Here I Go Again!!

Good Morning 3FC! I woke up and told myself that this week was going to be a good week and I would not let things interfere with my goals. I really need to find an MP3 player I was walking lastnight and singing The Bangels and of course it was this song. I got 1 lap down and then went home. I can’t sing to myself I did notice I started to go faster when I started singing I figured it was me trying to run away from myself! That would not surprise me.

*My goal for this week is to write daily, journal daily, and eat like I am supposed to. ” Good Luck everyone!

Okay. Here it is. I have read everyones ideas and have come up with this. I am going to write me a list of to do’s for this weekend. I am going to go to my meeting and fess up to myself that I cheated and then from there I will cry and get over it and do it again. I am going to make some little snacks for this weekend, b/c I know me and I will just eat because I am bored. So! As for today I am having a realtivaly good morning so far. I had a burrito that I made at home. I have had my medicine and waters and 1 coke zero. I am feeling pretty good today.

My husband is going out of town this weekend and it will be just me and my oldest son. It is going to be pretty nice. I have not had that in a while. My husband was VERY disappointed in me on Tuesday when I decided not to go to my meeting I didn’t know how to react to it. I just told him that it was only supposed to be me that I was disappointing and that I was not doing this for him but only for myself. He rebuttled with “you told me to push you” I guess he is right but when I tell him I don’t want to go I should not have to explain myself or should I! I don’t know. I got over it though it could have been worse and we could have argued about it. But we didn’t.  Good luck everyone! I will keep you posted on how the day went.

Okay after yesterdays entry I have to do something! I know I can do this. Food hates me or loves me to much. I will keep control of it and I will do this. I may have to start over again BUT I WILL LOOSE THIS WEIGHT! I woke up after a goodnight sleep took my medicine and vitamins had WW Breakfast and a coke 0 to wake me up. With that in mind it is water the rest of the day. I promised myself I can do this and the only person I am dissappointing is myself (not good for the self esteem) . Love yourself and good luck.

 3:30: I am having a great day. It started off well and it is staying like that. I have to come to realize after reading a couple of the blogs that I am not the only one this happens to. I had  a smartone Ravioli something. It was not very filling at all I will try something else next time. I think I am going to go to meeting Tomorrow that way I at least feel like I tried.

I have completely failed my diet this week!! It started this weekend. I HATE WEEKENDS because of this!! I have not been able to get my mind back on track! I am still eating like it is the weekend. I did not go to my meeting on Saturday. I slept in! I am not very happy with myself right now. I promised myself I would do this and I have NO SELF CONTROL!! I have to get back on track. I guess I will just start all over. I have got to figure this “new way of living” stuff out. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!!! Why is it so DAMN HARD!!

I love the weekends and I hate them too. I get to spend time with my crazy family and remember why I love working. But I hate the weekends b/c it is so dang hard to eat healthy! I have such a hard time on the weekends so it feels like I am starting over on Monday. I wish I had plan of action. 

Today is a really good day. I went out dancing last night with some of my girlfriends and had a great time. I woke up in a very good mood even considering I was running late to work and still had to take my oldest to grandpa’s. Oops! So starting today I REALLY need to stick with my diet. I feel like I am slipping a little bit. I am not on plan with ww b/c I cannot seem to EAT ENOUGH! I am not a snacker, but I try here lately just to grab the points. I think my problem is other than lunch I am having a hard time eating healthy even though I get my recipes from the WW website, they seem a little fattening to me. I didn’t realize I could actually eat Velveeta on my diet. Seems unreal! When I eat stuff like that I just have smaller portions than even as usual. I have been craving Tilapia with a mango salsa, so maybe I will make that this weekend. Sounds good. Well I wish everyone good luck and happy eating!

Well I have been doing just okay. I have been taking my medicine and watching what I eat. I keep forgetting my food diary at home which is not a good thing. When I get to work I keep track of what I ate but I keep forgetting to transfer it to my diary. I HAVE to do that tonight. I almost feel like I am slipping up more. I have not eaten anything to bad for me. The weekends do kill me though. I need to find out what I need to do to stay on track. It is harder on Mondays to start over. I do really good during the week though. I need to learn exactly what I do during the week that is different. My husband and kids will go get hamburgers or my weakness Jack in the Box, and I don’t want to cook me anything so I will just get something from there. BAD IDEA! I need to shape up!

I went to my 2nd meeting today, it went well. They said I lost 1.8 lbs. for the week. I lost while on my period too. So I am really excited because I actually may have lost a little more. I had shimp creole served with pasta with my parents today it was EXCELLENT and since they have almost lost all the weight they need to they know how to cook healthy so according to weight watchers I had about 6 points for lunch. Which is excellent and I am stuffed. I watched everything that went into and nothing bad went in there. I will be making that soon. She used a recipe from the Joy Of Cooking book that she has had for YEARS. If you dont have that book you need to get it. Not everything in there is low fat or low in calories but you can always make it low calorie I have found out. 

Today I am going to Summer Clean my house I get so bored of sitting on the weekends and waisting my time so I decided I would finally clean my house. I am kind of a neat freak or at least I would like to be. I hope everyone has a great weekend and Good Luck!!

I am having a MUCH better day this morning! Thank you for your encouraging words. I didn’t eat anything bad for me yesterday I am very proud of myself for making it through. Today has to be better, I am trying a new hobby to keep myself from getting bored and eating, so I picked up decorating my house. I am getting some fabric to make throw pillows and lace and buttons to fix up my curtains. My husband thinks I have gone nuts! If it was up to him we would have the same pictures on the wall from the 1970’s. I am not affraid of change like he is. In fact I love to do stuff with my house it makes me feel like I have put some effort into something I created! I hope everyone has a great day and good luck to everyone!!  

Man today is NOT a good day!! I am struggling hard. I am craving something greasy and fatty. I ate my turkey sausage on a english muffin but it did not stop the craving. I am having a really bad day already. I had a coke to start off the morning (bad idea) I didn’t take my medicine or my vitamins I feel like I took a step backward. I was so excited about losing my 5 lbs and I thought that would encourage me to keep going but all I want to do today is go home and sleep until I feel better.

Okay so I stepped on the scale this morning in my closet because that is one of the only flat places I have to weigh and it showed 5lbs. lighter to what the Doctor said. I am sure the scale is different and I won’t put to much into it but I was very excited and whatever helps keep me motivated I will take!! My youngest son is visiting grandma for the month so I actually get to concentrate on myself for a little while, it really is helping me START this “way of living.” I miss him dearly and was thinking about him lastnight.  My husband that was supporting me so nicely made a yellow cake lastnight, I could not resist so I ate a little piece. Thank goodness was under on points for WW or I would have broke into my little extra stash of points and did not want too!! So I have to have a little more self control today because I save those for the weekend :).  Well have to go back to work. Everyone have a great day and goodluck!!