever get away from excercise???

Someday, when I feel comfortable, perhaps I’ll post a “before”, current, picture of me. Like when I lose a significant amount.

Something I came across in my email that had come from another site. I love it’s wisdom, it’s what honestly made me stop in my tracks and say to myself, ‘What the hell am I doing? Waiting for the weight to just disappear???’ So I thought I’d share.

“If you forgot to brush your teeth last night, did you decide this morning to throw in the towel and never brush your teeth again? Since you’re obviously a slob who doesn’t have enough self- discipline to remember to brush your teeth, why bother brushing them at all if you forgot to last night?
Of course not.
So if you had ice cream for dinner last night, or didn’t exercise yesterday, or gained a pound this week, don’t throw in the towel! Make a healthier choice for dinner tonight by eating something lean. Go for a short walk. Weigh in again next week.