So I need to get back on my wagon. I stopped going to my meeting since school started getting closer and closer and now that it is in which means no more doctors appointments or school clothes shopping or supply shopping or dentist appointments crying children because they have to go to bed an hour earlier I can start thinking about myself again. I need to start as strong and hard as I fell off. I told myself I would do this and I did not go all the way through. I got weak and gave up. So I am going to start again. I heard my husband talking to his mother about me and my weight, I only heard the last part of it when I was hopping out of the shower in the other bedroom. I felt terrible that my husband is talking to his mother about my weight. I did not go ape shit because I did not know what was said completely. It only made me want to start again. My mother keeps cracking the damn comments to me that really are starting to irritate me I guess because they are true but it is really upsetting me. She always knows how to make you feel like shit when you are having a relatively good day. Little comments like “should you be eating that?” “you know how many calories that has in it”, “guess you cannot have to many of those”, “have you been going to your meetings”, “have you been exercising”, “you know that is not going to take off the weight” I don’t even live with this woman, this is only when we see each other and we don’t see each other that often I would think that she would lay off after two weeks of not seeing me. ERRRRRRRRR>……I am so frustrated….I just want to tell them to LEAVE ME ALONE!!
Okay I am better thanks for letting me vent on here. I will try my best at this, I need to start blogging again like I was, I just started running out of things to say. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!
