Here I Go Again!!

Better Moods

jluvaul — Wed, 27 Aug 2008 15:59:17 +0000

I am so glad I am in a better mood this morning! I am excited about starting over again and cannot wait. I had two people compliment me saying that it had looked like I had lost some weight, in reality though I know that I have not lost that much, plus I probably gained it all back.

Tonight I am going to go home and write down a plan! Something I did not do in the past. I am not sure where to start on this plan. I am going to a meeting tomorrow so maybe I will just wait and see what they have to motivate me more with. I will let you know what happens. Good Luck everyone!!

Angry little spitfire.

jluvaul — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 15:05:47 +0000

So I need to get back on my wagon. I stopped going to my meeting since school started getting closer and closer and now that it is in which means no more doctors appointments or school clothes shopping or supply shopping or dentist appointments crying children because they have to go to bed an hour earlier I can start thinking about myself again. I need to start as strong and hard as I fell off. I told myself I would do this and I did not go all the way through. I got weak and gave up. So I am going to start again. I heard my husband talking to his mother about me and my weight, I only heard the last part of it when I was hopping out of the shower in the other bedroom. I felt terrible that my husband is talking to his mother about my weight. I did not go ape shit because I did not know what was said completely. It only made me want to start again. My mother keeps cracking the damn comments to me that really are starting to irritate me I guess because they are true but it is really upsetting me. She always knows how to make you feel like shit when you are having a relatively good day. Little comments like “should you be eating that?” “you know how many calories that has in it”, “guess you cannot have to many of those”, “have you been going to your meetings”, “have you been exercising”, “you know that is not going to take off the weight” I don’t even live with this woman, this is only when we see each other and we don’t see each other that often I would think that she would lay off after two weeks of not seeing me. ERRRRRRRRR>……I am so frustrated….I just want to tell them to LEAVE ME ALONE!!

Okay I am better thanks for letting me vent on here. I will try my best at this, I need to start blogging again like I was, I just started running out of things to say. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!

Busy Times

jluvaul — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 14:40:50 +0000

I have been extremely busy! Kids going back to school YEAH!!! I am very excited about that. I can get back to a normal routine. Summer kills me. I have been watching what I am eating. I have not been to WW meeting in a while. I need to go and face the music. I think I have lost some weight thought. I hope everyone is doing well!

It’s been a while

jluvaul — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 13:32:14 +0000

So I have been doing just “okay” in the last couple weeks. I didn’t realize that it has been this long since I have wrote anything. I have gained and lost so I am very frustrated and happy just depends what day you talk to me on. My kiddos are gone for 4 days with grandma and grandpa! THANK YOU PARENTS!! I can focus back on myself. Getting kiddos ready for school has taken the attention off me and on to them. I have not been journaling, I have been trying to get to a meeting but I have not found 30 minutes on their time to do it. So I have some making up to do for myself. I need to spend some quality time with the hubby before he thinks I am ignoring him, which he probably has not even noticed I have been ignoring him. Typical. I am making a list of things to do today for the weekend and while the kiddo’s are gone. Hopefully I can keep myself busy enough to not eat as much. I guess I will look at it this way~ at least my house will be spotless!! Good Luck everyone! Missed ya.

Just Another Manic Monday

jluvaul — Mon, 28 Jul 2008 13:27:27 +0000

Good Morning 3FC! I woke up and told myself that this week was going to be a good week and I would not let things interfere with my goals. I really need to find an MP3 player I was walking lastnight and singing The Bangels and of course it was this song. I got 1 lap down and then went home. I can’t sing to myself I did notice I started to go faster when I started singing I figured it was me trying to run away from myself! That would not surprise me.

*My goal for this week is to write daily, journal daily, and eat like I am supposed to. ” Good Luck everyone!

A woman on a mission

jluvaul — Thu, 24 Jul 2008 14:49:48 +0000

Okay. Here it is. I have read everyones ideas and have come up with this. I am going to write me a list of to do’s for this weekend. I am going to go to my meeting and fess up to myself that I cheated and then from there I will cry and get over it and do it again. I am going to make some little snacks for this weekend, b/c I know me and I will just eat because I am bored. So! As for today I am having a realtivaly good morning so far. I had a burrito that I made at home. I have had my medicine and waters and 1 coke zero. I am feeling pretty good today.

