Here I Go Again!!

I went to my 2nd meeting today, it went well. They said I lost 1.8 lbs. for the week. I lost while on my period too. So I am really excited because I actually may have lost a little more. I had shimp creole served with pasta with my parents today it was EXCELLENT and since they have almost lost all the weight they need to they know how to cook healthy so according to weight watchers I had about 6 points for lunch. Which is excellent and I am stuffed. I watched everything that went into and nothing bad went in there. I will be making that soon. She used a recipe from the Joy Of Cooking book that she has had for YEARS. If you dont have that book you need to get it. Not everything in there is low fat or low in calories but you can always make it low calorie I have found out. 

Today I am going to Summer Clean my house I get so bored of sitting on the weekends and waisting my time so I decided I would finally clean my house. I am kind of a neat freak or at least I would like to be. I hope everyone has a great weekend and Good Luck!!

I am having a MUCH better day this morning! Thank you for your encouraging words. I didn’t eat anything bad for me yesterday I am very proud of myself for making it through. Today has to be better, I am trying a new hobby to keep myself from getting bored and eating, so I picked up decorating my house. I am getting some fabric to make throw pillows and lace and buttons to fix up my curtains. My husband thinks I have gone nuts! If it was up to him we would have the same pictures on the wall from the 1970’s. I am not affraid of change like he is. In fact I love to do stuff with my house it makes me feel like I have put some effort into something I created! I hope everyone has a great day and good luck to everyone!!  

Man today is NOT a good day!! I am struggling hard. I am craving something greasy and fatty. I ate my turkey sausage on a english muffin but it did not stop the craving. I am having a really bad day already. I had a coke to start off the morning (bad idea) I didn’t take my medicine or my vitamins I feel like I took a step backward. I was so excited about losing my 5 lbs and I thought that would encourage me to keep going but all I want to do today is go home and sleep until I feel better.

Okay so I stepped on the scale this morning in my closet because that is one of the only flat places I have to weigh and it showed 5lbs. lighter to what the Doctor said. I am sure the scale is different and I won’t put to much into it but I was very excited and whatever helps keep me motivated I will take!! My youngest son is visiting grandma for the month so I actually get to concentrate on myself for a little while, it really is helping me START this “way of living.” I miss him dearly and was thinking about him lastnight.  My husband that was supporting me so nicely made a yellow cake lastnight, I could not resist so I ate a little piece. Thank goodness was under on points for WW or I would have broke into my little extra stash of points and did not want too!! So I have to have a little more self control today because I save those for the weekend :).  Well have to go back to work. Everyone have a great day and goodluck!!

Okay..today marks 1 full week of my “new way of living.” I have changed from ground beef to ground turkey. I have only had 1 coke a day, and am cutting that down to half a coke a day, to many points for a whole one. Weight Watchers is really helping! I appreciate the advice that it really does work. I am going to my second meeting on Saturday. 4th of July was really hard for me but I did really good. The problem is that I did not eat enough because I was afraid of going over on my point since beer was involved to, so I actually found out I drank more. I hope and figure I was not the only one though. I went camping and swimming it was nice to be outdoors since my job consists of only being inside. I am a positive thinker here recently and actually think it is going to work this time! I found a great blog sight to vent out all of my crap and a great program that I think actually works! I have to remember to keep sticking with it and everyday is a new day. Good luck everyone and remember POSITIVE THINKING!!

I loved my meeting last night!! I found people who were my age and my size. More people who would understand what I was going through. The biggest part of my diet is that! I have been taking Cymbalta for my depression. The doctor told me it might make me sleepy so I took it before I went to bed. I felt like getting up and dancing at 2am. SO I took it this moring and have been wired! Feels nice to be awake though. I cannot tell if it is doing anything. My doctor said that it would take a couple of weeks to notice any difference.

I tried talking to my bestfriend about the meeting I went to, because she asked and she blew me off, kept saying that their way of approaching “the new way of life” is the same as what we have been doing. I tried to explain to her that it was not the same and it was also about portion control. I left the conversation at that. Sometimes I feel like she does not want me to loose weight. She is the same size as me and everything that we do usually revolves around food, I think she might be mad if I take that bond away. I tried explaining to her that I was doing it for me, so I would be healthier and that I am not going to loose her as a bestfriend over a “new way of living” that we could still do everything that we did before I would just be eating a little different and also that she does not have to cater to me. I hope she will learn to understand.

So tomorrow is the big day! I am going to a Weight Watchers meeting and tonight I start taking medication for my depression! My new way of life starts TONIGHT!! I am scared because of course 4th of July is around the corner and we ALWAYS have a big 4th of July Party, which consists of REALLY good food. I will do the best I can to curb some of that. Maybe I will cook all of it so I can make something a little different for myself. Have to think about that a little more. That is a lot of work! So I have only had 1 soda a day for the last week so that when I start this it would not even be a problem. I think I drop to half now, and then none. I cannot wait. Coke ruled my world for to long. I am done! I was looking at a lot of the blogs on here and was looking at the menus I have seen quite a few sound good recipes, I will need to try. I had know idea what Ricotta Creme was. Found a recipe after seeing it and it looks wonderful!! Definantly will try it!

GOOD LUCK AND BEST WISHES

Okay so lastnight I went to a T.O.P.S meeting. I sat down in a room with a bunch of strangers (which is not like me!) I looked around the room and I was the youngest one! When I talked myself into this I was excited to meet people that were like me. Overweight and wanting help but also my age I guess. I think I have come to a small conclusion that people my age don’t want help like that or they do and they are not ready to commit to different lifestyle. I guess I am too though. So I cannot say to much!! So back on my point I need a group that TEACHES me about eating habits and different things. I guess I was expecting something totally different!! I felt like I was in Kindergarten doing Arts and Crafts. I live in smaller city so I guess things are different in a big city. So I decided that I would not sign up for T.O.P.S but instead try Weight Watchers.  So I will try that. Good luck to everyone on their goals.

 Goal for June 27th- 1 Soda for the day! (So far so good.)

Okay, so I did not start my diet yesterday like I wanted too. I was sick..sick..sick. So I guess again I will start tomorrow. I am going to a TOPS meeting tomorrow to check it out. I hope I can get a little more motivated to do something with myself because right now I have none!! I have every reason in the world too but I can’t get “into” it. Hopefully TOPS will help. Good Luck Everyone.

So tommorow I go in to the doctor again and see if my blood pressure went down! I also get to find out if I can get help with pills or something. I have been drinking a lot more water. I have only had about a coke and a half a day. That is really good for me.

So I went into Wal-Mart lastnight! I actually went in there to buy me some workout shorts… do you know that you have to be tiny to buy WORKOUT SHORTS!! I went over to the plus sizes to find some and there was not even a workout section for bigger women!! A little ironic I thought. So I have to workout just to buy some workout shorts. A little frustrated; sorry.

 So I have made my menu for the week. I am kind of excited my husband is actually going to eat some of the things that I have planned with me. I have not come up with an exercise plan yet. I am trying to think of excercise that does not make me have to get out in the 103-105 degree West Texas days. I also need to invest in a MP3 player it is so boring exercising by myself and not having anything to listen to. So I found out I stop quicker. I hear my husband getting frustrated at the kids or the kids fighting between each other and I stop to go tend to them. It is a situation I had to deal with last time. Probably a great investment for me. I have not had a lot of money here lately to buy one so I should probably treat myself to it. Best of luck to myself and everyone else.