My husband is going out of town this weekend and it will be just me and my oldest son. It is going to be pretty nice. I have not had that in a while. My husband was VERY disappointed in me on Tuesday when I decided not to go to my meeting I didn’t know how to react to it. I just told him that it was only supposed to be me that I was disappointing and that I was not doing this for him but only for myself. He rebuttled with “you told me to push you” I guess he is right but when I tell him I don’t want to go I should not have to explain myself or should I! I don’t know. I got over it though it could have been worse and we could have argued about it. But we didn’t. Good luck everyone! I will keep you posted on how the day went.

Start Over Again!!

jluvaul — Wed, 23 Jul 2008 14:35:10 +0000

Okay after yesterdays entry I have to do something! I know I can do this. Food hates me or loves me to much. I will keep control of it and I will do this. I may have to start over again BUT I WILL LOOSE THIS WEIGHT! I woke up after a goodnight sleep took my medicine and vitamins had WW Breakfast and a coke 0 to wake me up. With that in mind it is water the rest of the day. I promised myself I can do this and the only person I am dissappointing is myself (not good for the self esteem) . Love yourself and good luck.

3:30: I am having a great day. It started off well and it is staying like that. I have to come to realize after reading a couple of the blogs that I am not the only one this happens to. I had a smartone Ravioli something. It was not very filling at all I will try something else next time. I think I am going to go to meeting Tomorrow that way I at least feel like I tried.

Having a bad week

jluvaul — Tue, 22 Jul 2008 18:58:16 +0000

I have completely failed my diet this week!! It started this weekend. I HATE WEEKENDS because of this!! I have not been able to get my mind back on track! I am still eating like it is the weekend. I did not go to my meeting on Saturday. I slept in! I am not very happy with myself right now. I promised myself I would do this and I have NO SELF CONTROL!! I have to get back on track. I guess I will just start all over. I have got to figure this “new way of living” stuff out. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!!! Why is it so DAMN HARD!!

Almost the weekend!!

jluvaul — Thu, 17 Jul 2008 16:01:12 +0000

I love the weekends and I hate them too. I get to spend time with my crazy family and remember why I love working. But I hate the weekends b/c it is so dang hard to eat healthy! I have such a hard time on the weekends so it feels like I am starting over on Monday. I wish I had plan of action.

Today is a really good day. I went out dancing last night with some of my girlfriends and had a great time. I woke up in a very good mood even considering I was running late to work and still had to take my oldest to grandpa’s. Oops! So starting today I REALLY need to stick with my diet. I feel like I am slipping a little bit. I am not on plan with ww b/c I cannot seem to EAT ENOUGH! I am not a snacker, but I try here lately just to grab the points. I think my problem is other than lunch I am having a hard time eating healthy even though I get my recipes from the WW website, they seem a little fattening to me. I didn’t realize I could actually eat Velveeta on my diet. Seems unreal! When I eat stuff like that I just have smaller portions than even as usual. I have been craving Tilapia with a mango salsa, so maybe I will make that this weekend. Sounds good. Well I wish everyone good luck and happy eating!

Tuesday

jluvaul — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 13:36:21 +0000

Well I have been doing just okay. I have been taking my medicine and watching what I eat. I keep forgetting my food diary at home which is not a good thing. When I get to work I keep track of what I ate but I keep forgetting to transfer it to my diary. I HAVE to do that tonight. I almost feel like I am slipping up more. I have not eaten anything to bad for me. The weekends do kill me though. I need to find out what I need to do to stay on track. It is harder on Mondays to start over. I do really good during the week though. I need to learn exactly what I do during the week that is different. My husband and kids will go get hamburgers or my weakness Jack in the Box, and I don’t want to cook me anything so I will just get something from there. BAD IDEA! I need to shape up!